"s-...." I murmured with a low voice as I stared at my manager's eyes which were obviously full of disappointment. "j-Jong suk-aa..you're girlfriend downstairs" eunji speaked looking at the floor not wanting to talk while looking at us , we obviously weren't in a good position to talk.. Wa...g-girlfriend..n-no t-that can't be true...n-no..she didn't say girlfriend pfft I'm sweaty and dizzy I can't even hear right..

 And then they both stormed off. 

 

whathaveidonewhathaveidonejongsukme.. As the thought were fighting in my head I was still managing to get sweaty Jong suk off me to bed , second later I took him to bed ..cuz well the look on his face was just so dizzy.. He looked at me and said "ya..i need to go downstairs..." staring directly into my eyes , "no just rest for half an hour then you can go to where you want to go ..ok ?" I thought of leaving him to rest , and instead go run for a quick explanation , cuz well i didnt want him to face this position with both of our managers , and that's what I did . I hurried looking for a clothes to wear as I went looking for mine which were thrown on the floor . I pulled the trousers up and then took the first shirt I saw in my sight , then i looked at him already sleeping , then i stormed off looking for the two managers that Were obviously so disappointed of me. 

 

I went downstairs and I met their eyes staring at me in disbelieve , I thought as I was walking towards them talking slow steps .. I really messed things up , what am I going to do ..

 

"huh? You did it at last didn't you..." jiyon spoke. I stared at her for a while then I opened my mouth to say something , but nothing came out......!

 

"YAA!" she shouted at me , tears were obvious in her eyes. "YA YA YA!!" now she started crying and hitting me on my chest with both of her small hands . "wae...wae...wae!" she spoke still sobbing . I can understand why she acted that way .. You see jiyon nona was always there for me , she watched me growing up, she was there when I had no one , she was there at the both of good and bad times , I appreciate everything she had done to me , I can't thank her enough , because to me she was a father , a mother and a sister .. We lived together back when I was young . She helped me through everything .. And that look she gave me less than half hour ago..it was full of disappointment..sadness and disbelieve , the thing is , no she don't judge me , she will love me as who Iam , either gay  or straight , I wouldn't say gay .. Cuz apparently I just love Jong suk .. I have never looked at a man in a "gay" way , I'm still even not sure about the gay thing.. It's just ..bromance ..no wait..more than that... Anyways , she's not against me being with Jong suk-aa , she just don't want me to lose my  job as a model , actor . Cuz apparently my boss doesn't like the idea. 

 

"s-sor..ry..nona..." I said feeling regret wash over me , "I...didn't me-" I said but she cut me off , "what DIDN'T MEAN TO DO SUCH A THING?" she shouted , "n-no I just..." , "DIDNT WANT TO DO SUCH A THING?" she shouted again . "n-no its just that...." then I remand silent I didn't know what to say because obviously I have nothing to defeat myself because the fact that I've been craving for doing such a thing with Jong suk over maybe 2 years now..it's true I have always been fighting with jiyon about these kind of things. She was right Everytime no..all the time , she didn't want me to get fired ..