Hyukkie,

          My love, my life, and my everything.

          I miss you so much.  

               It gives me great pain knowing that I'll never see you, hold you,

and touch you. 

I would do anything just to do all those things to you. 

         I was stupid; blind; and a ing idiot.

 I didn't even notice the pain in your eyes.

         I ignored you; your love, your smiles, your kisses.

        I have no idea what made me do the things that I did. 

It hurt you a lot, and I will never forgive  myself.

       You suffered so much.

       I'm really, really sorry.

    You would stay up until the next day to wait for me to come home.

       Where was I?  At a hotel, committing the biggest sin there is.

       There was, and  will never be a reasonable excuse for me to cheat on you.

      When one day, you left me...

     I watched you die with tears in your eyes.

You shot yourself.

    I couldn't hold back the tears from falling when I read the letter you left:

     "Hi Hae,

          I never thought this day would come. 

          Im sorry for coming in to your life. I should've left long ago.

         It hurts so much Hae, seeing you with another girl.

        When my friends told me you were cheating on me, I didn't believe them. 

I never thought you'd do such a thing. The only question I wanted to ask was why?

I would, and will never understand why, but at least I'd have something to tell myself when you didn't come home.

I feel so ugly right now, crying like this.  Some tears have dried on the paper, I hope you don't mind. 

 Well, I just I want to say goodbye. Thanks for the love you gave me, although it didnt last long..

    Goodbye Hae. I love you. 

                                                            -Eunhyuk "

    It hurts so much Hyukkie, knowing that you're gone...forever..

   But I know that this pain I'm feeling right know is nothing compared to the pain I've caused you. 

  I'm really sorry and I know that will never be enough. 

  I just want you back;  back in my arms. I want to feel your sweet lips, your lovely smile, and your warm hugs...

  I would do everything just to get you back.

A/N: Hey guys :D I edited this a little bit because I wrote this a long time ago and the words that I chose were pretty cringy T_T I edited it and it should be less cringy. 

I wanted it to be sad but I know I failed. Oh well, I hope you guys liked it :)