~At the dorm~

Jonghyun's P.O.V

I opened the door and looked at the clock.

''Key!!I'm hungry!'' i yelled. I know i dumped him but HE was our umma.

I got no response so i went into his room.His sheets were changed and there was a small piece of paper on it.

Onew hyung, Taemin-ah,  Minho-ah...Jonghyun hyung... mianhe

By the time you'll read this i'll no longer be here.I...am dead right now.

I'm sorry...to you and all Shawols.

But the last few months were really hard...and i'm really tired.

I just couldn't take it anymore....Please don't blame yourselfs...it's my fault...my fault.

Jonghyun-ah....nomu mianhe..and..nomu nomu saranghe,,yonghwoni..mianhe..Jjong-ah

What??Dead??

''YAH!!KEY!! DON'T PLAY LIKE THAT!! I-I'M SORRY!!IT WASN'T YOU!! YAH!!!''

My legs felt numb and they fell on the floor.Tears were escaping my eyes.

Truth is...he deserved better than me.If he was gonna stay with me he would have ruined his life.

I dumped him...for a i didn't love.It was my fault.

Tears fell...and fell...and fell.

Where could he be?

I looked at the clock..it said 11:30.

I'll go to the place where we had our first date.He always told me that if we were no longer together and he were to die, he wanted to die there...'cause that was the one place that made him feel safe..and happy.

I ran as fast as i could.

It was 11:50 when i got to it. I wanted to take the elevator to the roof but it was broken so i took the stairs.

11:51

Ten more floors

11:52

Eight more floors..Damn now i'm  tired.

11:53

Come on, 7 floors left

11:54

Six left.Hurry Jonghyun

11:55

Five floors.Hurry alkready, you damned legs!

11:56

Four more

11:57

Just a little bit

11:58

Two more, come on, Jonghyun

11:59

One left

12:00

I opened the door to the rooftop. Key was standing on the edge and i ran to him.But it was too late.He fell..

''KEY!! YAH!! WHY?? I LOVE YOU KEY!!!!!!! KEY!! SARANGHE!!!!!!!''

I looked down and saw him on the street...

He...died because of me.WHY AM I SUCH A STUPID RETARD????

Right then...i jumped

I landed right next to him.He was looking at me..his eyes were dead, and so was his body.

He was wearing the anniversary gift i bought him...

''Happy...anniversary...Jjong-ah'' he said.Then his eyes closed.

Tears fell quickly...

''Happy....anniversary...Key'' i said.

Then....i died

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How was it? I was thinking of writing what he said in the journal but...nah.

I'm too lazy.Use your imagination

Mianamnida for the long wait.