Dear nobody,

                “You know when I’m talking with you that Seokjin hyung is by my side, right?”

                “....Yes  I do.”

                Seokjin stirs slightly beside me. He is watching me.

                “Sunny, do you love Seokjin hyung?”

                “Eh?”

                “Do you love Seokjin hyung?”

                “I...I do I guess.” There is a small hint of hesitance in her voice before she responds.

                Sigh. “Good. Because I love him too.”

                Pause.

                “Sunny, I also love you.” I wait for a response but only her breathing fills the empty room. “I love both of you so much and I wouldn’t know what I’d do if I lost the both of you.”

                The truth of those words pierce my heart.

                There are no more words shared as the three of us are engulfed in our individual thoughts.

                My fingers move to the pockets of my pants and I grab three pills. I turn my head and pop them in my mouth, feeling the rectangular shape of them go down my throat. It is painful because I have no liquid to help with the process but the knowledge of knowing that soon the medicine numb the pain gives me brief relief.

                I close my eyes.