/ok, this time two songs../

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            It was good to be with best friends but being with your most precious loved person was even better. So as they parted and walked away from places they could be seen by everyone Junhyung immediately grasped Yoseob’s hand. Smaller boy only smiled and dragged the other one along to find themselves faster on the bridge. Although everyone knew they are lovers and didn’t mind that factor the two didn’t like to show more affection when they were together as a six. That’s why they always were making use of situations like that when they had only each other.

            After few minutes they were already approaching quite big construction. The bridge they knew so well was very old historic monument and it went through a lot in its past. Everyone was wondering how it was possible for it to stayed so steadily for so long. But for them it was only ordinary bridge. Maybe the only thing that distinguished it from others was that there was nice lookout and in the dim lights of forthcoming dusk sight was quite amazing. They stood there next to barriers and waited for rest to join them.

- Ah, I almost forgot.- Declared Yoseob suddenly and Junhyung took his eyes from river and looked at him. – You promised to write me a song. You forgot about that? – Grumbled but other boy only smiled softly and pecked his cheek.

- I never break my promises and I haven’t forgot. But you must be patient. It’s not something that can be done rashly and anyhow. Since it’s a song for you it must be special. – He explained and kissed Yoseob’s lips instead.

            And although Yoseob understood him and knew that he shouldn’t urge him he wasn’t able to keep himself from asking. He wanted to have Junhyung’s feelings instantly. And knew that even if he wrote it rashly and anyhow it would be the best song he ever heard. Just like every single Junhyung’s creation until now. So he let himself being kissed and had no other choice but to wait.

            But when he thought of waiting it came to his mind that others should have joined them already. He stole the last kiss from Junhyung’s lips and walked away a bit to check if they’re not coming. As he drew nearer roadway the ground started to trembling heavily and he saw three fast forthcoming juggernauts. It was always like that when some bigger vehicles were crossing the bridge and Yoseob never liked that feeling. He turned to the other boy and smiled at him. He was well aware of the fact that Junhyung liked it and for that reason he liked to come to that bridge almost every time smaller boy couldn’t accompany him. It was something unreasonable for Yoseob because he always thought the bridge never stop shaking, he was always scared.

            That time was no different so as the trucks were getting closer he quickly decided to find himself in Junhyung’s arms again. Trembling was greater and greater and when he felt strong gust he knew that something wasn’t right and confirmed himself in that when looked into other also scared eyes. The bridge was collapsing. It was undeniable fact. The barrier the older boy had been leaning on just moment ago was disappearing and when running closer to still quite distant boy Yoseob couldn’t believed his eyes as he saw Junhyung slowly slipping down. He jumped after him trying to touch his hand. He knew if he wouldn’t make it immediately he might be never able to do that again. Junhyung was heavier, he would fell faster. To not let that happen smaller boy strained all his will and force and pushed himself away from the ground. Few second later other arms embraced him tightly and he closed his eyes. He decided not to see massive stones and other part of construction falling down around them, not to see their death. All he was able to do was holding other boy tightly and praying that Junhyung don’t die without him. But older boy had utterly different plans as he was trying to place himself under Yoseob so when they fell he would take greater hit. Unfortunately they were still standing above the riverside so they didn’t fall into the water what could lessen damage and when they touched the ground impact was great. Almost unbearable for young boys such as them.

            After some time of darkness Yoseob finally opened his eyes. But when he looked at Junhyung who was lying under him with arms still placed on Yoseob’s back, he wished he would never wake up. He couldn’t feel any signs that Junhyung was alive. He probably have been hurt all over his body himself but it was impossible to feel anything else except enormous pain deep in his chest. His eyes filled up with tears and vision became blur instantly.

- T-this can’t be happening. – He whispered as he was brushing dust from Junhyung’s hair. – It’s impossible!! – He screamed and tried to lift Junhyung’s body from ruins. He wanted to be truly strong probably for the first time in his life. – Wake up! You can’t leave me, bastard! – He tried to drag Junhyung higher to look for some help. For a moment he though that maybe he should go alone and bring someone stronger but he wasn’t able to leave Junhyung alone. It was possible that he wouldn’t be able to find him again and that frightened him even more than the fact that he was holding his motionless body. Gathering all his ever existing in him strength he slowly was pulling them out higher, closer to possible help. After few the longest minutes in his life he saw familiar alley which led the two of them to that fatal place. Someone was running towards him but he wasn’t able to recognize who that was. His legs seized up and he fell on his knees.

            When rest of boys saw falling Yoseob they sped up but when they realized that it was Junhyung that he was holding they postponed slightly their meeting. Too afraid to accept  reality. Only Doojoon didn’t dreaded and run to Yoseob.

- Dujun help him. – Begged boy. - Something happened and we fell. – The older boy looked at his friend who was squeezing Junhyung’s body in his arms.

-Wait just a little more, ambulance is on the way, don’t you hear sirens? It’s getting nearer. – But Yoseob looked at him with somewhat insane look. He wasn’t crying and it was the most strange in his behavior. Yoseob, he knew would be wet from tears. Yet he was only wet from blood on his hands. He pulled Junhyung closer and his body started to quiver. Dujun wanted to place his hand on his arm to comfort him somehow but was afraid to move. – Please, calm…

- How can I be calm in a situation like that!? – Cut him boy and tried to stand up once again lifting the other boy whose arms and head was drooping but was too weak.

- Yoseob, seriously you should wait for help.

- Half of me probably died and you are telling me to do nothing about that!? – He screamed suddenly and tears started to flow down his cheeks. - How would you feel when you have heart and suddenly half of it disappeared? I had my body and now half it’s gone! – Slowly despair started to overwhelm him. - Can you imagine how big the whole universe is!? – Dujun only was looking at him sadly with silent tears in his eyes but Yoseob didn’t needed any answer he seemed not to notice anything although he was looking at him. – And in one second half of my ing world is gone! – He yelled desperately. - I can’t handle it… my air is ending. My body is still here but my soul is disappearing… I feel hollow.- He whispered while looking again at body in his hands and breathing heavily. – Junhyung, do something, I’m suffocating!

            Everyone who happen to be there in that moment, even medics who turned up in the meantime… no one was able to looked at that scene indifferently. But fortunately some of them rushed to help without delay. But then one more problem occurred. Yoseob wasn’t able to let go of Junhyung. They didn’t want to use force on him but if his actions haven’t change they would have no choice.

- Yoseob, listen to me! – Ordered Doojoon – I want him to live as well so please let them help. The longer you will make it difficult the less chances he have. – He looked into smaller boy’s eyes, they were red but his tears stopped for a moment. He took his hand and Yoseob stood up letting go of Junhyung. Immediately medics approached him checking his state. Dujun embraced Yoseob who wasn’t able take his eyes away from what was going on with his half. But then someone came and diverted his attention.

- I’m sorry, but are you able to tell if there was someone else on the bridge in that time? – Asked some guy in the uniform. Yoseob only looked at him but didn’t say anything so Dujun decided to intervene again. He took Yoseob’s face in his hands.

- Did you see someone besides you there? It’s important, so think! – Yoseob glanced at him and his eyes filled once again with tears as he spoke.

- I didn’t look around but Jun kissed me, he was never doing that when someone might see us. – He broke up with tears even more and wrench himself out from Dujun’s embrace as he saw that medics were placing Junhyung on stretcher. – Where are you taking him!? – He tried to stop them but Dujun stopped him instead.

- Calm down, little boy.- Said man who was standing nearest to him. – He’s breathing. – Yoseob looked at him and even more tears showed up in his eyes. – We can’t assure you that he’ll wake up, but he didn’t die yet. – Finished medic while rubbing his eyes.

- B-but that blood? – Stuttered out weakly Yoseob looking at his hands. Man came to him and checked his body.

- It’s all yours. – He diagnosed and showed him deep cut on his forearm. – The other one have no open wounds. – He assured them. – But you must go with us since it looks quite serious.

- Can I go with him? – Asked small boy pointing at ambulance with Junhyung already inside.

- No, there’s to little space for the two of you and you would be only burden. – Medic patted his arm. – We’ll wait for another one, and your friend – he pointed at Dujun - can go with you. – Dujun nodded and looked at departing ambulance with its lights on. Men who was still standing next to them took Yoseob aside and started to dress his hand and check if he had no other injuries.

            When rest of the boys saw that Dujun was standing alone they decided to join him. However they were still not able to say anything, they stayed there in silence staring at partially destroyed bridge. Each and every one of them could only think how unreal was what they were looking at. Rather like some terrible nightmare than reality. Unfortunately sirens from another ambulance that came for their friend made it clear that they were not dreaming.

- Ok, I’m going with him. – Stated Dujun when he saw Yoseob being lead up to ambulance and boys nodded with agreement.

- We will try to go there as soon as possible, just tell us where they are taking them.

- I’ll ask and text you later. – Answered and left to catch up their little friend.

            Some time later after Yoseob got sedatives and fall asleep Dujun called his and Junhyung’s parents. And the only thing he could do was waiting for some information. But the only one he received was the one from news in tv installed in reception.

“Today at late afternoon hours took place quite serious accident. Part of the construction of the old bridge downtown slumped and there’s a threat of further collapsing. Currently that area is excluded from the traffic. Exact reason remains unknown although it’s possible that yesterday’s march on Spring Festival could have affected that aged monument. Most likely resonance inducted buy passing trucks completed the work of destruction. Two people undergo hospital treatment, state one of them is serious. Fortunately there is no information about other victims. We will inform you further in that matter.”

            Dujun knew that Junhyung’s state was serious even without that news but no one was able to tell him more. Only arrival of Junhyung’s mother changed that.

- Dujun, dear… where’s my son? – She asked as soon as she saw him.

- I know nothing, Ms. Yong. They’ve waited for family with information. – He explained hugging her. – I came here with Yoseob and haven’t seen him since that time.

- Seobbie is also in here? What happened for god’s sake? – She asked shocked trying not to panic.

- It’s all my fault… - They turned to see owner of the weak voice who spoke that words.

- How that can be your fault? Stop talking nonsense, child. – Woman came up to him. - I heard that there was some accident. You were together? – She asked and wept boy’s tears.

- Yes, but it was me who dragged him there. If we had waited for others nothing of that would’ve happened. – She only hugged him holding back from breaking into tears herself but further conversation was interrupted by a doctor.

- You shouldn’t stand up yet, young man. – He warned.

- I’m sorry, but can you tell me what is state of my son? The other boy from that accident? – The physician looked at her and walked away.

- Please, come with me. – Holding Yoseob’s hand she followed him along with Dujun. When they came to his consulting room and rested he spoke again. – First of all, please take his belongings from the reception. He won’t need any of if anymore and I always forget to remind that before family leaves. – The three looked at him surprised.

- What!?

- Yhm, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to sound like he was already dead. – He laughed awkwardly checking some papers. – Anyway, what do we have here? Yong Junhyung, 22 years old, concussion, dislocated collarbone, few broken ribs… Fortunately it didn’t cause any serious internal injuries, nothing that can’t be fixed… or have been fixed already. His condition is stable now. – The physician looked at brighter expressions of all of them and addressed to Yoseob. - You had many luck that you’ve fallen on the sand and no stone hit you. And in the end it was not that high. Only remember for future not to move anyone who had an accident. You could seriously harm him. Of course, here you’ve made a good choice since it was possible that something could smash him and he would die instantly. So you don’t have a right to bear any resentment towards yourself for any reason. Understand? – He asked seriously and boy nodded shyly with his head lowered.

            Since the doctor had nothing else to add they left the room and headed to see Junhyung, even if it could be only through the pane.

- Don’t you boys think that that doctor was somewhat strange? – Asked mother when they were left alone next to Junhyung’s ward.

- I’m sure that he wasn’t completely normal. – Noted Dujun and Yoseob wasn’t able to do anything but standing glued to pane and staring at his half laying there unconscious.

- Seobbie, Dongwoon just text me that they met your parents in waiting room. – The boy tore himself away from the pane and looked around distracted.

- Uh.. um, then.. – Dujun and Junhyung’s mother looked at him smiling.

- You can go. I’ll stay here with Mrs. Yong. – Assure him older boy.

- Ok, then I’ll be going first. – He bowed and hastened to see his family.

            Although even if yet some time ago everything seemed for him void, after placing his head on warm Junhyung’s hand Yoseob finally could felt tranquility. His parents left to home  already knowing that besides stitches he had no other ailments, Junhyung’s parents left to home knowing that there’s no way they can help and others left knowing that frankly they were not needed. So there was only Junhyung and Yoseob left, just as younger wished to remain forever. With exception that he wanted him to be conscious and healthy. He fall asleep praying for that older boy wakes up faster. For that he had to wait until next afternoon. And late at night he finally had time to speak with him alone.

- I’m sooo happy, that you recovered so fast. – He started sitting next to him on bed and resting head on his arm. – I don’t know what would I do if you left me. – Junhyung smiled sadly.

- Mayhbe… - He wheezed not used to speaking after long time. - So maybe it’s time for us break up? – Yoseob lifted his head looking at him terrified but Junhyung only was staring at the window.

- What are you taking about? What kind of ‘break up’ do you mean!? – Junhyung sighed.

- Just ordinary kind of break up, Yoseob. I heard what you were doing after that accident. It’s really dangerous to be so attached to anyone… What if I really died there? – The smaller boy only clung to his chest looking out not to harm him.

- Please, don’t say such words. I would lost my mind if you died or kill myself if I didn’t die with you! – He uttered looking in the other boy’s eyes.

- I thought so. And that’s why I think we should split up. You have to learn how to live on your own, for your own sake. – He explain calmly what caused Yoseob’s eyes to fill with tears.

- But I can live on my own. It’s just that I see no point in doing that when I can share my life with you… - He stood up staring at still avoiding his eyes boy. – Or maybe something really happened to your head and you don’t love me anymore? – He slowly started to pulling back when he saw so insensible Junhyung. But he couldn’t see what other boy was thinking. When he made another step to leave Junhyung gave up.

- Wait. – He grasped his hand and dragged him up hissing from the pain caused by sudden movement. – I love you so much… that it hurts to know that you would be suffering because of me. – Yoseob came back to previous position on bed, completely not resistant to his touch… and kisses.

- Jun-ah? – Started boy intertwining their fingers. – What would you do if I die? – The older boy slightly hesitated with answering.

- Probably… I would lost my mind or kill myself if I didn’t die with you. – Smaller boy smiled triumphantly hearing that.

- And this is the end of that topic. Now let’s move on to more pleasant things… - And they lost themselves in kisses once again.