Normalcy was what I dreamed of. While others dreamt of becoming doctors, engineers, lawyers, etc., I, Kim Jong In, dreamt of being normal. Being called a "walking, living, breathing cursed legend" made my dream that much more far-fetched.

It all started when I was fourteen...probably the most awkward stage of all teenage boys. Puberty was kicking in. Confusion taking over. Hormones acting up. Girls....

Girls...right. It was this point of my life when I had developed an undeniable attraction to my own .  

Confusion, or clarity?

Denial, or acceptance?

So many questions and yet...only fourteen. Just as I was beginning to see some progress in this whole "self soul-search" quest I was going through...things began happening. Things I couldn't control but wanted so badly to. 

I began having visions. 

It was very confusing because..these werent visions of the future.

No.

These were of the past. Joseon Dynasty to be exact. 

In the most spontaneous moments, I could feel my breath hitch, heart accelerate to almost a million miles per hour, close my eyes and see things I can never understand. I was always in them. I was dressed differently- sure-, but it was undeniably..ME. Every vision asked more questions than provided answers.

After six months of struggling with these visions..I told my family.

...

It was then I entered an entirely new journey...

Independence.

Hopefully this journey will provide some answers that explain the last eight years of my life.