I look at Myungsoo at the far corner of the classroom.

Sigh, he looks so handsome today.

It's lunch time and I'm sitting in my seat, dazed at the sight of Myungsoo.

A group of girls make their way across the room towards him. 

They start to flirt with him and make light conversations. 

I start to boil with rage.

Myungsoo was too nice to get angry at them so he kept smiling and talking with them.

A surge of jealousy went over me. 

Myungsoo must've noticed me pouting because he came up to me and said, "Hey, are you mad about something?"

He knows me too well. 

"No, its nothing. Sigh"

I look at the group of girls and stick out my tongue at them.

They roll their eyes and go to some other guys.

I felt like having a victory ceremony right there and now.

Then I look back at Myungsoo who seems to be confused. 

I smile my biggest smile at him and he smiles back. 

I want to look at his smile forever and be with him forever. 

But I know I can't. 

I confessed to him before, I really did. 

But he rejected me saying how I'm just like a sister to him and nothing more. 

I pretend to not have feelings for him anymore, but it's still there, and it aches so badly. 

I just don't show it, especially to him.

I go home with him and we part with goodbyes. 

I find myself in the front of my door and smell something fishy.

I unlock the door and go in. 

"Surprise!"

"Mom? Dad? What are you doing?"

"We'll tell you while we eat dinner! We have GREAT news!"

I didn't like the sound of that.

I eat my bowl of soup and try to go back to the subject on the "great news".

"So Mom, about that news..what do you mean?"

Mom and Dad exchange glances.

"We are moving to America! The place you always wanted to go ever since you were little! Your dream has come true!"

"What?! Move to America?! That was back then! I don't really want to go now!"

"Why? You always talked about the place and I know how much you wanted to go there so badly."

"Because..because.."

I couldn't say it was because of Myungsoo...>.<

"Well, it's too late now. Applications and everything have been done."

"What?! Without my consent on this?!"

My parents looked shocked to hear that I did not want to go to such an extraordinary place. 

"You don't know how I feel!"

I rush to my room, slam the door, lock it, and started to cry.

How will I tell this to Myungsoo?

The next morning, I come to school extra early to tell my teachers on my soon-to-be moving. 

I tried my best to avoid Myungsoo since I couldn't bare to see his face once I'm gone because that'll make me even more reluctant to leave.

Then during lunch period, Myungsoo slammed on my desk and glared at me.

Everyone stared at us.

"Why are you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong? Did something happen? Tell me!"

I avert my eyes.

He takes my chin and faces it towards him.

I start to form tears in my eyes. 

"I..I..I'm...mov..ing."

Myungsoo's eyes started to settle down.

I look down, not being able to endure his gaze even when its calmed down.

"Well, you could've just said so. Where are you moving?"

"A..America..."

His eyes started to widen.

"Tha..that far?"

"Ya..."

"Well, we can always contact each other through mail and stuff, its not like we can't really see or talk with each other anymore."

He doesn't really care if I move, huh.

I felt a rush of disappointment through me.

I start to have water in my eyes once again and I get my backpack and run out the door and out of this school.

I've been in love with him, all my life, and he doesn't care one bit about me. 

I start to weep.

I say I'm moving to America but he doesn't stop me from moving.

What kind of a friend is that?!

Tears rush down my cheeks and I cry the whole time I'm walking. 

I find the swings where Myungsoo and I always used to play.

I sit on it, looked at the sky, and closed my eyes.

"Hey."

I flinch and find Myungsoo standing right in front of me.

He gets something from his pocket and wipes my eyes with it.

"Sorry, I said something wrong didn't I..Tell me what I did wrong. I'll repent for it."

So he still doesn't get it.

"I...I..didn't want to leave cuz you were here...and because you didn't stop me from going...I'm just...really frustrated right now."

"Huh? Because of me?"

"Because..I like you..remember?"

"Oh..that.."

He blushed and that made my heart thump.

He grabbed my arms and gave me a big, bear hug. 

"I'm sorry I hurt your feelings."

We hugged in silence.

"At that time..I really only thought of you as my sister. We were young then, middle schoolers, you know. After that, I saw you more of as a woman....and I think I started to like you too...honestly."

I could hear his heart beat and I'm sure he heard mine. 

I start crying again.

"Why are you crying?"

"These are tears of relief..."

He pushes me back, and pulls me back again.

This time towards his lips.

We had a long kiss and it tasted very sweet.

He went back a little and looked in my eyes.

"Go to America."

I was shocked to hear that.

"You've always wanted to go. But remember me...I will come to get you sooner or later."

I smile and he smiles his biggest smile once again. 

And this time, I know this smile is mine....forever.