Forget the world we left for tonight
Description
I don't know what to say about this. Just that it was far better in my mind than it is now. I have this feeling that it's all over the place and that i just couldn't convey the emotions I felt while writing it. gah. I hate it when i can't convey the emotions i felt. sigh. this should've actually come of as so unbelievingly tender and sincere.. but i guess it didn't.
It's actually inspired by this and this.
Foreword
It's already late in the night when Kim Himchan slowly sits up in his bed, a heavy sigh leaving his lips.
He can't sleep. Again. And he doesn't know why.
But if he's honest to himself, he does.
He sighs again and closes his eyes, feeling tears linger on his eyelids. Not now, please. He clenches his eyes tightly, hands squeezed tightly on his thighs.
Why was it so hard? Why couldn't he, why wasn't he allowed to, to just...
He swallowed. No, he couldn't think about it now. He couldn't risk loosing his composure. No, he knew he could be strong. He was strong. He wouldn't let this get to him.
No.
Why was it so hard to swallow the lump that built in his throat though?
He bit down on his bottom lip, the first tear escaping his eyes.
No.
As he started to lift his right hand to cover his mouth the first sob left his tightly shut lips somehow.
No. Not now, please.
As he tightly squeezed his legs up against his chest and burrowed his head in his knees he couldn't hold back the whimpers anymore. It was cruel, so, so cruel.
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