It was strange how this day started normally because this day was going to be far from normal. Today was going to be devastating but I really didn’t need to worry about that now. I knew I was selfish for waiting this long but I couldn’t bear to be parted from Jonghyun for longer than I had to be while I was still alive. I curled further into his chest hoping maybe he just wouldn’t wake up. If he didn’t wake up I could just go back to sleep then we could both sleep like this forever. Then I wouldn’t have to break his heart and mine as well. If only he wouldn’t wake up we could stay like this till the end of time, curled together in each others arms. But sadly, that couldn’t happen; I could feel Jonghyun beginning to stir. It felt like someone had stabbed ice into my heart and I stopped breathing. Please don’t wake up Jonghyun. Please.