To Be Taemin, To Be Minho

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It's hard to pretend that you love someone when you don't, but it's even harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

Foreword

 

 

 

 

 

There's a fine line between being loving and being obsessive. As of late, Taemin's nerves are gearing up because Minho keeps on claiming Taemin all to himself most of the times. There wasn't any wrong in that and Taemin cares a big deal for his Hyung as much as his Hyung does for him. When Minho's depressed or sad, he offers a mug of hot chocolate and reads to him a book of fairytale just for fun until he's fine and Minho would do the same if Taemin is depressed or sad instead. But Minho is not just spending time with Taemin lately. He is wary of everything. And honestly, it's stifling.


They used to have a more platonic relationship but as Taemin grows up, things just bubble up and their feelings surge up naturally. Of course sometimes they argue. As idols and as two young adults and also as two men, they both know full-well that not everything is possible between them. But still, having mutual feelings and having to live under the same roof definitely don't offer any pause or stop button for their blossoming admiration for one another.

It's simple actually. Taemin loves Minho and Minho loves Taemin too. They like spending time with each other. There's nothing complex about it because it is human nature to grow accustomed to things that are simpler and natural. To public eyes Taemin and Minho might have some sort of close brotherly relationship that comes in package with vows to protect one another and help in times of danger or need. That's not it. They are in love, it's that simple.

But Minho crossed the line. Taemin doesn't know when it was triggered. Maybe when EXO debuted and Taemin spent more time on his phone with his new juniors to offer advices instead of playing two-player football match with Minho and his beloved Playstation 3. Maybe because he keeps on playing with EXO members onstage everytime SM concert ends instead with him or Jonghyun. Or maybe because he went out for dinner with Kai, Luhan and Lay instead of cooking with Minho some messed-up dishes that aren't tasteful but plentiful. He was happy back then before everything got messed up.

It sometimes frightens him if Minho gets mad. Minho is taller and obviously stronger while he is skinnier and shorter. But he stands up for himself if he has to. This evening, Taemin did just that. He lent Kai a scarf last week because he said it looked great with his new coat and Taemin happily gave him, keeping Kai's word to return it seven days later. Kai called earlier and said he couldn't make it today and promised he'll drop by tomorrow to hand the scarf over. The scarf is originally Minho's, given by his brother and he let Taemin uses it. He used to say, 'It's allright, go ahead.' to Taemin but says 'No Key, not this one.' to the older Diva.

Kai is late just one day and Minho gets mad like it's the end of the world and all hells break loose. Taemin just can't sit by and hear it all. He has his rights too. Minho can play with Boa-Noona, but he can't. He's told to return right after his performance with her. Taemin used to be the 'girl' for Kyuhyun and Changmin's stage for SM concert, but Minho took over, saying 'If anyone, I fit most.' Taemin hates dressing up but that was his stage, how dare Minho took it away from him. Even this year's Gayo Daejun, Minho persisted on going with Taemin and soon they received word that Minho's in. It seems like everything is winding up Minho's way and crashing waves of failures wash over Taemin. Now it's all Taemin's blame because Minho's scarf is not hanging on the rack.

Taemin cried this time. It shocked Minho, naturally. Taemin never cries. No matter what, he won't spill his precious tears for someone not worthy of them. But this is different. He begins to hate Minho and he didn't want that. He just wants the care and love back. Taemin wants to feel the warm hand over his head and the gentle pull on his hand everytime Minho comes close to him offstage or onstage. Lately Minho won't do that. He just tells Taemin to do this and not that, to be here and not there. He doesn't say 'Come here, Taeminnie' when Taemin wanders around the stage among the other idols anymore. That's the most heartbreaking thing Minho did to Taemin, more than when Minho did a kiss scene with Sulli or anyone else. He hurted Taemin a lot and it was painful. How can he not cry?

He took off after a terrible word fight with Minho, just because of one scarf he lent to a friend. Taemin hides in Key's closet room, just wanting to dig a hole and rot in it. He's having headache and his eyes are weary and red-ringed. This is why he hates crying so much.

Part of him wants to come out the room, get to the kitchen and eat a medicine. But he doesn't want to risk passing by Minho. He hates angry Minho. He doesn't want that Minho. He wants to see the Minho he loves. He badly wants to come out and see that Minho. Taemin feels tears well up in his eyes again and he tries to stifle his sobs. He fails miserably so he just sits there in the dark corner, hugging his knees and wondering when will he stop hating Minho as tears run down his flushed cheeks.

Then there is a soft knock on the door. It creaks open and light from the hallways spill into the darkness of the room. Taemin looks up from the floor and through his teary eyes, he sees Minho with a worried face standing at the door. Taemin wants to say 'go away' but he only croaks out sobs at his Hyung. Seeing Taemin's condition only pains Minho further. He walks in with a steaming mug in his hand and a book in the other. The sweet and distinct smell of chocolate travels into the room. Taemin squints his eyes as Minho turns on the light and let brightness replace the darkness.

Minho approaches Taemin. He places the mug in front of Taemin and sits next to the sobbing boy. At first, he stays quiet. Taemin begins to collect himself, stopping his tears from spilling any further. Crying is not manly at all.

Minho gently holds Taemin's hand, surprising the boy. Taemin glances to his Hyung and sees that caring gleam in his eyes back to where they belong. Minho's hand is warm and familiar. His expression soft and Taemin realizes that Minho's eyes are a little red from crying too. Minho casts his eyes down to the book he brought and flips it open using his other hand. Taemin's heart jumps in a small delight.

"Once upon a time, there was a tiny girl named Thumbelina." Minho begins.

At that time, Taemin feels like tearing up again. He gets it now. It's tiring and exhausting to be scared of everything. But Minho faced that fear everyday. Maybe Minho felt Taemin is slipping away, that they are growing further and he didn't want that. So he did everything he could. It didn't go as planned, but he got his message across. Taemin had been too caught up in his own miserableness to see.

He crawls into Minho's lap, keeping silence as he listens to Minho's low voice of storytelling. He keeps their connected hands cradled to his heart and closes his eyes. It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up if it's everything you want.

But now, as Minho holds Taemin safe in his arms, it feels like it is going to last forever. They say true love is when you shed a tear and still want him. Then perhaps, Minho is Taemin's true love after all.








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A/N: Hope you liked it. :)

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goment #1
it sounds like fanfact more than fanfic :)) but it's so beautiful and cute xD
mirru_val
#2
i think that this is one of the most beautiful 2min oneshot ive ever read :)
thanks for sharing!
SHINee_fangirl_4ever
#3
awww love this... =)
carrotcake #4
it was really sweet. short yet beautifully written. :"> the description was seriously something. it struck me like hell.
chibieru #5
My kokoro strings were pulled! I love it :D So much feeeeels and fluff <3

Thank you for sharing your story ^^
alexshineeexo #6
awwww sooo sweet!!! minho was only caring too much for taeminnie :)
saae #7
OMG bb this is beautiful!!! OMG I love it! The fluffiness with enough angst in the middle ~<3333
I can totally imagine it happening in real life!
Another awesome work from you! Thanks for writing this!
puppy_love #8
So touching .........*sob*
maxjibong
#9
The caring Minho is just.. heart warming. and you wrote it all in a perfect situation and condition. 2min daebak! you, daebak!!
lil2min #10
Very touching...Love it :)