"Within the whitely faded picture, Atop the bookshelf of memory, We were just faintly exchanging helloes,Comeback, but to the end I still couldn’t say it And as the time flies by, The memory fades away" These are the words that I only have in my mind and my heart. My name is Hyun Su. The reason I wrote this is to express my true feeling right now. Although I hide them from my friends, I cannot hide them from me. I cannot throw them away from me. Right Now, I call my self 'Cold Hearted man'

Last night, It was the most painful memory of mine. I lost the person who I love very much, Victoria. I was a jerk to her. I never listen to her and now, our story ended and I still can't move on. I wish she can feel what I feel right now.

It's a cold morning, I woke up to see no missed calls or Messages on my phone. I sighed.....Looked up to my wall, I see nothing but painful memories. If only I could meet her, that would be enough for me to recover a little cuts on my heart. It's time to pack up all the paintings on my wall. I spent half of an hour on my bed after I woke up, hanging my head up side down. This is really frustrating.

Took my breakfast. Porridge, her favourite food. Although it is simple, it is meaningful to me. Every information about her is very priceless to me. I threw up after I eat lots of them. I guess now I have those Psychological illness, Bulimia. 

My phone rang and it stated 'Victoria' my beloved ex. My heart beats faster, should I answer it or not?? I'd better answer it. Her shaking breath, angelic voice, releives me for a while. But then, I started to wonder why she called. She wanted to meet me at the lighthouse, where our first date was. I still remember my first date. Back then, my nights are bright, her laughter is the melody of my kind of music and my heart is filled with her love. I must not loose this chance for she's the most important piece of my life.

That evening, I drove to the lighthouse where we're going to meet. The weather is so cold that I could see my own breathe. As I walked towards the lighthouse, I saw a figure of a broken angel, growing and my heart pumps very fast. I hold her hands and I sang to her.....

"You wouldn’t know, the tears of broken boy

The tired sighs circling around you, so you can’t stand it

I will send our tangled memories

That has been tightening around the throat venomously, to the saddened sky"

That's the only thing that came out of my mouth. Tears, rolling on her cheecks as if she still loves me. She opened to say "I miss you, please come back"

Am I dreaming?? Is she for real? I'm still stoned in this cold weather. She repeated what she said. It wasn't a dream. My tears flow heavily of joy. I smiled then Hugged her........

The pure blue sky

The rigid lips cry

As I shout how much I miss you

The string of fate tangled at lingering feelings

Remains tangled

I guess She really does miss me. :)