I ran through the empty choridors of the school, sweat glistening on my forehead. Why did my alarm clock decide to stop working today? TODAY?!? I had even skipped breakfast and still I was late for my first lesson. If I had known I would be late I would at least taken something to eat but…

I tried to catch my breath as I slowly raised my shaking hand to the door and gave it a light knock. I could hear the voices from inside become quiet and I knew that the moment I set my foot inside that classroom I would have 98% of the eyes focused on me. I heard the lock rustle and saw the handle turn before I, a second later, was face to face with my teacher. From the look of it she wasn't in a good mood today so I just whispered a barely audible 'sorry I'm late'. She just barely acknowledged me and walked back to her spot behind her desk.

I quickly made my way over to my table. The one of al the couple tables that were completely empty. A table no one wanted to share with me. I was kind of a looser in the school. Lots of the boys, even the younger ones, bullied me as much as possible. All because of a single, tiny fact.

As I sat down I noticed a boy standing in front of the class. That was the reason why the teacher had wanted all of us to be on time for once. I let my eyes take him in as he stood in front of the class, looking like he would jump and start to dance, or something alike, any minute. I loved to dance myself but didn't do it very much. I was afraid of being judged again I guess. But this boy was different. He looked like he could do some amazing moves and would still be able to charm the girls, without breaking a sweat.

His appearance was good. He had shoulder length brown hair with some of the bangs covering his right eye. A sweet smile covered his pouty lips. A couple of dark, chocolate brown eyes, sparkling with energy like a little boys eyes, from behind his bangs. I was stunned. How could such a perfect person exist?

I let my eyes rest on him a bit longer to memorize him. He would probably start bullying me as well when the rumors about me would catch up with him. He wouldn't have that pure smile covering his lips when he saw me after this. I was sure about that.

My teacher coughed to get our full atention again and continued where she had obviously left off because of me.'' As I was about to say, this is your new classmate.'' She turned herself so she was facing the boy. '' Please, introduce yourself.'' A small, almost unnoticeable, smile made it's way to her lips. The boy looked at her and gave her a little bow. ''Of course.'' He turned to face the class again. ''Hello. My name is Lee Donghae and I've just moved here from Mokpo. Please take care of me.'' He gave a slight bow to the class and caught my eye when looking up again. He smiled at me and I could feel the blood rush up to my cheeks and quickly looked down at the table, avoiding his gaze and hiding my constantly growing blush.

What is happening to me? Yes, he is amazing, I have to admit that, but he can't be my friend! I can't drag him it to this personal little hell with me. I can't let him have the same fathe as the rest who have been my friends. Not him. He deserves better. I guess I have to try to avoid him. At least try to. But what can I do when he already have made his way into my heart?

I could hear the teacher tell him to take a seat. Wait….take a seat? Wasn't the only place available…next to…m-me? I gulped hard, still looking down on the table as I could feel him, making his way over to my table, the table we would share. ''Hi!'' he said in a low voice so he wouldn't disturb the lesson. I could hear the enthusiasm hiding in his voice as he greeted me when he had gotten into his place at the table. ''H-hi.'' I replied, my voice shaking. This is not good, I thought for myself. This is not good at all. He can't be my friend. I kept reminding myself.

It seemed as I wasn't the only one thinking in those lines. Every one stared at us. Staring at me ecpecially with the hatred that filled them while remembering what happened to the last one that sat beside me and befriended me.

His name is Sungmin. Lee Sungmin. He is still in my class but we seem to have grown apart by time. Once, he was a normal boy that the girls swooned around. He was placed to sit beside me as well and the situation was a bit similar to the one happening right now. He was nice to everyone, even to me, and always happy. He was a dear friend of me, but then it hit him as well. Idon't know why it is like this to all those who are my friends for a longer time. We can all see what happened to him every day. Nowadays he is being called a by most of the boys at the school, the same boys that haut me down to tell me how much they hate me for what I am. I've heared some say it's because he is always wearing pink, sometimes just in accessories - sometimes from top to bottom, other say it is because of that he's acting pretty girly and so on. Even the big interest he had in martial arts are like blown away. But it isn't that that everyone is the most afraid of. Everyone that has ever been my friend for a longer time has ended up as me, gay.

Even Sungmin turned gay after a while. It is partly because of it actually that i think, that we grew apart. He have fallen in love with a boy one year younger than us, and is always with him. Every break, every lunch, although I dont know about the boy's feelings. But i can see that he, Choi Kyuhyun, cares for him as a brother at least.

A lot of the people that have tried to get to know me have stopped hanging with me when they've heard that I'm gay. Some homophobic others afraid of the consequences. Some have even gotten in trouble because of they're my friend, friend of the gay boy. People have started to look down on them, bully them, all because of me.

I was snapped back to reality as I could feel a hand on my shoulder. The new kid, Donghae's, hand. ''Are you okay?'' his voice sounded worried. ''I'm okay.'' I answered him shyly. I could feel my cheeks burn from the blush, but still made up my mind to look at him. I slowly lifted my gaze from the desk to look into his concerned eyes.

I can't let this happen to him.

So there you go, the first chapter :) 

I don't know when i can update the next chapter but i will try to get somethin up for you all sometime during this week.

So, this is acctually my first chaptered story and have been a work in progress for a while but I've made up my mind to put it here on aff and update it for all you lovely readers.

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