The beginning
The Tragic Story Of A Boy Called ChangJo.
Time for me to get a life.. hah, I always used that as an insult to someone if they said anything bad to me or any of my friends, but this time it was meant for me and it was meant literally, Away from my so called family. But where do I even begin? I'm not allowed anywhere near any of my family.. oh great, that means I have no one in Seoul to go to, or anywhere I can actually go. Well I guess if they're like this to me I don't want them in my life, sure It hurts like hell, but I'll get over it and be fine again.
But mark this, I will not love anyone like I loved my family and my ex again! They've hurt me too much and took things way too far, I've done bad things before like made my sister cry, but I would have never done anything like this... not to my sister I love her! I wouldn't kill her!
Why won't they see that he is lying! Why won't they know I'm telling them the truth! I've always been the good son they've always wanted. Yeah I may be gay but that never changed how I acted towards them! I kept being their perfect smart son!
ing perfect! I have all with me! I have no ing job! I have no where to ing live! Ugh! my life!
I so hope I can make through this.. I've always been strong but that was because I had my family with me and my boyfriend Rokhyun.. Now no one dared come near me that did know me.. No doubt in a few days that will be true, things from my family spread like wild fire. In the matter of hours about everyone we knew and even some that we didn't know knew everything that would've happened with us. This with me would be no exception, Once everyone knows, I won't be welcome anywhere and No one will really talk to me anymore
I so hope I can make through this.. I've always been strong but that was because I had my family with me and my boyfriend Rokhyun.. Now no one dared come near me that did know me.. No doubt in a few days that will be true, things from my family spread like wild fire. In the matter of hours about everyone we knew and even some that we didn't know knew everything that would've happened with us. This with me would be no exception, Once everyone knows, I won't be welcome anywhere and No one will really talk to me anymore
But I guess I'll get on with life, I've been through worse I guess. Oh well, Stay strong and carry on my father used to say.
---------------------------------------------------------------
Sighing I carried on walking down the dark streets looking around as I did so, yeah I got kicked out my home at night, with my hands in my pink and white jacket pockets. Guess what I have on me now is all I will ever have for awhile now. No one else was around at this time, why would they be? They will all be asleep in their bed all ing happy! Lucky that I have my phone and mp3 player with me, they always kept me calm and collective. Oh boy without music I wouldn't get anywhere.. Too bad I don't have any money on me, which means I can't buy food and I can't get somewhere proper to stay tonight. I carried on walking down the street looking down at the ground with my earphones in from my mp3 player, no one would notice me around, so there was no need for me to put my hood up or anything. I honestly don't know what I would do without my music.. It's my life, It's always been by me when I needed it. My life before my boyfriend was always based on dance, music and my sister.. I don't get what went wrong.. I've lost all of it now. Me and my sister did everything together ; homework, dance class, eating, laughing, playing, school, holidays, everything together. But I guess things change right? Slowly but surely it started to rain down on me, great.., I quickly ran around looking for somewhere to go to get shelter and a place to sleep for the night. I noticed a somewhat sheltered alleyway. It looked okay and sheltered, I guess, Not too dirty or damp or cold. There was no where else I could really go. Shrugging I decided this was the place I would stay the night, I searched around the alleyway for something to lie on. No way was I getting my clothes ruined on the first night. aha! cardboard, that will be perfect, I put it on the ground next to a dumpster. For tonight this will have to do. Before sitting down I took off my jacket and put it around myself, I curled up on the piece of cardboard and tightly closed my eyes, wishing everything away and trying to get rid of all my troubles and problems. But obviously this wouldn't work.. not this time anyway. Slowly I fell into a deep sleep, hoping no one would notice me in the morning. But for now everything was weightless and so happy in my dreamland
---------------------------------------------------------------
Author comments ;
I know this is short again, but It will get more interesting as It goes I promise.
Spellchecked ☑
Comments