Another week passed by as the two of them hung out with each other at the hospital. Though Myungsoo becomes sadder and sadder each day, and Sungyeol notices that. Sungyeol doesn’t want to bother him about it because he doesn’t want Myungsoo to be uncomfortable. He wants to wait until Myungsoo wants to tell him, and he doesn’t mind waiting. Even though time is working against him.

Myungsoo was sitting on his bed, but Sungyeol wasn’t around. Sungyeol said that he had to do something in the morning because he missed doing something the other day. Yesterday they played around the whole day that Sungyeol forgot to do something that was appointed on that day. The doctors weren’t pleased, but they let it go because it’s Sungyeol. Now, Myungsoo is bored to death because the choding wasn’t around. Myungsoo came up with the nickname choding because Sungyeol’s behavior reminded of an elementary student.

Birds were chirping, but there was a slight cold breeze. Just then the door opened, and Myungsoo got scared. Since he couldn’t see who was there, he turned stiff, and hoped that maybe it was Sungyeol. Though the person wasn’t Sungyeol because when the person spoke, he knew exactly who it was.

“ Hey, Myungsoo-hyung.”

“ S-Sungjong. What are you doing here?”

“ I came to visit you.” Sungjong went over and sat down on the bed. He began to take out some fruits and started to cut up an apple. It was silent between the two of them until Myungsoo spoke up.

“ Why haven’t you been visiting me? It’s been like almost two weeks since we last saw each other.”

“ I have been busy with school. I would come see you, but school made me busy.” Myungsoo scoffed at Sungjong. He didn’t believe it one bit.

“ Liar. You could have called me.”

“ Myungsoo, please, not now. I really wanted to see you because I missed you. You are my boyfriend, and I would never look at somebody else. Do you understand me?”

“ Do you really miss me? Like a lot? Because I miss you too, like a lot.” Sungjong put down the apple on the counter and leaned close to Myungsoo.

“ Of course I miss you a lot. I love you Myungsoo-hyung.” Myungsoo smiled and found his way to Sungjong’s face.

“ I love you too.” Myungsoo was leaning in, even though he didn’t know if he was going to be right, to kiss him. Though Sungjong put a hand between their lips and laughed.

“ We can kiss later. You need to eat your fruits. I brought your favorite: apples!”

“ Haha! Thanks Sungjong!”

A figure was standing by the door unnoticed. He smiled bitterly, but he was happy for Myungsoo. If Myungsoo is happy then he is happy. He closed the door and headed back to who knows where. That is until a doctor called for him and lead him somewhere.

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“ Myungsoo, how have you been while I was gone? What did you do?”

“ Let’s see. I have been hanging out with a nurse. His name is Lee Sungyeol and he is our hyung. He is really funny and sweet. He makes my life here less boring. Which reminds me, he hasn’t been here all day.” Sungjong brushed away Myungsoo’s bangs and smiled. He was happy that somebody was occupying Myungsoo while he wasn’t here. He marked in his head to thank the person one day when he meets him.

“ Is that so? I have to meet Sungyeol-sshi one day. You will introduce me to him right?”

“ Of course! You will like him a lot!” It was already getting dark, and it was time for Sungjong to go. Sungjong got off the bed, but before he left, he kissed Myungsoo right on the lips. They kissed for what seemed like an eternity, and then Sungjong had to go.

“ Bye Myungsoo-hyung. I will see you later.”

“ Bye Sungjong!” As Sungjong left the room, he bumped into a person. Sungjong bowed to him as an apology and didn’t see the person’s face. The person waited until he was out of sight, and entered Myungsoo’s room. The moonlight hit Myungsoo’s face perfectly as the person entered. He was enchanted by how the light emphasized Myungsoo’s jawline, and how it made his face sparkle like a diamond.

“ Sungyeol-hyung, is that you?” He stopped in his tracks and smiled. Sungyeol knew that he was going to get caught sooner or later. He went towards Myungsoo’s bed and sat on the edge of it. Myungsoo made some space and patted on the bed next to him. Sungyeol got the message and sat next to Myungsoo. When Myungsoo grabbed onto Sungyeol’s hand, Sungyeol was surprised. The reason why he was surprised was because how quick Myungsoo found his hand.

“ You found my hand pretty quickly.”

“ Of course. I can feel your body heat.” Sungyeol didn’t know why, but those words affected him a lot. Though he was still sad because of what he saw.

“ Myungsoo, can I ask you a question?”

“ Go ahead and ask! You don’t need to ask for my permission.” Sungyeol cleared his throat and he flipped his hand so he was holding onto Myungsoo’s hand.

“ Who was that person who came out of your room?”

“ Oh, Sungjong? He is my boyfriend? Why?” Right when the word “ boyfriend” was let out, Sungyeol’s heart felt like it was stabbed a million times. The grip on Myungsoo’s hand loosens, and Sungyeol starts to get off the bed.

“ Sungyeol-hyung? Where are you going?”

“ T-To close the window. It’s pretty chilly in here.”

“ Oh, okay. Thanks.”

Sungyeol closed the window and went back to sit next to Myungsoo. When Myungsoo tried to search Sungyeol’s hand, Sungyeol pulled his hand away. It may have seemed selfish of him, but he just couldn’t understand. The pain in his heart was overbearing for him that a single touch from Myungsoo would make him go back to Myungsoo. Everything Myungsoo does makes Sungyeol want to cry and cry. Though every time he wants to cry, Myungsoo is always there for him: to comfort him, to be the voice that draws him out of the darkness. Even though Myungsoo is the one who is living in the darkness, Myungsoo knows that Sungyeol is his light. They are there for each other when the other person needs comfort, and maybe just a bit of love.

“ Sungyeol-hyung, are you mad?” Sungyeol was shocked to hear that. He immediately grabbed his hand and shook his head even though Myungsoo wouldn’t be able to see.

“ No! I’m not mad at you! I could never be mad at you!” A sigh of relief was released from Myungsoo’s mouth. A smiled graced upon his lips and Myungsoo held onto Sungyeol’s hand tighter.

“ Thank you, again. Sungyeol-hyung, have you ever been in love?”
“ Why do you ask?”

“ Well, I think I’m in love with Sungjong. I have known him for such a long time that I can’t live without him. Though, I feel like something is missing whenever he isn’t by me, but when you are here that disappears. I just miss Sungjong a lot. I wish he could visit me more.” Another stab to Sungyeol’s heart.

“ Is that so? Well, it’s young love so there is still time to figure things out. You just have to wait for a bit longer.”

“ Hm. I understand I guess. Sungyeol-hyung, have you ever been in love?” Sungyeol didn’t have to think about that. He knew the answer right away because the person he loves is sitting next to him.

“ I’m in love right now actually.” Myungsoo jumped in his bed at the sudden news. He couldn’t believe that Sungyeol is in love with somebody right now.

“ Really!? Since when? Who? Tell me!”

“ Haha! Settle down! The person’s name… Is a secret. I will tell you when I confess to them.”

“ Aw! Why can’t you tell me?” Sungyeol hesistated to tell Myungsoo, but at this point what did it matter?

Should I tell him? No, I can’t. I can never tell him because if I did…it will only hurt him.

“ I can’t tell you because the person already has somebody.” It went quiet. Sungyeol saw Myungsoo’s fallen face and couldn’t help but laugh. He took his hands and pulled Myungsoo’s frown into a smile.

“ Don’t worry about it. It would be better if I didn’t tell them anyway.” Sungyeol let go of Myungsoo’s cheeks. Myungsoo rubbed his cheeks since it was a bit sore.

“ What do you mean by that?” Sungyeol shook his head. He didn’t want to tell Myungsoo his secret because he is afraid of losing Myungsoo. Though he realized that he never had Myungsoo’s heart in his hands from the beginning.

“ It’s nothing Myungsoo-ah. Go to sleep okay?”

“ You won’t leave me right?” Shock spread across Sungyeol’s face. Right when he was about to reply back to Myungsoo, he started to cough. The coughing got worse so Myungsoo patted Sungyeol’s back until it stopped. A soft thank you came out of Sungyeol’s mouth when he stopped coughing. Sungyeol stood up and tucked Myungsoo in bed. Protests flew across from each other’s lips, but Myungsoo finally gave up.

“ Goodnight Myungsoo.”

“ Goodnight Sungyeol-hyung.”

Sungyeol turned off the lights, and left the room. Before he closed the door, he muttered three words. He took slow deafening steps to another room. A doctor called for him, and he forced a smile on himself. It was as if his heart was being stabbed, but there was nothing he could do about it. No matter what he did, the pain is never going to disappear: even if he wishes on a shooting star.

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It was the next day, and Sungyeol ran over to Myungsoo’s room. He was out of breath but excited at the same time. In his hand was a Polaroid camera and a bag. He skipped to Myungsoo’s bed and shook him awake. Myungsoo wouldn’t wake up though. Sungyeol kept on shaking him to the point where the bed was shaking. After a while Myungsoo gave up and sat up on the bed. He rubbed his eyes from sleepiness, and reached his hand out. Sungyeol reached to Myungsoo’s hand and held it.

“ Sungyeol-hyung, what do you want? And what time is it?” Sungyeol looked at the clock in the room and laughed.

“ It’s seven in the morning!”

“ What!? Why did you wake me up so early in the morning?”

“ I wanted to see you! Also I have the whole day planned out for us!” Myungsoo groaned but deep inside he was excited. Though he wasn’t going to admit it.

“ What do you have in plan?”

“ We are going to go outside and walk around the park.” Sungyeol shook Myungsoo’s body and Myungsoo couldn’t help but smile. It has been such a long time he went out and he was really excited now.

“ When are we going?”

“ We are going to leave once you put on some clothes.” Myungsoo pouted, but Sungyeol had a resolution.

“ Don’t worry, I brought you clothes from my place. I’m only a little bit taller than you so it should be fine. I also brought shoes for you too.”

“ T-Thanks hyung. You didn’t have to go so far for me.” Sungyeol took Myungsoo’s hand and placed them on his face. Then he shook his head. Sungyeol figured out that since Myungsoo couldn’t see him, he would make him feel it.

“ It’s okay. We’re friends, right?” Myungsoo smiled and nodded.

“ Yeah we are friends.”

Sungyeol went to go get the clothes from the bag. He made sure that he had everything, and it looked like it was all there. Then he realized something: Myungsoo can’t dress himself and he was not going to dress Myungsoo. Dressing Myungsoo means seeing him and Sungyeol was not prepared for that. Even if they were friends, and Sungyeol did have the urge to see Myungsoo , he wasn’t going to take that chance. Instead he went to get a nurse to help dress Myungsoo. As Myungsoo was getting dressed, he stood outside of the room. From his pocket he took out something and ate swallowed it. He wasn’t going to ruin this day in anyway. To him this day was going to perfect and they were going to make great memories.

With the help of the nurse, Myungsoo came out of the room fully dressed. Sungyeol smiled at the sight of Myungsoo, and his heart couldn’t help but beat a little bit faster. Sungyeol took Myungsoo’s hand and they headed out of the hospital. Myungsoo was holding onto his stick and was only going to use it when Sungyeol wasn’t holding onto his hand. Also he was wearing sunglasses even though Sungyeol didn’t want him to. He would rather see Myungsoo’s eyes, but he knew how insecure Myungsoo felt.

“ Hyung, where are we going first?”

“ How about we go get something to eat? I know this really good place that has the best pancakes ever!”

“ Okay! They better be good or else!”

“ Haha! Of course they are!” As they were walking to the place, people gave them looks. Sungyeol knew Myungsoo couldn’t see them, but he couldn’t help but get mad. He didn’t like they were giving Myungsoo weird looks because he is blind. Somehow he wishes he could make everybody disappear so Myungsoo wouldn’t have to feel the stares.

“ Sungyeol-hyung, it’s okay. I don’t mind it.”

“ What do you mean?”

“ I can feel their eyes on me. It’s okay though. As long as you are with me, I don’t feel insecure at all.” Blush hit Sungyeol’s cheeks, and he smiled. He wishes that Myungsoo could see him smile because he would be able to know how happy he is. Myungsoo would know how happy he makes Sungyeol.

They got the restaurant and Sungyeol brought him to the corner of the restaurant. He didn’t bring him there because he didn’t want people to look, but he wanted for the two of them to be alone. Sungyeol wanted as much time with Myungsoo because he treasures the times they have together. Sungyeol lifted the camera and took a photo of Myungsoo. It was just a picture of Myungsoo looking straight at him, but he was happy.

“ Yah! You just took a picture of me didn’t you?”

“ Um, no I didn’t. I did not take a picture of you.”

“ Liar! That picture of me better look good!” I laughed and put the picture into a bag I brought with me. I leaned over the table and whispered into his ear.

“ You look perfect.” Myungsoo was lucky that Sungyeol’s head was near his so that way he could push it away.

“ D-Don’t say things like that! It’s embarrassing!”

“ Okay, okay! I won’t say anything!” A waitress came over to their table and she took out a white notepad.

“ What can I get you guys today?” Sungyeol glanced over the menu for him and Myungsoo.

“ I would like the French toast and Myungsoo would… Myungsoo what do you like?”

“ Um, I like chocolate chip pankcakes.”

“ Okay! One French toast and chocolate chip pancakes!” Sungyeol shut the menu and grabbed both his and Myungsoo’s.

“ Alright sounds good!” The waitress took both menus and went to the kitchen.

“ Sungyeol-hyung, why were you in my room so early in the morning? You usually take a while to get to the hospital don’t you?” Sungyeol froze up. His hands got sweaty and he couldn’t look at Myungsoo. If he did, he would probably reveal everything.

“ There was no traffic going to the hospital.”

“ Hm. I see. Sungyeol-hyung, why did you want to become a nurse?” Sungyeol froze up again. He looked down at his lap and chuckled softly so Myungsoo wouldn’t hear it.

“ I want to see people happy even when they are in pain. I want to be able to take away the pain even if it is for a second. People may not know it, but a second can change a person’s life. That’s why I became a nurse.” Myungsoo reached out his hand and Sungyeol took it. Myungsoo took his other hand and put it on top.

“ That’s amazing hyung! You are really a great person! You should be like recognized for such sincerity. I have never met an amazing person like you before.” A tear slipped from Sungyeol’s eye. He quickly wiped it away with his other hand. Then he took Myungsoo’s hand, took his index finger, and traced it along his lips. This was the way Sungyeol was showing that he was smiling because of what Myungsoo said.

“ Can you feel it? I’m smiling.”

“ Yeah, I can feel it. I can feel you smiling.”

“ Ahem?” Sungyeol dropped Myungsoo’s hand onto the table. He turned his head to see the waitress with their food. Embarrassment was evident on them because of their flush cheeks. The waitress couldn’t help but smile at the innocence of the two.

“ Sorry if I was disturbing anything. I brought your food. Hope you two enjoy.”

“ Thank you!” Both of them said at the same time. Sungyeol helped feeding Myungsoo even though Myungsoo did protest a few times. It was just his childish side coming out which Sungyeol thought was cute.

They finished eating their food, and Sungyeol went to pay at the front. Myungsoo was left alone, and was scared. He knew that Sungyeol wasn’t faraway, but it was as if a thousand feet separated them. Sungyeol was walking back to their table, and when he touched Myungsoo’s shoulder, Myungsoo jumped.

“ I-I’m sorry Myungsoo-ah. I didn’t mean to scare you.” Myungsoo shook his head and reached for his stick.

“ N-No, it’s okay. Where are we off to next?” Sungyeol took hold of Myungsoo’s hand and intertwined their fingers. Myungsoo felt safe and warm from Sungyeol’s hand. He knew he could trust Sungyeol no matter the circumstance.

“ We are going to take a walk around the park. How does that sound?”

“ Sound good to me.”

Sungyeol and Myungsoo went to the park and sat on one of the benches for a little bit. Sungyeol stood up all of a sudden. He stood in front of Myungsoo but his back was facing him. Then Sungyeol used the camera to take a picture of what is in front of him. Once the picture came out, he went to sit next to Myungsoo. The picture has trees in it, but it’s strangely beautiful.

“ What did you take a picture of?”

“ You.”

“ Yah! What did I say about taking pictures of me!?” Sungyeol laughed and patted Myungsoo’s head. He took Myungsoo’s hand and they walked around the park. Sungyeol took a couple of pictures again like he did last time. Then he put them into his bag and grabbed Myungsoo’s hand. They walked around the park a couple of times because this is a rare chance for the both of them to go outside.

“ Myungsoo, lets take a picture together.”

“ Okay!”

“ It seems like somebody changed their mind about taking pictures.” Myungsoo blushed a little bit, and Sungyeol caught it.

“ W-Well, you asked, so…yeah.”

“ Haha! Okay lets take the picture.” Sungyeol brought Myungsoo close to him. Their heads were next to each other and Sungyeol lifted the camera up.

“ Say cheese!”

“ Cheese!” Sungyeol pressed the button and out came the picture. It took a few minutes for the picture to come out, and when it did, Sungyeol smiled his biggest. To him the picture was perfect, and he wished that Myungsoo could see it.

“ How does it look like?”

“ It’s perfect. Just like you.”

 “ S-Stop with those comments!” Sungyeol took Myungsoo’s hand and led the way back to the hospital.

I don’t want to stop saying how perfect you are. I don’t want to stop because who knows how much longer I can say it.