"so... where will we go?" xingie ask me

"you said just walking around, eat ice cream, drink bubble tea! why now you are asking me?" i answer

"ya! do you think i will just have a date with you walking around randomly? this is a date that we never get to do for a year!"

"but! you are the one who say it..." i said pouting

"kkamjongie, don't you want more?" he said looking straight into my eyes, making me blush by his action and words

"h-huh? I-I... I... want" i said almost whispering but i know he can hear it cause his ips curled into smirk

"excuse me?" he ask dumbly pretend to not hear

"I want" i said a bit louder

"what? you don't want?"

"I SAID I WANT IT! happy?!" i said pouting and crossing my arms in front of my chest

"uhm! very~! lets go now!" he said while grabbing my hands

"where?" i ask titling my head

"um.... secret! get in the car" he said as he open the door for me, i feel like a princess right now~ and i obediently go in the car then he close the door and get in the car too and start turning on the engine

"can't at least i know where we will go??" i said putting my aegyo

"ya! uljima.... if you do that i can't keep it to be surprise" he said ruffling my hair

"surprise?"

"yup! the special one! now just sit patiently. let me guide you, miss" he said smiling

"arasseo master Yixing~" i said playfully

all the way we are chatting and joking, happily taking our date time. it's been a long time since our last date last year. we can't have a date because of our job and how busy we are. actually, if today we just walking around it's okay because what important is the time we spent together

"we are here!" he said excited

"really? okay..." i said while i want to open the door someone grab my hand, as i look up to see Xingie playful smirk

"you didn't think that i will just let you go easily right? close your eyes"

"w-what?! w-why s-should i?" i said shuttering

"just close it" he said and i shut my eyes afraid of what to come. my thought telling me that he want to kiss me but my other thought doesn't say so as i wait for a familiar lips wrapped around my own. i didn't feel anything but something stuck in my eyes, when i open my eyes all i see is dark, i can't see anything

"X-xingie?" i ask worry

"ne" he simply answer me

"w-what's wrong? w-what happend?" i said afraid

"sshhh.... nothing, don't worry... it's part of my surprise plan!" then i can feel the door on my right side being opened, make me flinch afraid of what to come but my afraid soon dissaear because i know that it's yixing the one who open the door

"let's come out" he said grabbing my hands, and i follow him into a room i guess?

"we are here!"

"then can i open this?"

"NO!"

"waeee~??"

"cause im the one who will open it! but when i open it you should keep your eyes shut! ok?" he said as i feel the blindfold being opened and i nodded

"ready? hana.... deul... set!" when he count into 3 i open my eyes slowly, but i can't see anything, it just pitch black. i wonder i this place doesn't have any light or now i become blind?

"x-xingie?" i said shuttering with fear. suddenly there's a loud sound and the light is on msking me close my eyes then opening slowly to see what happening

"saengil chukkae hamnida! saengil chukkae hamnida! saranghanda uri jongin! saengil chukkae hamnida!!!!" the people in the room singing happy birthday song as i see my mom bring a chocolate cake with candle 19 shape and cream on top of the cake with words SAENGIL CHUKKAE KKAMJONG on hangul

then my eyes landed on the person around me that still clapping their hands while singing happy birthday song. i can see all exo members are here and there's my family and yixing's family. and i just recognize that now im in my parents house that used to be the place i live. i took a glance at the person beside me that have a smile plastered on his face showing his cute dimple. Yixing look at me and mouthing 'surprise'

i can't express my feeling right now because im too happy. i thought no one remember my birthday even i forgot that today is my birthday  and with everyone busy schedule. they still spare their times for me. as i can feel tears building up, it's not an unhappy tears or a sad tears but a happy tears, too happy until i cry

the song ended with their cheerful noise as i smile, i can feel someone hand wiping my tears and that person is my xingie

"aigoo my kkamjongie is so happy until he cry~ hajima" my mom said playfully

"ya! hurry up blow the candle! doesn't you pity your mom that bring the heavy cake!" said my father playfully gaining laugh from everyone

"blow the candle! blow the candle! blow the candle!" everyone cheering and i do as their wish, i close my the distance between me and the cake then i blow the candle receiving a big amount of applouse

"gomawo everyone" i said smiling "i never expected a big surprise like this... thank you" i continue

"hey, this is not over yet! there's still another surprise awaiting!" said kyungsoo hyung

"don't be too much, this is more than enough" i said assuring

"no it is not my dear" xingie mother said as she hold my hands

"but-" my words cutted by xingie mother index finger that pressed firmly onto my lips

"ah-ah! no but! you don't even know the other surprise right?" she ask and i nod my head

"you will get to know a person that's very important to xingie!"

"is that so? who is that person? it will be an honor for me to know that person" i said while looking at yixing, smiling but my smile soon dissapear as i see his face. his face is a mixture of guilty, nervous, sad, etc. everything mix into one

"waeo? xingie?" i ask titling my head

"huh? n-nothing..." he said avoiding my gaze, when i want to ask him what happen the words doesn't come out of my mouth as xingie mom suddenlyy speak

"xingie, bring uan tian here" she order and yixing obligate obediently

yuan tian? it's like a girl nama.... i thought and not long after that yixing come out with a woman besaide him, she is indeed very beautiful, her hair is pure black with a white rose hairpin attach on her hair. she have a pale skin and her eyes is slented. it looks like she's chinese, born in the sama country as xingie. she wear short white dress until knee, white high heels  that make her taller, a a soft blue eyeshadow and her cheek is a little pink, her lips is red, she wear a pair of white neckace, white bracelent and white earing with star shape.Everything about her is white is I observe her more I just realize she hold hand with Yixing! I dont know why but when I see that slight my heart clench, it's hurt. Seeing they were laughing happyly, I know I shouldn't be jealous over a small things like that after all she is just special person to Xingie........ I wonder which one more special to Xingi? Me or Her?  Aish...... Jongin! You shouldn't have a negative thinking! Who knows who she's, maybe she's Xingie's sister?

"hi jongin, it's nice to meet you"she said smiling, when she's smiling she looks like an angel, I envy of her

"h-hi........ nice to meet you too......"

"Yuan Tian, you can call me Tian"she said

"O-ok...... but how do you know my name?"

"Xingie is often telling me about you"great she know my name, i don't know her, she even call my Xingie, Xingie! You always tell her about me but you never tell me about her? Aish, My blood is boiling right now!

"is that so? but who are you?"i ask curious

"Xingie didn't tell you about me?"she ask, her expression shows that she's shock but my statement, and i just reply by shaking

"j-jongin ah....... she is-"Xingie words cutted by Tian, but I wonder why he call me Jongin? Usually he will call me kkamjongie........ is the reason is because Tian is here.

"Im his future wife! We're engaged"she said while circling her arms around Xingie and showing me their couple ring on their (jari manis) finger. I just realized that they wear the same rings.......... couple ring.

I feel pain rush into my chest, its hurt........ it hurt so much..... too much until i cant take it anymore. Is this what they mean by suprise? I though........ we are in relantionship? My eyes get tearly I bit my lips to prevent from crying. Then what about the kiss we share this morning? Everything just an act?

"Jongin ah..... Mianhae, I always want to tell you this but I dont get chance to...... lets just end it okay? Its the best for "us"I cant have a child with you. Sorry"he said smiling bitterly then I see him go into a wedding car with Yuan Tian

I cant hold my tears anymore, Its flowing without stop I run into him and grab his arm

"kajima..... dont leave me..... jebal..... I cant live without you...."i said crying

"mianhae jongin ah..."

"andwe! if you want a child we can adopt! eoh? jebal.... kajima..... i beg you"

"jeomal mianhae...... annyeong...."he said and leave, go in the car. I chose the car while crying until I ran out of breath, and I cant run anymore. Im falling into the ground. I ignore all stare from people in the street. I dont care if they think im crazy or pathetic.

"ZHANG YIXING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

 

 

 

 

 

OK, first... im so sorry for updating for such a long time >.<
i'll try to update soon