It had started out with the sun but it ended with the rain.

I still remember the day he proposed me. I was happy, I had said yes.

But then I didn’t know why it rained. When it rained I was happy that it was a romantic weather.

But he just texted me that he couldn’t make it.

I knew why he can’t, it was because of the practice. He wanted to become a singer. And he was working really hard for it and I didn’t want to be the burden on him. I was encouraging him to be a singer, why wouldn’t I do that. I loved him.

I remember whenever he used to get free time he used to practice.

I wish I could have the guts to go to him and listen to him.

Then one day he called, he was happy and I was happy that he was happy. He took me out. We went out to eat. He was so happy and it made me choke on my food because I didn’t want to tell him that I was trying to stop my crying to see him that happy. He told me that the CEO had said that he will see the performance and then he will decide who will be there and who will be eliminated. I prayed for him hard the day of the performance.

I remember the day I went to see Se7en Oppa. He was one of Se7en Oppa's backup dancers and he looked so excited and he looked awesome when he was dancing.

Then he told me, he was selected. But he was sad. I couldn’t understand why?

He was sad because they had to part with one of his friends, who had trained there as well with them. I couldn’t do anything for him. I couldn’t be with him to hug him for comfort. I was sad as well; I know how much important the friends are.

Then the day came when he debuted in that group and I remember how much importance and how much fame they got. After that he got too busy.

Busy with the practices, busy with the fan meetings, busy with the promptings, busy with the reality and Varity shows.

I saw him again but on the TV, I suddenly realized, his world was totally different now used to go to his concerts to cheer him up. But I could never meet him.

He was the star in the sky

He was the angel with the angelic smile.

He was the guy everyone loved.

He was shared.

He was the famous member of the band called BIGBANG.

He was the sweetest person.

He had millions of fans.

The girls used to scream his name.

And before I could realize we drifted far away from each other.

The distance between us started to become wider than the oceans.

Even though we are the shores that can never meet. The water of the ocean is now his fans. They love him. Even though we can’t meet but I will always pray for him. I will always be there for him.

Whenever he falls. I still go to the same place we used to go. Hoping one day he will decide to come there. And I want to show him I am still here where I was. I haven’t forgotten anything.

I am still for him to come to me and make me laugh with his silly jokes.

I am still there waiting for his sweet smile.

What can I do? What can I do Daesung? I am sorry I am still at the same place.

Yes Daesung, I still love you. Saranghae Daesung. Saranghae for the rest of my life.