“Jonghyun-ah stop it!” I shouted running away from him as he tried to spray more water on me “I’m wearing white” I laughed hiding behind his car. “That’s the point” he softly said spraying me again.

“Yah it’s my birthday and this is what I get?” I cringed feeling the cold water soak my clothes causing him to only laughed spraying me more.

“Aish come here!” I ran towards him tackling him on the lawn in front of his house. He smiled at me brushing my wet hair behind my ear. I smiled leaning down towards him capturing his lips in mine.

It was a gentle kiss making my stomach feel rapid butterflies erupt within it, as my heartbeat accelerated to a speed that is only imaginable. Kim Jonghyun is the only guy who can EVER make me react this way.

“I love you” he said after we pulled away “I love you too” I smiled as he kissed my forehead. “Get a room you two!” I laughed as his younger brother Johwan stepped out onto the pourch.

I stood up fixing my self “Nice blue bra Sica.” Jonghyun  pointed at me laughing “Y-yah shut up” I pouted covering myself “Here you go noona, you can wear my jacket” Johwan said behind his giggles handing me his jacket

I snatched it rolling my eyes “Remind me to NEVER agree to wash a car with this Dino head again” I smirked looking at Jonghyun, he only winked at me.

Jonghyun brought me home a few hours later. “Jjong stay with me tonight” I said pulling his wrist as he was about to head back to his car. “Ok Sica-baby” he smiled taking my hand as we headed into my house.

‘This is it’ I thought as I dressed myself into my pajamas.

“Jjong I have something to tell you” I said sliding into bed next to him “What is it?” he wrapped his arms around my shoulders bringing me closer.

I took a deep breath closing my eyes and sighing out “Jonghyun….I’m pregnant…” I softly said. I felt his body stiffen for a bit before he kissed the top of my head “Don’t worry Jess…it’ll be ok” he hugged me

I sighed in relief ‘I knew he wouldn’t take it so bad’ I smiled snuggling against him. “I love you so much Jjong” I said just before I fell asleep in his arms.

-Next Morning-

I woke up and found the spot next to me empty. I sat up rubbing my eyes “Jjong?” I said looking around; I stood up going to the bathroom door and opening it...empty

I headed down stairs and saw dad in his usual morning spot sitting and drinking coffee while reading sports illustrated and mom cleaning the kitchen.

Krystal was eating at the table reading a cereal box. “Krys have you seen Jjong?” I asked sitting across from her “Umm nope not since last night” she looked at me for a while, her look saying ''did-you-tell-him''

I nodded getting up and rushing to the front door opening it not seeing his car out in front. I was on the verge of tears as I ran upstairs to my room grabbing my phone

I dialed his number he didn’t pick up, so I dialed again…and again…and again, and yet…no answer from him; and so my tears fell as I threw my phone on my bed pulling my knees up to my chest and burying my face in my knees as I cried

‘He left…did he really leave me?’ I thought crying harder.

“Unnie…Jessica unnie wake up” a faint voice said lightly shaking my body.

I sat up breathing unsteadily as I felt tears escaping my eyes again. “Krys...” she brought me into a gentle embrace “Shhh…don’t cry Sica unnie…I’m here” she rubbed my back

“…..I can’t stop loving him Krystal...” I gripped her shirt crying harder “He doesn’t love me, after all these years what were they for??” I questioned. “…how could he?” I mumbled as she continued repeating soothing words into my ears telling me ‘Everything is ok’ ‘I’m here’ ‘Don’t worry’

‘Why after this long cant I ever forget about you…why cant I stop loving you so much…I miss you…so much..Please come back to me…I need you more than you’ll ever know’ I thought falling back asleep.