MY FRAGILE LOVER
Author: Jaehan Kim Yunjae -- @yunjaehan
Pairing: Yunjae

Rating: PG 13

Genre: Romance
Length: 1 /?
Cast:

Kim Jaejoong
Jung Yunho

Park Yoochun
Kim Junsu

Shim Changmin
Kim Kibum
DISCLAIMER:

I don’t own Yunjae. They own each other but I hope I can own them…. Okay, the plot, story and poster are mine.

WARNING!
This is fanfic means boy x boy story, so if you can’t take it just leaves already. I don’t Want to hear bad comments and I don’t care with your comments.
--- Flashback ---
“Umma… Umma…”

A 10 years old boy crying call his mother while holding a small stuffed toy in his right hands which tremble.
"Hhhhssss... Do not cry dear"

Jaejoong POV
Dear!! Umma called Junsu dear? During this year Umma never called me like that even though I was crying uncontrollably

 
"What are you doing to him, Joongie" Umma said while Junsu’s hair
"He took my toys" I muttered lowered my head in sadness
 "Joongie, you're the oldest son in this house, you have to think about your brother first” Umma added glare to me
"But Umma, that's my favorite toy" I saw her with tears on my checks
"You've often played it, now let your brother play it. After all, you're already 12 years old, no time to playing anymore. Now go back to your room and study, soon you’ll have an exam.
"Yes, Umma"

I walked slowly towards my room and lay my body on the bed immediately while cried softly as drowned my face into the pillow
--- End of flashback ---

That's always happens since 8 years ago. Umma always asking me to succumb to my two brothers. Maybe this was the fate of the first son like me. Sometimes I feel that I am not a son of Kim family, but if I remember that Umma who still look after me and care for me when I was sick, I began to doubt it, though only when that time Umma make me the first for her

"Joongie! Joongie!" Umma shouted from the kitchen
"Yes Umma" I run to her
"Come here, help Umma here" I walked down the stairs and walked to the dining room
"What it is Umma?" I asked.
"Help Umma cook and prepare food on the table, your Appa will come home soon"
"Yes Umma" I started to prepare the food
"Joongie can you shopping tomorrow, we've run out of food"
"Where are you going, Umma?"
"Umma have an appointment"
"How about Junsu?"
"He was too tired after coming home from school trip and had to rest"
"Kibum?"
"He had an appointment with his friends to studying together"
"But Umma, I also already have an appointment tomorrow"
"Just a moment. You are still in your holidays anyways, you have a lot of time to meet your friends"
"Yes Umma" I only nodded and returned to my room

 
Yes perhaps this is my destiny, I always feels alone.I always hope that people understand me and make me a first for them. But that hope was gone, for years I waited for them, but they did not come. Ever came someone who I thought he was care for me, but it did not for so long. He is a my first friend, that was when I was in high school
--- Flashback ---
"Jaejoong this for you"
"Ah, thank you"
"What are you doing here?"
"Just watch the game" he is my best friend, his name Kazuya Kamenshi. I'd rather call him Kame. I was a transfer student at this school. Yes, our parents moved to Japan and he was the first one greet me and be my friend.

At that time I was a nerdy guy and can’t get along with others, too difficult to make friends, all thanks to my past. It was he who helped me make friends and if there is a group assignment, he was also a help me to find friends in one group. Until without realizing I was so dependent on him and afraid if I’ll lost him. Although in fact he was always nice to everyone and his friends, actually I just noticed I was over confidence that he more care to me, but I don’t want to be hated, I don’t want to feel lose anymore.

 
"Jaejoong... Jaejoong..."
"Ah-."
"What are you-?" he sent his gaze to me
"It's okay, just a bit of thinking" I cut his words
"Okay, let's go"
"Where?"
"You haven’t eaten lunch yet, are you? I've bought it"

We walked to the school roof, we always ate lunch there. I don’t want to do something wrong to him. Once I accidentally made a mistake and I tried to apologize, even though he finally pass over me but our relationship is so awkward. Since then I became more look after my word and didn’t want him mad at me. I started to keep the words and my attitude in front of him, until I felt I was not myself.

"Hah... I am full" I said rubbing my stomach  
"I'm lazy to go to class today" he said
"Don’t, wouldn’t you want to enter Tōdai”
"Well, let's go back to class"

 
Everything went great, until I had to part with him because I have to go back to Korea and study there. Since then, I will rarely associate with him because he was always changing his phone number. The last thing I heard him crash on his way to China and died on the spot. So finally, all those who close to me will die horribly.
--- End of flashback ---

Since then I started thinking that I don’t need other people; I can walk with my own. But still the pain is not noticed by other people always appear at the wrong time, when it happens I can just be alone and cry quietly

 
"Hyung" Junsu who is now 18 years pulled my sleeve
"Mhmm..."
"Help me do this task, I'm confused"

Well despite that, my relationships with my brothers are maintained. I still love them, even I love them more than to my own parents.

"Hyung" I heard Kibum who whined to me with that sad face from behind the door, his age was 16 years old now
"Come here" I said while moving my hand to come him in.
"Hyung I want to talk with you"
"Mmm... About Changmin" I said while , he only cover his blushing face
"You can’t, I am the first. Hyung had promised to teach me first" Junsu suddenly talking as he pulled my hand
"But I talked to Hyung now" Kibum said, pulling my other hand. I can only laugh at their behavior. They remain a spoiled to me, maybe it's the only thing that can comfort me now before I met there someone.
"Kibum-ah... Hyung-" my words was interrupted when suddenly I heard Umma call me
"Yes Umma!” I replied Umma

“We'll talk again later" I said while put my hands together in front of my face as an apology. I walked and found Umma waiting for me in the family room
"Help Umma make drinks to your Appa’s friends in front"
"Yes Umma" I walked into the kitchen and poured drinks. Then I went into the room and put the drinks on the table. Looks like they are a family, a pair of male and female in the same year as Appa and Umma and two others that I think their son and daughter
"Your daughter is very beautiful Mrs. Kim" the woman said who was next to my mother
"He was a my first son"
"Oh… He is boys" she said embarrassed
"She was too pretty to be a boy" Umma replied
"Jaejoong come here introduce Appa’s friends, they just returned from Japan" Appa said bring me to them

"This is Mr. Jung and the women next your Umma is his wife Mrs. Jung, you may call them uncle and aunty, and the boy next me is Yunho and Jiyool on the other side” he said again
"Good afternoon uncle aunty, I am Jaejoong. Kim Jaejoong" I said smiling, looking toward them one by one
"Umma I have to go back upstair, Junsu need my help for his lesson"

When my mother nodded I ran upwards to my room but they’re nowhere to be found, so I walked towards Junsu's room and opened the door of his room, I saw Kibum and Junsu already asleep in Junsu’s bed. I walked towards them and smiled a then covered them both and go back to my room

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"Hyung... Come on, the lake is in the middle of the forest" Kibum said as he pulled my hand
"Bummie, not so far away we might be lost"
"We've memorized the way Hyung, take it easy" Junsu added
"Well, I gave up on you two"

We continued walking through the forest and saw a very beautiful lake there; the water is green but also blue and surrounded by dandelion that fly in the wind, the air is very fresh.

 
"How you can find this place?" I asked both my brothers
"Secret" they said simultaneously. We spent long hours there
"Okay, it's time to go home"
"Yes Hyung" Kibum said

"Su-ie you show the way home" he continued
"Uh... Don’t you the one know the way home, Bummie?"
"I just know the way here" My eyes got wide to see both my brother began to tremble
"Hyung... What- we must…do?" they said crying
 "Calm down, we're looking for it" we search for a way out, I'm already very tired of walking
"Junsu... Kibum..."
"Joongie..." I heard someone shout, we ran to the sound
"Ummaaaa" Junsu and Kibum shouted and ran to Umma
"Junsu! Kibum! Finally, wherever you are?" Umma said holding back her tears
"Umma..." I tried to call her
"Yah! Kim Jaejoong! What are you doing?" I shocked when Umma yell at me and I stood silent, Umma do not ever call me by my full name
"Umma..." I said softly
"What do you mean bring your brothers to this place? It’s okay, don’t cry anymore”
"But Junsu and Kibum the one brought me here" I muttered quietly, until I felt someone hug me
"Appa ..." Appa my hair gently, I felt my tears falling down my cheek
"It’s okay Joongie"
"Ap-  pa..." I said, holding Appa’s clothes tightly

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My eyes were open and I felt the tears flowing down my checks
"Dream? Why did I dream about that?" I muttered softly and heard someone knock my bedroom door
"Not locked" I said, too lazy to open the door myself
"Hi…" he greets me
"You? What is here?"
"Your mom told me to come here"
"Where others?"
"They went around the city"
"Why don’t you join them?"
"I don’t know, your mother told me to look after your brothers, when I knock on the door no one answered, so I knocked up your room"
"Oh... Then?"
"Then?"
"What do you want to do?"
"Oh... Umm... Oh yes, we haven’t introduce ourselves personally. I am Yunho" he said, holding out his hand
"Jaejoong... Kim Jaejoong" I said and hold his hand
"How old are you?" He asked
"20 years old this year, you?"
"Eh... We in the same age"
"What do you mean?"
"I thought you were still in high school, your face is too cute, Umma is true you're beautiful" he teased me as he already knows me long enough
"Yah!" I hated when someone calls me beautiful
"You're even cuter when you angry" he laughed to me
"You come here to mocking me?"
"Ah-  no. I want to entertain you and playing with you. Mhmm... Ah- I remember, what if we play the psychology test"
"Psychology test?"
"Yes, I'll ask you some questions will determine your personality" I nod
"Want to try?"
"Okay" I said
"Okay...  Now close your eyes and imagine a beautiful lake and goose swim in that lake"
"Mhmm...." I nodded when I do what he’s said
"How many goose?" he asked
"Mmm... One" I saw he knitted his eyebrow when I open my eyes
"Say someone name"
"You"
"Me?"
"Yes... The last name I hear is your name"
"Say it"
'Yun- ho..." I said hesitant and closed my eyes again
"Now imagine you walk into the woods beside the lake, someone walking with you. Who?
"I don’t know.  His face is not clear, but his body taller than me and his skin is darker than me"
"Male?"
"Hu-uh" I nodded slowly
"You guys carry the torch, how the fire of the torch?"
"Seems a bit dim"
“Do you look back?"
"No"
"Mhmm... You keep walking, then appeared an animal in front of you, what animal?"
"Umm... Bear"
"What do you do to the bear?"
"Nothing, I let it go and I keep going"
"You see a house in the middle of the forest and walked over to the house, how the house?"
"Not too big, simple and beautiful"
"The house has a fence?"
"Yes... Black color "
"You walked into the house toward the dining room"
"Umm..." I nodded again
"You see a cup on the dining table, where the thing was made of what?"
"Umm... Ceramics maybe"
"You bring the cup headed behind the house and then what you do to the cup?"
"I drink it and put it in a terrace"
"Okay... Now you go ahead and see the river. How big the river?"
"Very big, like Han river"
"You want to cross the river. What are you doing?"
"I swim"
"Okay... Now open your eyes"
"Finished?"
"Actually there is its continuation but I think it was for the first, sometime we’ll continue. Actually I’m forget" he said embarrassed
"Then what does it mean?"
"Goose that is the number of people you loved the most, and the name of the person you call it’s" Yunho paused
"Yes, why?"
"He is the person" Yunho said hesitant
"Uh- but I've only known you?"
"I don’t know, you yourself are willing to say my name" I nod
"Then?"
"People who are beside you while in the forest is a person who will always take care of you"
"Who is he? His face was not clear"
"One day he will come"
"Oh yeah, you don’t look back right? And the torch is dim?"
"Yes"
"It means you don’t like seeing the past and the dim light that illuminates your life" I was just keep silent
"The bear is the way you look at the problems, you think every problem is a big thing and it is also hard, you was tend to always let the problem" I'm looked down
"Jaejoon...." he said
"Just go"
"Well, fenced house means you're always close yourself from other people and cup made from ceramic, ceramics are fragile things, it indicates you are a fragile and easily hurt. You slowly put the glass on the terrace, which means you afraid and not ready to accept the harsh treatment" I felt tears welling around my eyes
"Big river shows a great sense of love that you want, also you swim to pass the river, meaning that you really want to feel that love" I am no longer able to stem the tears and my body began to tremble
"Jaejoong…" Yunho said softly, I felt a warm hand on my body
'Yunho-ah" finally I am crying
"Why- why... Umma... I just- I just want she to love me… like her love to Junsu and Kibum... I-"  I said while crying
"Jae..." I just cried in his arms. After a while I realized I just knew him and I say my problem easily even cried in his arms
"I am so- sorry... I'm- not... I mean"
"I understand, you can tell me everything, aren’t we friend" I nodded slowly

"Now rest... Seemed like they all back"
"Mmm..." and then Yunho lay me on the bed and kissed my forehead, I felt my face heat up and he stepped out of my room and I realize one thing
"I shouldn’t be friends with him" I muttered
 

-Tbc-

Thanks for reading^^

By the way, I got the test from internet