I’m back and I’m up to no good. I haven’t updated for the reason of not having enough inspiration to write another list of why I hate a girl named Sandara Park.

How could you think about the things you hate to someone you dearly love? It’s contradicting and I’m not that sarcastic. Okay I retract that I’m not sarcastic.

Seungri’s been bugging me every time we talked about our love lives. I know it sound gay but we’re humans too, we are bound to gossip. There are no such

things as only girls’ gossip. We boys are far worse.  So back to the topic on hand, we were talking about how our relationship is. TOP hyung keeps on

blabbering how Bom noona keeps him busy that we all rolled our eyes on him. Psh. My girlfriend is keeping me busy too. She keeps buying lots of food and ate

a portion of it and gives away the rest to the family. Family means me and her family or sometimes Chaerin.  So please bear with my “healthy” figure. I will be

back to being a y Jiyong once my girlfriend stops being so generous and because of me having such a “healthy” figure, all the members of bigbang keeps on

teasing me saying that I’m just whipped.  

I can’t say no to that woman. And I regret being such an understanding boyfriend. I hate how all of her fans are happy  being friend with some fish. I have a fish

friend too! Why aren’t you happy for me?! I hate how she would laugh when she reads my fans bullying me. Is bullying  me that fun? I ain’t fat just healthy! I hate

how she accepted the suggestion of Chaerin to do some mature act in their concert. I hate how all her fan boys are  increasing every minute.

I hate that she’s beautiful. I hate how she’s so perfectly imperfect. I hate that she’s so selfless that she won’t reveal our relationship  because she’s scared of

what people will say to me. I hate how she understands me. That she knows when to approach me when I’m in bad mood and when I  need some company.

I hate how she’s close to my family. Especially to my noona, they’ve been shopping with couple clothes and keep wearing them. I hate  that she overcome her

phobia of dogs that I didn’t need to carry her every time we visit dolce vita. I miss those times when she would jump on me and cry in my  back because she

was so scared that Gaho would run after her.

I hate her for being so brave that sometimes I feel that she don’t need me but then again I know it’s just a façade. She’s still my small frail girl.

I hate how she would help everyone that she often forgot to help herself. I hate how she would text me and tell me not to call her. It’s not like I want to hear her

voice. I hate how she would say that I should save my money for future and then she keeps on buying stuffs for everyone including me.

I hate how she still shy whenever I kiss her on public but I definitely love her when she kisses me when we are alone. I hate how she uses me as her partner to

practice her in  AON con. I had a severe case of blue balls.

I hate how she would curse me whenever I leave a hickey in her neck, cause it would only result in another make-up . On second taught I love it.

I hate when she nags me for smoking that she looks so stressed whenever I smoked. I hate how she is getting comfortable on  wearing skirts and dresses. I just

want to burn all of it.

I hate how she get excited seeing that TALL not-that-handsome-man in our TV screen. She told everyone that she likes him? Tsk that man is Gay you know, he said he likes me. In your face Babe! I mean yeah!

I hate how your other fanboys wear the same  clothes WE have.

I hate you for being what the fans called “bersbabol” they could match you up with everyone. I hate how you would smile to everyone including 

your haters.

I hate how forgiving you are. I hate how caring you are. Did I already write how I hate how strong you are?  It makes me feel so useless.

I hate how  you could overcome every fear you have. I hate how you don’t want to be a burden to anyone.

I hate how loving you are. But I don’t really hate your traits at all.  I’m just trying to hate it. I’m trying to hate you. Thinking that when that happens you’ll stop

loving me and that will result of you not being hurt anymore. I hate  you for standing up for me that sometimes I think I didn’t deserve your love. I hate you for

being strong for the both of us, that letting you go is so hard. I hate you  for being so lovable, that my other friends fall in love with you. I hate the fact that IF we

broke up, there is someone who will console you and be by your side. I hate to think that I will not be the guy anymore. I hate seeing you cry whenever there’s a

scandal of me.

I hate you for being the woman every guy wants to  marry. I hate it when you solve my problem by just being you. I hate that you’re close to my other friends. I

hate when Ben is having conversations with you and  he’s acting like a protective big brother. I hate you when you get jealous it makes me want to kiss you and

make love to you. I hate it when you get frustrated  every time we fight.

I hate myself for hating you. So if you’re reading this again, can you help me stop thinking things I hate about you? Can you put my heart at ease and secure

me that I’m the only one man in your life?

Will you make me the happiest man alive?

Sandara Park will you be my wife? Will you be the girl  beside me forever and a day? Will you be the mother of our children? Will you be the forever muse of Gdragon’s songs?

I love you. There I said it. I don’t hate  you. I love you. I love you so much. I love you. I love you. You’re my sweet butterfly. Should I create another blog

dedicating on how much I love you? Should I?

P.S.

                She said YES! ^^^^^^

P.P.S.

                I want to have many kids but she refuses. Maximum of three? Geez I want to have a baseball team. Tsk.

P.P.P.S.

                I already agreed to have a maximum of three kids but hey twins are consider as one so I’m aiming to have three set of twins ^^^^^

P.P.P.P.S.

                You’re invited to our wedding!

P.P.P.P.P.S.

                Except FANBOYS!

A/N:

Okay I'm thinking of marking this story complete. Cause you know it's very contradicting to list the things you hate to the person you love so much. So yeah.