My throat hurt as I tired to hold back the cries. My vision started to blur as tears formed, threatening to fall down my face and down to the gasping Yong Guk, who laid there in my arms.
He reached up to me, gently laying his blood smeared hand the side of my face, wiping away a tear that had escaped. He smiled as I leaned into his hand, squeezing it with my other hand, trying to hold onto hope.
“Why are y-you c-crying?” he gasped, holding onto his abdomen. His fa “Don’t cry anymore.”
I shook my head, not being able to say a single word because if I do, I know those cries will come pouring out. The fear of losing him, the pain was too much.
“If anything happens to me,” he said through heavy breaths, “I just want-”
I shook my head, refusing him to go on. “Don’t say that Yong Guk.” I managed to croak. I knew that his chances of surviving this were low but I held on, praying that he will be okay.
“S-sarranghae,” he said, smiling up at me.
“I know,” I choked.
“Smile once more for-for me?” He asked.
I nodded, holding back the tears and forced myself to smile, but all I felt was fear. Not like this, please God?
He smiled up at me. That smile that was so contagious, you couldn’t help but smile back. That smile that reached his eyes, making them twinkle. He smiled that smile just once more for me before his hand slowly slipped from the side of my face, slipping away from my grasp and hit the cold asphalt with a thud. That thud, pierced my heart with the greatest ache.
My smile slowly faded as I stared from my trembling empty hand to his, laying there. My heart started beating faster. My breathing became shallower. The tears that threatened to fall came spilling down my cheeks.
“Yong Guk,” I cried, violently shaking him, “you promised me that we were going to go home. Yah-h, you j-jerk. Get u-up. We h-have t-to g-go.”
He didn’t wake up and smile up at me and said that it was just some kind of a joke. Instead his body remained still. He didn’t open his eyes and laughed at me, nudging me in the head, telling me of how stupid I was. He just laid there, lifeless, unmoving. I pulled him close to me, wrapping my arms around him, pulling his head to my chest as I screamed heart wrenching screams. “Andwae-ae! Not like this, not like this.”
Hi AFF readers/users,
I know this story has been put on pause for a while now and I sincerily apologize. As I re-read what I have written to far holistically, it wasn't going here I was hoping for it to go...SOO...I'm re-writing and tweaking it up a bit. I promise to have a few chapters done before the end of the summer though. Please be patient and bear with me. I want you to enjoy reading it as much as I am writing it =) And trust me, I've been enjoying it alot, playing around with the plot and dialogue =). It's still going to be a B.A.P and "you" story as promised. I'm debating on getting a graphic for this one. If you know any good graphic artist do tell me so I could check them out and hopefully be convinced to apply for a graphic. Thanks a bunch for reading. COMMENT AND SUBSCIBE is much appreciated. Kamsahamida!!! ^^
-Aaliya, smile always =)
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