When we get back to home, we stop by a seaside… he took out some red wine from his car and we kind of having picnic on the beach… with the star, the sound of ocean…

JiYong’s POV

I’m so happy when I saw she smile in this way….on the beach, just me and her…. This is what I always wish… although I might have many girls before, j is different! She make me feel alive and complete… she love me with full of her heart…not about the money and fame… all I want is just a simple like this

The cold wind blow her hair and her sweet scent hit on me… she look at me with beautiful smile…I could not help to irresistible for this anymore… I have a passionate kiss with her and she responded to me… guess those alcohol make us get more wild…I started to touch on her milky skin… from thigh to hips….suddenly she pushed me away

J’s POV

I was very enjoy to his kiss until he start to touch on my hips and moving to my private area…I quickly push him away “I’m sorry!I cant do this!”

I ran away and leave him with wonder…

“J ah~” I heard JiYong scream and chase after me…but I ignore as my tears keep on falling

I found a tree and hide behind it…so that jiyong would not find me…

I cried so badly behind the tree after he leave… I’m afraid…at one side, I would like to give in… that is what I wish and like to do…but at another side, I was afraid… I don’t know why! I just cant do it… I don’t want him to touch me… I should said I don’t want any guys to touch me anymore…

How we suppose to get along if we cant even kiss and touch each other?!

I only dare to go back home at the early morning… I wish jiyong was falling asleep and yes he is…but he sleep in the living room? As I tried to lock back the door, he wake up! I feel so guilty for what I done last night but then he come to me

“are you ok?” He touching my forehead but avoided it

“I’m sorry for scaring you! I wont do it anymore!” he said

“not your problem! ” I look down and walk in my room quietly

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JiYong’s POV

At the studio…

“no! not that!!!”  I yelled at the new girl group

“lets take a fifteen minutes break!” Daesung said

All of the girls went out from the studio…left me and daesung… I feel so frustrated and buried my head on the table

Someone walked near and touch on shoulder “hyung!  Take it easy! What’s wrong?” daesung said

I held my head up and hesitate

“whats wrong?? You look so frustrated lately! They (those new girls) are still new! Give them some time! ” daesung say it calmly

I look down and hesitate again

“is not about those girls? Hmmm… not about work then must be something do with J ?”

I lift my head up and eyes open widely looking at him

“I take that as a ‘yes’??”

I sigh and he continue “split it out,hyung!”

“J and me… erm… ” I slowly explained what happen on the first day and after that day, J seem really avoiding me…. She look very uncomforted with my touch and kiss… she even tried to break up with me…but I managed to pull us back few times and still she keep on asking me to find another girl

“is it my problem?” I asked daesung “or she no longer love me?”

“will that due to her past?” daesung have a guess

“her past?”

“yeah, I have a friend who is psychologist! He told me before, some people might will have PTSD ( post- traumatic stress disorder) after some tragic happen. She been betray by her lover and ! i guess that is why she don’t comfort with your touch”

“but she seem like a strong girl- I don’t think….”

“hyung, she is still a girl!! A girl who been through so much things, her mental can be normal as us… even she is so tough, she will be break down someday!”

“what should I do?” I cover my face with my bare hands

“do you want to bring her to therapy? I could introduce you my friend!”

“oh~ I think about it!”