July will end soon..
The cricket sounds are getting slower..
but, I don't want autumn to come yet..
And then..
School.. Schedule.. Love..

Where is the hidden feeling going?
Where is it flowing?
Please don't fade away..
Please..
At least, be the lightning star in the sky..

"Joo!!" I turned around just to see Key is glaring at me. "It's look like you don't even want to be here"

"Guys, you were the one who dragging me here, remember?" I scoffed and lay back on the couch, staring at my phone.

"We lack of number..." Min poked my cheek and smiles "come on, have fun with us!"

This semester would be the last semester for us in University.
I must erase everything that ever happened from my memory.
Everyone works harder than before.

"Whose turn now?" Woohyun held out the microphone as Minho took it.

"Mine!" Minho sang a song as I roll my eyes.

"Urgh.. Tired"

Tsk.. Why must this boy sits next to me?
I'm not in the mood of talking at all.

"Your name sounds cute"
Here we go, that boy starts the conversation, not interested.

"Can I call you Joohyun?" He tilted his head and smiles to me "My name is Hyunjin.. You can call me Jin or Zin"

Jin? Jin? Why must he said that name?

"Hey, let's sing a song after Minho hyung done with his song"

I really dislike this kind of boy.
So, I'm sorry... Not interested.

"Zin! Let's sing with me!" Minhyk stand up and smiles to him after he has a glance on me.

"Me! I can sing better than Seohyun!" Jungshin took a microphone and grins widely.

"You keep on typing some mails.." That Hyunjin boy is poking my cheek. "Who do you type them for? When everyone is having fun, you keep on typing on your phone. That's not nice to see, you know"

"S-seo.." Min and the other guys shot me their apologetic looks. "M-mianhae..."

I stood up and glare to that Hyunjin boy before I grab the microphone and pick a song.

Not nice to see, huh?
Don't even bother to see me again then.
I took a really deep breathe and start to sing.

"Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)"

"She is singing?" Jungshin and Minhyuk look at each other, amused.

I don't like it! Don't disturb me!

A.. A.. Aaaa..
Urgh.. Maybe I sang too loud yesterday.
My throat hurts so much now.

"Manager Noona!" I turned around just to see my little brother, Daehyun is chasing after me. "Are you going home now?"

"Yes.." I just nodded and look up to the sky.

"You won't come to the club again, noona?" Daehyun tugged my sleeve and tilts his head. "It has been awhile"

"I'm just an ex-manager.." I stated softly as I let out a deep sigh "I know the result for the last match.. It was an epic fail"

"I know, noona.." Daehyun smiled and leans on the wall "our club never play seriously, that's why, I think"

"You should practice harder" I played with my phone again "it's my last semester to attend this school.. I wanna see us be the winner"

"Noona, are you fine?" Daehyun's voice went lower as he bends down to my level "Please be happy again, noona.."

"Eh?" I lifted up my head and smile to him "I'm happy as long as you're by my side.. I got to go now.. See you at home.."

I walked away as my brother shouted "Noona! Don't forget to smile!"

Today is refreshing..
It's not too hot not cold..
It has been 2months since that day..
Just some more days before...

"Joohyun noona!" I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"UMMMMMAAAAA!!!!!" I screamed on top of my lung, startled.

"Mianhae.."  The boy sheepishly smiled and rubs his nape "Did I scare you?"

"Who are you?" I asked calmly as I scan him head to toe. "Do I know you?"

"Eeeh?!" That boy's eyes widen in disbelief as his mouth wide open. "I'm Zin.. Jin.. Hyunjin.. We talked and met in Karaoke yesterday, remember?"

"Oh.." I nodded and walk away from him.

He surprised me. That Zin..
Jin.. That name.. His name..

"Noona! Wait!!" He grabbed my wrist as I turn around "Tell me your email adress, or your number.."

"Shiro.." I yanked his hand and walk away.

"Oh! I know!! Noona typed those mails for her boyfriend, right?" Zin smiled to me and follows me "It doesn't matter for me.. Noona, just give me your number"

"Never.." I stated coldly as I look at him "Listen, if you want the girls' number or email address, go ask another girls but me.. Bye"

"But I only want Joohyun noona's number and email address" Zin stated calmly with smile on his face. "Can I?"

"Never.." I sighed and walk again.

"Noona has a boyfriend but you came to the blind date yesterday.." Zin is following me like a puppy.

"I came since my friends dragged me there" I sighed and play with my phone again.

"Joohyun.." He tugged on my backpack.

"Don't call me by my name.." I whined and walk faster.

"What should I call you than?" He walked closer "Hyunnie?"

"That's disgusting" I shook my head and shrug my shoulder.

"Seohyun sunbae?" Zin walked in front of me

"Don't use sunbae!!" I shouted at him

"JooJoo?" Zin tilted his head.

"Key will kill you" I snickered and walk away.

"Seobaby!"

I froze. Jin...
He used to call me like that..
Nah.. Their voices don't sound alike..

"Joohyun noona" He stopped in front of me and smiles "If I called you like that, I can see you again, right?"

I just sighed and nod to whatever he said.


"Noona... About yesterday.. Mianhata.." Zin is bowing to me as he looks shy "I annoyed you and made you sang.. To be honest, you've helped me.. I can't sing well"

"It's okay.." I stated calmly, slightly smiling to him. "Bye.. My apartment is pretty near"

"Eh? Let me walk you there" Zin reached my shoulder once again.

"Nah.. You are dangerous" I stated jokingly as he pouted.

"Mean noona!" I rolled my eyes as he calls me "Noona!"

"Neh?" I turned around, puzzled.

"See you around!" He bowed and left me alone.

My phone!!!
Huh..
Stupid Seohyun..
He will never send you any reply!
It has been ages since I even saw him in my life..

"It !! We should practice today" Key threw his bag next to me.

"Yeah, but our come back is pretty near" Minho sat next to me.

"Seohyunnie, have you studied?" Min asked me softly as I nod "You always come prepared"

Zin was smiling, ad he said "see you around"
My feelings... My heart... It feels so strange..
But.. I'll never meet him again, will I?

BUK!!

"Ouch... Sorry.." I bumped into someone, again.

"It's okay.." A tall figure held his hand out to me "omo!! Joohyun noona!"

"Zin?"

and, we just meet again.

"What were you doing?"

"I was racing with my friends, noona" He chuckled and rubs his nape "and seems like I lost and I must treat them"

"Treat them?" I tilted my head as I pick my phone up.

"The loser must treat the winners" He laughed and shakes his head. "They saw down to athletic club's member"

"You are an athletic club's member?" I asked him, surprised.

"I was, noona.." Zin chuckled and looks away. "I dropped it before the match.."

"Why?"

Why do I go home with him?
and walk next to him?

"I ran away" He smiled to me. "I'm not as fast as I used too.. I'm getting weak, so I ran away.. I know it's .. I'm "

"No.." I stated rather calmly as I play with my phone again. "Everyone has the moment which made them want to run away as far as possible"

His caring act.. His way to cheer me up..
He and him are alike..
Even this funny happy feelings when I'm with him..

"Do you want to run away too, noona?" Zin asked me softly as he pats my head.

This message..
I dream about you again tonight,
You were running like a fool again..
I met a guy who was in athletic club too, just like you..
I hate him since he is too clingy and pretty much active..
But, when he asked me do I want to run away,
I....

"Zin, here.." I held out my bottle of water to the tall figure who holds his knees and panting. "Drink it"

"Thanks, noona.." He took it and gulped it down as he sat next to me and huahua.

"You've told me you didn't run anymore" I spoke up as I patted huahua's head.

"Nah.. After I talked with noona, I was considering to try to run again" He looked at me and smiles "and I do love it"

"You are cool when you're running" I flashed my eye smile to him.

"G-gomawo, noona.." He gulped and blushed, so cute.

"Why are you so red?" I chuckled as he hides his face.

"Noona!!! Don't make me shy" Zin is panic at the moment.

What is this?!
He messed my feelings up!!

"Joohyun noona.." I turned to him as he holds my right hand tightly "I really like you.. Would you be my girlfriend?"

"B-but we just met, like some days ago.." I'm blushing as I look away.

"Ah.. Noona is right.. Minahata.." He let my hand go and held out his phone "Can you give me your number then? We come from different school, so it will be easier for us to meet up"

"Sorry.." I just looked down to my feet and held my tears back.

"Noona, why don't you look at me while I'm talking? Why can't you see my eyes?" Zin shook my shoulder as I keep on looking down. "In Karaoke, I thought you were just annoyed.. But, you always have your phone in your hand.. Who do you type that messages for?"

"I-it's not your business" I gulped down and grip my phone.

"Tell me.. Your boyfriend?" He shook my shoulder "The boy you like?"

"That's not your business.." I pushed him from me and got up "I don't need to tell you.. You are not even my friend.."

"Ah.. You are right" Zin bowed to me "Chusuhamnida"

Joohyun.. Why are you so mean?

"Noona!" I turned around and seeing my brother, Daehyun is running to me "what are you doing here? You are not our manager anymore"

"You are not even an official member of this club.." I sniffed and pull my knees to my embrace.

"Noona, is this fine for you?" Daehyun poked my cheek as I look at him.

"What?" I asked him softly.

"You.. You come to this place again.. When the archery club is practicing" Daehyun asked gently as he plays with the bottom of my hair. "Are you really fine? Coming to this place? Jinyoung is no longer exist"

S-since when?
I keep on running away..
Jinyoung is no longer exist, no longer here..

"I.. I must go now.." I pecked his cheek and get up "See you at home.. Bye"

I always wait for him, Jung Jinyoung..
Everyday I realize, I always sad and down..
But..

"I.. I send the messages for the one I love.."

"Joohyun noona?" Zin jumped from the bench and looks at me.

"But.. That person.. Jung Jinyoung.. He died 2months ago.. I can't tell him how I feel and how much I loved him.. Since that day, I always send messages for him.. Telling him whatever I want to tell.. Even if I know he will never reply them.. " I'm panting hard as I hold my knees "Y-you remind me of him.. Both of you love to run.. Your eyes.. Your smile.. Your name.. and your laugh.."

Everything seems lighter now..
But, he is different..
He is Jin Hyunjin!
He is not Jung Jinyoung..
Jung Jinyoung has died..

"Why.." I sobbed hard as my whole body is trembling "why don't you look at me, Hyunjin?"

"Get on the back" Zin patted his motorcycle's back seat.

"Eh?"

"Noonan just get on." He lifted me up and place me on the back.

I hold on to him tightly as he rides his motorcycle crazily fast.

The wind is too strong..
I can't see anything..

"Noona..." Zin stopped his motorcycle and looks at me "You can see everything from this place, right?"

I opened my eyes to see both of us are already on the hill.

"If we run till the end of the world, do you think we could jump off?"

Jinyoung.. I can't reach the sky, the heaven where you belong..
As much as I think of you and longing for your presence, my feelings will never reach you..
Because of that,
Good bye, Jung Jinyoung...

"Eh? Why do you delete it, noona?" Zin peeked behind me and pointing to my phone.

"It's okay.." I deleted all my messages for him, and his contact id.

"Is that okay, noona?" Zin looked at me, puzzled.

"It's okay.. All my memories with him won't be vanished just because I deleted the messages and his contact id.." I smiled to him and look up "beside.. I've said everything I wanted him to know"

"What to do know?" Zin spreaded his arms wide and looks at me. "New love?"

"Didn't you think You will never meet me again?" I tilted my head and crook an eyebrow.

"I never said that, noona.." He shook his head and looks up "we stay under the same sky.. It doesn't matter for me if you love me or not.. As long as I could see your smile, that would be nice"

Whenever I look up to the sky,
I always think of him, and how much he used to love the stars..
Maybe I will cry again,
But at the moment like this.

"Noona.. Don't take out your phone again.." Zin warned me as soon as he saw my white phone.

"Is it a crime for me to ask your number, BOYFRIEND?" I flashed my eye smile to him as I held out my phone.

Hyunjin is staying next to me,
and I realized that I love him..

"I love you too, Hyunjin"