I stared at myself in the practice room mirror. I wore a simple white shorts, a big white t-shirt, pink socks and white sneakers. We had just finished practicing Electric Shock and were taking a break.

I hated how pale I was.

I hated how skinny my legs were. I liked Luna unnie's legs more than mine.

I hated how small my eyes were.

I hated how skinny my arms were. I looked anorexic.

My hair was so pin straight and Coordi-Unnies were always frustrated with it.

I was always being compared to Unnies and to every girl our in the Kpop industry. Why was I picked as an idol anyway? I'm not pretty, I can't really dance well. My singing is okay but I'm always

I turned to my back and examined how I looked from the back. My was so small. I was jealous of Luna unnie again and Minzy and CL unnie. I was so out of proportion.

I am so ugly.

"Why was I born like this? Who would like me?" I mumbled to myself. Sighing, I picked up my bag and took one last pitying glance at myself in the mirror, my self-esteem completely destroyed, and left the room.

NEXT DAY:

We had no practice but I still went back to the practice room. I wanted to perfect the dance. Greg had stopped by to watch and told me that I looked a bit lazy in my dancing.

As I the music, Yixing came in. He refused to be called Lay in the studio so I stuck with Yixing.

"Oh Yixing-sshi! Do you want to use in here?" I turned down the music and faced him, delicately clasping my hands in front of me. I was taught as a child to be very humble and quiet around males older than me. Yixing was no exception. He bowed in greeting and I returned it.

"No. I'm fine. I just...uh..." He began to stutter. I always found it cute when he forgot what he wanted to say. He would put his index finger to his lip and furrow his eyebrows a bit. I giggled.

"What is it?" I prompted. He looked up and smiled cutely, his dimple proclaiming itself in his right cheek.

"Uh..I was wondering if you and rest of f(x) wanted to go out for a bit this evening with the rest of EXO. We felt like going out but SHINee hyungs and SNSD noonas are are all busy or out." Yixing spoke softly and shyly.

I smiled.

"We'd love to. I'll tell unnies."

"Thank you."  He bowed and smiled. 'You can meet us in the lobby at 5:45 this evening."

I nodded and he bowed and turned to leave. He stopped and turned back to me and smiled and said,

"Sulli-sshi?"

"Yes?"

"You're very pretty." He waved and left.

My heart fluttered.

I officially have a crush on Zhang Yixing of EXO, my hoobae.