Dara’s POV

 

 

That day was my first day in France. I went early to Subway station

 

Our family has our own car. But today I need to ride here for some reasons.

 

I wanted to explore the world.

 

Maybe too much for the world huh or you might think that I’m exaggerating things

 

 But seriously all my life you can even count with your fingers the number of person that I’ve only know personally.

 

 

 

This time i have to make it worthy. AS i have watched from television all you need to do is SMILE & also, HELP the oldies

 

By doing this no one will notice;

by just acting normally

 i can do it right,

 the right way of interacting with people.

 

 

 

 But thinking of those things is a lot easier than doing it.

There were different people from different walks of life,

most of them are in a hurry No one notices me,

 

No one.

 

There were several oldies but most of them don’t need my help.

 

 

 

Funny how i think that life outside my safe zone would be easy.

 

 

The following day was supposedly the last day of my exploration 2 days were enough my dad said.

 

That day was so different i felt so different co’z I felt like someone’s staring at me.

 

 Watching me;

 there He is! The great G- dragon? omo omo? Am i right? is he?

 

Finally someone notices me. But i didn’t expect that it was !

Great G-dragon !

 

I’m so curious of him.  Is he a look a like ?  

his innocent face so different while he performs on stage.

 

I thought that would be the first & last time that’ll get to see him.

 

 

The next day my dad & i had an arguments regarding of me using subway.

But I insisted & I won

 

So the following day i had the chance of riding subway.

 

 I chose to stand & wait for the train where i stand & saw the Great G-dragon look a like

 

Hoping that’ll get to see him again.

 

Maybe i can say I’m a little attracted.

 

Prayers were answered

 

He’s there again; standing where i saw him last time.

 

 

 

The following day was the same. But i think as days passes by he became or he looks like a lot of gdragon omo !but no ! ofcourse he’s in korea, what is he doing here, ?

 

Maybe I was just imagining things.

 

But ! Maybe im not ! he writes . yeah every time ! he wrote just like the other days !

 

is he composing?

 

 

Things like he’s looking at me all the time or is it the other way around is it me who’s staring at him?

 

 

From that day it became my every day routine to stand on that area where he can see me

 

Where i can see him, I give it my best to wear my BEST SMILE!

 

Co’z  I notice him smiling whenever I did. He also helps those who are in need.

 

Its been 2 months & I’am contented with him looking at me, contented seeing him smile.

 

Co’z i know we cant be together.

All i just want to know if he’s really that great G-dragon !

But its 2 months & he’s not suppose to be here.

Yeah maybe a look a like !

yeah Korean Genes !

 

im afraid that asking his name would start it all.

Start everything.

 

 So i cant !

 

 

 But my heart & mind is asking WHY?

 

Why am i doing this every day?

 

And

 

Why?

 

 Why he’s not approaching me?

 

Am I scary?

 

Why?

 

Why his smile made my heart flutter?

 

 Am I IN LOVE? 

 

With the person I just saw in subway.  whom i was attracted because a SUPERSTAR LOOK A LIKE !

 

Whom I haven’t talked to,

 

 

--- doesn’t even know his name.

 

A total stranger but made my heart Flutter!

 

 

 

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That day my Dad had officially arranged my future.

 

He wants me to marry Kim Jaejoong good friend of our family.

 

I knew that this day would come but not now please

 

 

Not until i ask his name i promise i would be selfish enough just his name is enough.

 

But that day is so different! 

He’s not in his usual spot?

I can’t feel his presence. He’s nowhere to be found.

 

Maybe it’s a sign. Now iam decided even if he arrives I cant be selfish.

 

No way or ill hurt him I can’t be selfish.

 

 Now i have to go back to Korea to Meet the Kim’s

But then i felt this feeling that i cant explain !!

 

He’s Here ?

 

His Stares, that made my heart flutter but now it made my heart crippled.

Just a moment ago Iam Decided to approach him.

 

But now its different. !I just turn my back !

& there’s no turning back !

 

I cant,

My Mind cannot

thus my heart Cannot take it !

 

 

 Weeks had passed I’m back to my safe zone.

But what & if words are always on my mind!

 

 

 

What did i do?

 

 What is he doing right now if he’s in his usual spot in France?

 

What if i turned back that day?

 

What if i asked his name?

 

What if i became selfish only just that day?

 

 

 

I asked Jaeto meet me at the subway now that im not familiar here in korea

 

I asked him to be there.

Delusional me wanting that great G-dragon look a like to see him here in korea

Why not?  He’s a Korean after all.

Jae, what is his part?

He would still remind me of reality.

 

 

 

But ....

 

But I was right ! My heart was right !

oh no ! maybe thats the real G-dragon !

not the g-dragon look a like of France

 

But when I saw him wasn’t able to control myself & i smile at my best just like before.

 

Then Reality comes so easily when Jae came & called me.

 

 So that’s it that would be the LAST SMILE.

though, the G-dragon look a like didn’t see it in person ! at least the

REAL one SEES IT

 

 

Smile that symbolizes that

 

REALITY STRIKES !  

 

 

END