(5 years ago)

You were in the way back part of the choir group and singing for warm ups. Your choir teacher was instructing how to control pitch
but you were mostly focusing on the boy who was three rows below you, he was part of the soprano group, the best this
school had to offer....

His name was Kyungsoo.

You were his fan,

 

 Even though he wasn't famous, he had the voice of a angel.
You remembered when you first saw him.... New neighbors were moving in next door and you saw a boy your age. 
You didn't care at first, until you noticed that he attended the same choir group and school as you. 

You still remembered the first day you heard his voice, he was singing on the balcony next to your balcony, You wanted
to come out and see who the voice was, but once you peaked from behind the glass window.... you saw him.

You stood there in awe and fascination, never seeing someone so lost in the music.
Your face beamed as your heart raced quickly for the first time. You were standing behind the open balcony door and heard Kyungsoo singing beautifully next to your balcony. You felt like an eternal sonata was being played, and you let your eyes closed and let Kyungsoo's voices lead you through.

That was then you became his fan....
His first fan he ever had, even though he no idea who you were,
you did, and it was all that matters to you.

You looked below the boy who was three rows ahead of you and sang with the choir while secretly staring at him.
Even though there were a bunch of soprano kids singing, the only person you heard was Kyungsoo.

(1 year later)

You were running straight home with tears all over your face, your heart was slowly tearing and couldn't believe what you heard.
"Did you hear?" " I know! He made it!" "Who made it?" "Kyungsoo! He made it SM! He moved out of Busan today!"

You ran upstairs toward Kyungsoo's front door and rang the bell constantly,Your heart was slowly tearing apart and you began to knock it twice as loud.

Someone opened the door, it was Kyungsoo's mom with tears rolling down,
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I come at a wrong time?" You asked,

"Ani..... My son just caught a train to Seoul is all...... I miss him terribly....."
She sobbed and wiped her tears with a tissue, 

*So he did leave* You thought, feeling your heart ache badly.
"I'm sorry dear, d-id you need something?" Kyungsoo's mom calmed down from her tears,

"Ani..... It's not important anymore.... Thank you......"
You bowed and left to your side of the apartment.

You walked in with tears forming in your eyes and wiping them quickly,
"_____________, what's wrong?" You heard your grandma ask emerging from the kitchen.

You frowned and walked up to your grandma, placing your face on her shoulder,
"He left Hal Money.......I didn't even talk to him....."

"Oh dear...... don't worry, I'm sure he'll come back.... I know he will"
She frowned and patted your back.

 

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( 1 years later)

You walked back home, it was the last day of school also the beginning of summer, and even till today, your heart raced
every time you saw Kyungsoo's apartment door. When you approached your apartment, you noticed Kyungsoo's
mom looking out the view in the hallway, she seemed depressed and stressed. You were worried and approached her.

"Excuse me, Mrs. Do.?" You asked,

She turned around and flashed a fake grin,
"Oh hello __________, came back from school? I heard it was the last day."

"Neh, is something wrong?"

Kyungsoo's mom frowned and sighed,
"Well.... Kyungsoo's SM tuition fee has been past due and with money we owe them....
They said if we didn't pay them by next month, Kyungsoo will be dropped out of SM academy..."
She sighed.

Your heart fell strangely, you would be happy for him to come back but you didn't want that to happen at the same time. Kyungsoo already made it so far
and he had to leave just like that after his hard work? You were his fan...... You wanted to help.

"Don't worry...." You smiled,

"I'll try not to."

"No, don't worry, cause I'll help you get the money."

"M-Mwoh?"

 

After that promise, you began working in every job you could get your hands on, it was summer vacation and instead of hanging
out with your buddies, you were working to the bones to get the money enough for Kyungsoo. Waiter, cashier, to even a
construction builder, you did all the jobs you could do. 

Even though Kyungsoo was practically a stranger to you,

Even though he didn't even know your name,

You didn't care,

Because you were his fan.

That was all that mattered....

 

You knocked on the Do's residence door and panted from running straight back from work.
The door opened and you found Kyungsoo's dad. 

"Oh ____________, why are you here this late?"

You panted and slowly handed him an envelope.
He accepted the envelope and looked at you puzzled,


"For me?" He asked,

You shook your head and wiped the sweat dripping off your face,
"Ani..... F-For Kyungsoo's tuition."

 

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( 2 years ago )

You smiled and couldn't believe what you were holding, it was Exo's first ever album in the palm of your hands.
You unlocked the door and threw your purse onto a random couch and ran straight to your boom box.
"What is it dear?" Your grandma asked from the kitchen.

You smiled and turned around.
"Kyungsoo's album came out." You smiled happily.

"Aish...... How long has it been? Three years, and you're on about this boy? I swear, I think God created you to only love this boy."

You chuckled and played the cd of the first song "What is love", turning up the volume slowly.
You closed your eyes and then heard it...... The same voice you heard from that you hadn't heard from for years.

"Ohhh~ My baby, baby, baby~"

You heart began beating quickly, that same smile crept through your face and your entire body felt warm.
Your grandma smirked at your reaction and that smile on your face. "I know that smile...... It's love...."
She sighed.

You turned around and giggled,
"No grandma….. I’m just a fan.”

You were happy to hear his voice. But your heart still felt empty.... Kyungsoo wasn't there of course.
How you wanted to see him again badly..... But you couldn't, he was an idol already. He was making money,
having his name everywhere, and living the life.

But you...... You were just his fan..... Nothing more than that.

 

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(1 year later )

It was December, You were sitting down and knitted the scarf you started on last month. The reason why was because 
Kyungsoo was coming back home after three years. His family was so happy, but I think you were the most
effected by it. You could barely sleep at all or keep an eye shut. Kyungsoo..... The guy you've been a fan of as long as you
remembered was coming back......

You then finished the last knit ad took out the woolen scarf. You broke into a large smile and hugged it warmly onto you.
"It's done....." You whispered and kissed the scarf. 

You turned and looked out of the balcony and saw, it was snowing.....
You stood up from your  chair and walked up to the balcony, feeling the coldness just rush onto you.
Goosebumps filled in quickly, you didn't know why..... But your heart was beating quickly.
It was the heart beat you hadn't felt in years..... The exact same one.

All of a sudden, your eyes slowly shifted and you saw the same thing you saw every day next to your balcony. 
Just another empty balcony next to yours....... You looked up and wondered when Kyungsoo was going to come. It was hours ago..... But Kyungsoo still wasn't here...

You waited, 

ten minutes,

thirty minutes,

one hour,

four hours,

it was finally midnight


You looked down and looked at the scarf you made and saw the snow  captivate the scarf. You looked next to you, still not Kyungsooo...... You then heard the tears of someone crying from
Kyungsoo's room, none other than Kyungsoo's mom.....


"No it's okay Kyungsoo..... I understand....." You heard Kyungsoo's mom sobbed from the phone,


"Exo is very busy, I can see that......" His mom hiccupped, "C-Come next year then.... Good luck on your tour at Japan...."

Kyungsoo wasn't coming home......  Your eyes lowered and you blankly looked at the scarf.
Your hand loosened from the grip and you felt a tear escape an eye.
You looked next to the empty balcony and placed the fold up scarf and your small card with it....

The card was written....

"No matter what challenges destiny throws to me, I'll one day find a way to be by your side. Even if it is only for a second.
-From your fan"

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(present time)

You were finished with work and getting ready to leave to the train station and catch your ride. It was December 31^st, a huge count down was going to be held place in Seoul, and you wanted to spend it with your friends. Your grandma died two months ago sadly, so you were sad you couldn’t have seen the fireworks show with her. Your best friends decided to cheer you up and celebrate the show together.

 

 

Finally, arriving Seoul, you saw how crowded it really was. Families, friends, and couples filled the streets and all you saw was the magnificent city lights that was glowing in every corner; it was, more beautiful than your mind imagined.

 

You didn’t see any sign of your friends, so you instead sat down on a bench by yourself that was empty.

 

The snow felt amazing, but it was still very cold. You were suddenly thinking of your grandma and how much you really missed her. Not knowing your eyes were watering,

 

Then you found a handkerchief in front of you,
your head turned, and you found a polar bear, well a person wearing a polar bear costume, hold a handkerchief in front of you,

 

“F-For me?” You asked,

The bear nodded.
“Why are you crying? It’s almost new years! Be happy!”
The polar bear yeled and jumped around,

 

“I’m sorry… My grandma died two months ago, so I can’t see a year without her…” You spoke about to cry again,

 

“I’m sorry to hear that, but I’m pretty sure your grandma didn’t want you to be crying on a new years eve day.”

 

You looked up and rubbed the tears away,

 

“Y-You’re right… Thanks.” You smiled.

 

The polar bear leaned towards you, and strangely you heart began beating really fast. You didn’t understand why though.

 

“You know… I’m very happy.”

 

“Wh-Why?” You asked,

 

“Because, it’s been forever since I saw my mom and dad. And I was looking forward to seeing this girl I liked.”

 

“You like someone?”

“”Yup, she loves me a lot too. I know it because she did a lot for me during the years, and I’m so happy I get to see her today. I plan on surprising her”

“That sounds sweet…. My first love kind of died out five years ago.”
You sighed,

 

“Aww… Didn’t love you?”

 

“More like he never knew I existed… I always watched him from afar and protected him, did everything I could. But then it became impossible to get any closer to him. He became more famous and famous and I was nobody. Pretty pathetic, he never knew I even existed.”

 

“Well, I know what’ll make you feel better… A SONG!”
The polar bear yelled,

 

“A- S-Song?” You asked surprised.
The bear nodded and made you sit down on the bech.
You looked up with your big eyes and waited for him to begin singing.

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8XoTeNUcuk&feature=related

 

 

 

Your eyes widened from the voice. Yes… It was that voice. The voice you became a fan of, the voice that made your tummy had butterflies, the very voice that made your heart beat madly, and the voice you fell in love with.

 

Your feet slowly stood up, your nose was red from the freezing weather, and
all you had was those enlarged eyes set onto the polar bear.

 

“K-K-Kyungsoo…… It’s you isn’t it?”

You stuttered,

 

The polar bear walked up to you, he took off his small bag pack and took out
the same scarf you made a year ago, red and poorly made. The bear wrapped it around your neck, still quiet.

 

You looked at the scarf, then back to the polar bear. You walked up to the bear and slowly tip toed, planting your lips on the bear’s lip area.

 

 

Time felt like it paused and heaven was looking beneath both of you two.
You slowly stood normally on your feet and looked up with a puzzle dlook,

 

 

“Kyungsoo…. Please tell me that’s you.” You whispered.

 

You saw the Polar bear take off it’s mask slowly and reveal the face that you always remembered till today.

 

He smiled at you and held your cold hand,
“Neh, it’s me…” He smiled happily,

“How… How do you know who I was?” You asked,

 

Kyungsoo placed his lips onto your cold cheek, but the simplest touch from him made you warm.

 

“Of course I’d remember you, the girl who watched me sing from her room as I was in the balcony, the girl who stared at me all the time in choir, the girl who made me want to become a singer, the girl I left behind for five years, without telling her---“

 

You silenced Kyungsoo by crashing your lips onto his,
“I already know.” You laughed,

 

Kyungsoo laughed and embraced you in his arms,
“It’s 12 am…..” Kyungsoo whispered in your ear.
“Sorry it took so long…. But.. Happy New Year, I like you.”