The very first diary entry of Jenny...

24 September 2011

Dear Diary,

It's early in the morning, about 4 a.m. I guess? I decide to keep a journal again, despite my few failed attempts. I really want to record how i feel about this moment in my life. Being 13, I guess I'm offiicially not a kid anymore. Damn I'm old! Hope i don't start getting gray hair or wrinkles.

Last night was so much fun, it sure impressed my friends(haha should've seen the shock in their faces), but the best thing was, Jacob came : )) Jacob is a couple years older than me, but we have Art class together. We also see each other in the assembly each morning. He's just so damn cute with his boyish smile and charming ways. He reminds me of a puppy but much, much hotter. I've texted him a few times and our personalities matched very well, but everyone knows that texting means nothing if you've never talked to the guy in person. So well, I'm happy to say that I made my first move after all these months of liking him. I said hi. I know it isn't much, but he also had a short and polite conversation with me. Not as crazy or wacky as our texts but quite pleasant.

I really really wish I could talk to him again but I'm afraid if I make the move, he'll think I'm too easy or deperate even. I'm not exactly pretty, so i'll have to rely on my wit or I can get some plastic surgery just like those korean stars.. i need advice, maybe Leah can give me some. Leah has her own boyfriend now by the way, they made it official on Facebook yesterday. Makes me think of my own love life, after all, I'm 13 now, that's a pretty common age for having a first boyfriend/girlfriend.

The 'princesses' of my class also came. I don't know what their deal is but they keep on huddling in groups and whispering. It really gives me an uneasy feeling and makes me self concious.They're all prettier than me and it just makes me feel ugly. Oh well, as my grandma says "May es stay es"  Sooo not my problem.

At least I hope everyone will be talking about the party on Monday, mostly about how pretty I was haha. I know I'm being so conceited right now but so what, it was my birthday, I'm supposed to be happy one that day. The live band was a nice touch, my favourite rock tunes blasted from the speakers all night. That reminds me, better go to bed now, i don't want to wake up right in the middle of the afternoon.