Maya reached for the headphones on his bedside ready to listen to music all day. He put them in his ears and grabbed his iPod. He was laying on his back, random songs being played one after another as the raindrops were aggressively hitting his window. It was one of those days when Maya just wanted to sit in bed all day, dreaming. He closed his eyes enjoying the fast beats of the song, tapping his fingers to the rhythm. The song ended, and Maya was waiting for the next one to start. A soft voice resounded in his ears making  him shiver. It made him get up quickly and grab his iPod placing his finger above the „skip” button. But he couldn’t press it. He starred at the screen astonished by the familiar voice he was hearing... His lips started involuntarily to sing along the words...

   „Itoshii hito...”

   Tears were running down Maya’s cheeks, his eyes following the traces of the raindrops sliding on the window.

   „Why can’t I forget him?” he whispered to himself. „He doesn’t love me!”

   Maya took off his headphones and threw them against the wall along with his iPod. When the rain stopped and the sky cleared, Maya decided to go for a walk. „Why do I even still have his songs on my iPod?”, he asked himself while walking in the park. His heart was breaking everytime he saw happy couples. It made him miss that man. The man he had given up his whole family and all his friends for... That man that left him without saying a word. „I can’t just stay here and cry”, he thought. „I must take revenge!”. Maya stopped from his way and clenched his fists. A slight evil smile appeared on his face. He turned around and went home, on his way there trying to remember Miyavi’s adress. He had heard that the man was living with his girlfriend in a small apartment downtown.

  When he got home, Maya took from his kitchen a small knife and hid it in his bag. „You’ll pay for everything you’ve done to me, Miyavi!” His wish for revenge was too much too handle and his hate was blinding him. Not thinking about the crazy thing he wanted to do, he took a taxi and went to Miyavi’s place.

   When he arrived there, he stood in front of the door for a few moments, his legs shaking so much that he thought he was going to faint. But he had to do it. He slowly took his knife out of the bag, then knocked at the door. „I’m coming”, said a voice from inside. A sweet voice. Maya’s heart was beating really fast. „It’s time to say goodbye”, he whispered before he heard the door opening.

   The next moment he saw a tall men in front of him, a very known figure, a face he couldn’t forget. He was just like he remembered him. Black hair, body covered in tattoos, piercings... Miyavi’s eyes windened when he saw the man in front of him. Maya took a deep breath before he placed the knife close to the other’s neck.

    „Maya...” the man said with a shaky voice, then backed off inside the apartment. Maya went inside closing the door with the free hand.

   „I’ll make you pay”, he screamed. „For everything you’ve done to me. I can’t believe you left me without saying a word”. Miyavi was speechless. „I thought you love me... I wish I didn’t believe you! Why aren’t you saying anything? What? You don’t want to disturb your girlfriend? Where is she, by the way? This knife is not for single use.” the blonde guy said laughing a bit at the end. Miyavi was was shocked. What was scaring him wasn’t even the fact that he was going to die, but the way the man he was loving was acting.

   „There’s no girlfriend”, he finally said. Maya slowly let down his knife. „Maya... I never had another relationship after we broke up. I never stopped loving you. I know you’re hurt... I’m sorry”. Miyavi whispered the last sentence while wiping the tears on Maya’s face.

   „I don’t want to believe you, Miyavi! After what you’ve done...”.

   „Don’t you at least want to know the reason I left you before you kill me?” the black haired man asked. Maya was trying to find his words, but he couldn’t say anything. „Then I’ll say it”, said Miyavi.

   „You know that your family didn’t accept me... Your mom threatened me. I can’t lie, I was scared. She made me broke up with you. I didn’t want to hurt you, Maya! I wanted you to hate me, so you wouldn’t be sad if I left you. But your love was too big. Just like mine. I lied that I had a girlfriend..” Maya was listening to him without interupting. „I know how much I hurt you. I felt really bad, so I wanted to search for you... But I knew you wouldn’t want me back. I felt like I got what I wanted: to make you hate me. I felt lonely all those months”.

   „You know I’d get back with you anyway! You could’ve just explained to me! I love you too much...”

   All that Miyavi could say was „I’m sorry”, even though he knew that the pain couldn’t be erased. They looked into each other’s eyes for a few seconds that seemed years to them. In the end, Maya hugged Miyavi.

   „Maybe it’s too late, but... Give me one more chance. I promise that I’ll fight for you, and no one would ever separate us!”, said the black haired guy.

   „You know that my answer is ‚yes’, right? How could I ever say ‚no’ to you?”. Miyavi held him tighter and they stayed like that for minutes. Then, Miyavi ended the hug and held the blonde guy’s head between his palms and kissed him,  while outside could be heard the sound of the rain hitting the window. There was a special thing about how Miyavi was making Maya feel and now... it was just like everytime they were together.