Things seem so easy when you can see. You don’t get lost in your house and you don’t run into things. When you’re already the clumsiest person in the world and then you lose your eyesight and you break a few fingers and get a lot of bruises. I’m used to it now. My brother still isn’t, but I’m sure he’ll be fine eventually.

Whenever I get hurt, Taemin curses someone who isn’t God. He always says it was ‘his fault’ and when I’d ask who, he’d tell me it was better that I never knew. I always keep asking because I want to know.

Three years ago, I was in a car accident. Taemin told me I was in a car with someone else and we were both drunk. The driver who was with me didn’t stop at a red light and a car ran right into my side of the car. I woke up a month later, not being able to see anything and my memory was completely gone. Taemin told me that the driver woke up a few days after the accident and he made the other leave. He won’t tell me anything.

I tried looking for the information, but Taemin is always with me and if he wasn’t my old friends were. At least, Taemin told me they were my friends.

Kibum was like a mother. He always babied me when he is around. He cooks and cleans, but he also nags if I just sit around doing nothing. I don’t know what he expects me to do. Mostly I just sit in my room, running my fingers over guitar strings. I have no idea how to play the guitar and Taemin told me I never learned.

Minho seems to be more of Taemin’s friend then my own, but he is a nice guy. Very tall and from what I gather, very handsome. I have a feeling he is dating my brother, but neither of them will admit it. I am kind of jealous of them though. Being able to love each other no matter what is going on in their lives.

Having these people around me make my circumstance worth it. I don’t like being babied and waited on, but just knowing people care for me and want me to be alright and as happy as possible means so much.

But something was missing. It feels like there is something missing. My memories come back every once in a while. They are short and don’t last very long, but I get glimpses into my past; Mostly of me and some guy with electric blonde highlights. I ask Taemin about him and he instantly starts crying and I have to get him to calm down. I have a feeling that he and the guy from the car is the same person, but Taemin won’t tell me.

No one will tell me anything.

“Yah! Onew!”

I turn to look at the person who called me, but his face is blurry. I only see bits of his face, but I can never add it up to see who it really is.

“Onew! Why didn’t you wait for me?”

I open my mouth, but instantly everything turns white.

“Don't go… Jo...”

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