I woke up the next morning , feeling very heartbroken , couldn't open my eyes , because flashbacks are flooding my mind. Sigh. Time check , 8.45 , I started thinking , is there practice ? I walked to Gaeun's room , Jandi and her is not in . Hmmm , something is wrong , I called Manager Kim , He said : ' Today is a break day , Maybe the two girls went out ? ' I said : ' uh , thanks ! . bye ' I went back to my room , looking up , facing the celling , doing nothing , Suddenly thought of those memories i had with Gikwang.... Tears started rushing out , I couldn't stop thinking , i miss him , but , i love Junhyung , What am i suppose to do ? Gikwang said he'll be my guardian angel , my brother , closet brother , but why did he said that ? I can't cheat on Junhyung , I can't . Suddenly , i felt really tired , i fell asleep , suddenly , i heard the door open , i said : ' Gaeun-ah , Jandi-ah , you people good , went out without me ?! ' No one replied , I went out , It was Gikwang. He walked to me

: ' Alone ? '

Me : ' Yeah , why ? '

: ' Nothing .. '

: ' Where's Junhyung and others ? ' 

: ' They went out , '

' oh .. you ? '

' Not in mood'

We sat down at the sofa with a cup of apple juice . 

Gikwang : ' I'm sorry , about... yesterday.. ' 

I said : ' nevermind . ' * at that point , i wanted to say that , it means alot to me..*

Suddenly , the door flung open , It was Junhyung and Doojun holding on Junhyung , 

Junhyung pulled Gikwang up , gave him a hard punch , I was stunned , 

Me : ' junhyung , WHAT WAS THAT FOR !?'

Junhyung : ' THAT WAS FOR WHAT HE SAID TO YOU YESTERDAY AND MADE YOU CRY!! '

Gikwang : ' You did ? ' 

Me : ' I.. i.... ' * looking at Junhyung's tight fist , and Gikwang's bleeding lips , I ran out. *

While running , while crying , i wish Yoseob was here for me now.. , I ran towards the stairs , I thought alot , i fell off the steps , from 5th floor rolled down all the way to 1st floor , I felt light , I felt that there's a huge rock on my head , pressing it. The next thing i know was , I was in the hospital , I was alone inside , Suddenly , i heard punching sound again , i got off the bed , walked to the door and flung open it with all my strength and shouting : ' WILL YOU PEOPLE GIVE ME SOME SPACE SOME TIME TO THINK ?! , AND YONJUNHYUNG , STOP PUNCHING LEEGIKWANG , AND LEEGIKWANG , THAT GOES TO YOU , ' I slammed the door , I went back to my bed , started crying , hardcore crying. I heard the door open , it was Yoseob .

: ' Sis , What happen ? ' 

: * i could only trust him * ' Junhyung punched Gikwang just now at my dorm.

: ' I know about it already , Doojun told me.'

: ' Oppa , i'm tired of all this , Should i give up my career and leave this place and go back to Singapore ? I think that's the best choice to stop every single thing that is happening between me ,Gikwang and Junhyung...'

: ' ____-ah ,  running away from the problem doesn't solve it . If you really want them to stop , choose one , and don't get TOO close with him , ...'

: ' I love Junhyung , but because of his reckless , i was very disappointed.. very...'

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Shall edit this later , having fever .