(My Life)

7:00am................When my alarm clock alarmed........The rays of the sunshine passing through my window......Is greeting me wonderful good morning............. So I woke up with a smile on my face................

I sat on my bed..........Then think about what happened last 4 years ago.........Suddenly......I remembered that........This year will the 4th year when Xander oppa left...........Me, not knowing his reasons............

I'm already a junior college student.....Took up Tourism Management...Same with Kris Anne....My best friend....While my big brother ELI is took up Artist Management..Same with Kevin, Ki Seop and Dong Ho too....They also took up also Artist Management...While unnie Allyn is took up Journalism.......Then.....Ki Bum and Soo Hyun oppa......Is still the same......While Ki Bum and Kevin oppa is already having fun being a trainee of Xing Entertainment....Nice^^ Soo Hyun oppa is still wandering that time...But he's always visiting us......Same with Ki Bum oppa......Unnie Gabbie is already graduated also......She's always calling me and keeping on touch with me.....Same with the others.......

A knock on my door woke up me up again.........Because I was day dreaming^^ lol It was my big brother ELI........

ELI:Shiee....Wake up....

Me:I'm already awake......

ELI:Then go down and eat your breakfast......

Me:Okay.......

I looked at the mirror........After getting down on my bed...............

Me:How are you Shiee?? Life without Xander must be tough......But you are a strong girl right?? You can still wait........But not forever........ (Looking away at the mirror)

What was I thinking?? Xander again?? My ged!!! I know it's hard to get over him.....But Shiee!! Wake up from the reality!! You've been like this since Xander left........But what can I do......I still love him......Waiting in vain is a one painful job.......

Me:Good morning oppa~~^^ (Walking downstairs)

ELI:Good morning^^

Allyn:Good morning Shiee^^

Me:Oh?? Hehehehe^^ Good morning unnie^^

My big brother ELI and unnie Allyn are already  a graduating students our school.............In college............They might not looked like they are not worried for their future.......But I can see that sometimes oppa is bothered.......Sometimes he asked me what will he be after he graduated.......Will he take over our business.......Or he will stick to his course being an Artist Management student?? Aigoo~~ I know you can do it oppa^^

Allyn:Come here...Sit down with me......

Me:Sure^^

ELI:Are you okay??

Me:Yeah^^

Allyn:Seems like you are not feeling well......

Me:Do I look like I'm not feeling well??

ELI:Yeah...Is there something bothering you??

Yeah........A lot of things bothering me......Including Xander oppa's promise.....Will he break that or not.......Should I move on or not??

Me:No...I'm okay^^

ELI:I see.........

Allyn:So how's being a Tourism Management student??

Me:It's fun^^

Allyn:Good to hear^^

ELI:It's been 4 years huh......(Trying to start the conversation)

Me:I know.......

ELI:How are you??

Me:I'm doing good^^ (Pretending)

ELI:Really?? (Teasing me)

Me:I think^^

Allyn:Silly girl.......Just admit it.....

Me:What should I admit??

Allyn:That you miss him^^

Me:Who??

ELI:Oh come on Shiee.....You know who are we talking about.......

Me:Xander??

Allyn:Jackpot^^

Me:Ahhh......Of course I miss him!! Who wouldn't miss that monkey?? I'm not dumb enough not to miss that guy.......

Allyn:Awwwwwwwww!!! She miss him!!

ELI:Us too.....We miss hyung too.....

Me:Whatever!!

ELI:Hahaha!! It's true.........

Me:Okay...Say whatever you want....(Stood up)

ELI:Where are you going??

Me:Gonna walk for a while.....(Get out of the house)

ELI:Wait.....

Allyn:No...Let her be alone first......She still need some space....It's also hard for me to see Shiee like that...Even though it's been 4 years since Xander left her.......So let her be alone....Just for a while........

ELI:Okay.....I'm just worried....

I went outside to get some peace of my mind..........While walking alone.......I saw a couple......A very happy couple.......Then I suddenly remembered everyone.........Like.......Kris Anne & Dong Ho.......Then ELI oppa and unnie Allyn......Ki Seop oppa and unnie Gabbie......

It's just me, Ki Bum oppa......Soo Hyun oppa.....Kevin oppa......And this HARSH LITTLE WORLD of mine....No partners at all!!!...Aigoo!! I envy those couple=( I miss Xander..........I really do.......

See you in the next chapter^^

-Shiee