Chapter Five: Find Me in your Memory 1

Fate: The power struggles

Park Bo-gum was discharged from the hospital, he came back to the apartment rented for them, in those three days of staying at the hospital, Zuri had sent Jung, the guy who spied on them to look after the three of them, though it was a hustle to get Jungkook to stay at the apartment considering his tight schedule, they decided to meet once a week to work on their plan progress and today was that day. Tanaka had started to feel lonely, she did not know what to do, her career came to a halt because of her family issues, she needed to solve them before opening a new chapter of her life.

The four of them sat in the living room, Jung had a plan to help Tanaka get back her memory, but he wasn't sure she could handle it.

            'We could go to a shrink to access your memories but I am not sure you will be up for it considering you shared your abilities with the two gentlemen' said Jung

            'What do you mean the two, I thought it was only Jungkook who gained a part of my abilities?' Tanaka asked confused

              'Mr Park here also has a part of you, whenever you are hurt he is hurt too' Jung said at this point Tanaka was more confused

         'Okay that is so not helpful?' she said

        'Whenever Jungkook gets hurt you get hurt too, right?' Tanaka nodded as yes 'the same thing happens with him, it is like a circle' Jung said

         'Did you know this?' Tanaka asked Jungkook who nodded as a yes 'How long?' she asked                  'The day of the dream' he answered

          'When were you planning to tell me?' Tanaka asked Park Bo-gum

          'Everything was happening so fast I couldn't comprehend' Park Bo-gum said

          'Okay then let me ask a stupid question, do you guys trust me?' everyone went silent for a moment, Tanaka felt betrayed, she was okay taking someone's pain but she was not okay with someone taking her pain.

          'Do you hear my thoughts too?' she asked him again, he nodded indicating a yes

'Wow' was the only word Tanaka could let out of , in her time with the abilities, she had learned to shut out thoughts and could only listen to someone's thoughts if they allowed her to and yet there he was listening to every single thought she had without her consent, maybe she was jumping to conclusions but whatever he did he could have at least let her in on it.

               'You know, I get that everything was happening so fast, but you could have told me, you could have asked me, instead, you kept everything to yourself and got your answers from listening to every single thought I had, and here I was, thinking I had people I could trust', Tanaka wiped her tear, Park Bo-gum looked at her unable to utter a word, Tanaka left to her room

                'So we are not discussing memories again?' Jung asked, Jungkook glared at him and left to Tanaka's room. Jungkook kept knocking without a response, Tanaka sat on her bed, she shut her eyes trying to concentrate, her eyes beaming with tears, her nose started bleeding while her breaths got uneven, Jungkook knocked again, he was worried for her, he called Jung who had the ability to control things, he opened the lock with his mind, Jungkook ran to Tanaka who fell on the bed, her nose still bleeding, he held her in his arms trying to wake her up

              'Stay with me Tanaka' he said, Jung leaned on the door smiling, Jungkook looked at him hoping he would do something

            'Why are you smiling call an ambulance' Jungkook said, Park Bo-gum stood at the door frozen

           'She will be allright in a minute, don't panic' Jung said, Jungkook was still holding Tanaka in his arms a few seconds later Tanaka opened her eyes, she found herself in Jungkook's arms she melted in his touch but she didn't want to appear soft so pretended to act all mad

          'I want to be alone' she said, Park Bo-gum understood she didn't want him around, he turned to leave but Tanaka's words halted his steps.

         'You should be allright now, you cannot feel the pain anymore, I cannot block my thoughts only you can, so do whatever fits you best' Park Bo-gum walked to the living room taking his hoodie, Jung followed him

           'She will come around, just give her time' Jung said, Park Bo-gum left without saying a word, back in Tanaka's room Jungkook tried to reason with her

         'You know, I should be mad at you also for keeping things from me, how could you take my pain without telling me' Jungkook said but he was joking to cheer her up though Tanaka took it seriously

         'I am okay taking your pain because I am used to it Jay but I cannot imagine you taking my pain, you have enough weight on your shoulder and it's not just you, it's Gummy too, maybe I am childish I don't know but I ...' Tanaka could not form words to explain herself, 'Shhh, you don't have to explain, I understand, I couldn't bear to see the ones I love in pain no matter how small it could be' Jungkook said to her, Tanaka smiled at him.

It was evening, the air was still tense between Park Bo-gum and Tanaka though she had already forgotten his betrayal, she couldn't bring herself to talk to him, maybe she was waiting for him to initiate the conversation while on the other side Park Bo-gum was also waiting for her to do the same. They sat around the dining table having supper while discussing their next move since no one knew how long it would take for the enemy to find their whereabouts.

           'So should we see a psychologist?' asked Jungkook

            'We need someone who has both the science and magical knowledge and I happen to have one in mind' said Jung 'of course you do,' Tanaka said ' we should go to him first thing tomorrow morning so we can be done with this whole saga once and for all ' she added, Park Bogum glanced at her unable to comment on it.

            'I am sorry I won't be there' Jungkook said

             'It is okay I have got them and you know armies will be sad if you don't show up plus we need your pay to buy food here' Tanaka said chuckling, Park Bo-gum left the table not done with his food, Tanaka watched him walk away, she glanced at her food losing her appetite but pretended to continue eating. 

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Inside the psychologist's office, Tanaka laid on a side bed that looked like a sofa turned into a bed, she was nervous for she did not know what to expect from her past, Jung held her hand reassuring her that they are with her till the end, she wished Park Bo-gum would hold her hand to calm her nerves yet she was still stubborn to ask, maybe he was stubborn too for if he was able to hear her thoughts why would he not hold her hand? the psychologist who was in his sixties sat on his chair, his glasses on his forehead while he had a notebook and a pen.

             'You do not have to access all the memories at once, take whatever you can, the rest we'll work on them later' the psychologist said

           'now if you are ready, let's begin' Tanaka's grip on Jung became tighter before she let go, she looked at Park Bo-gum once before closing her eyes, the psychologist talked to her ensuring she was still with them but Tanaka had dived into her pool of memories

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Tanaka sat in a class of around thirty students, it seemed like a workshop for a film program, she could not concentrate as the camera instructor was explaining, her head spinning, Tanaka asked for permission to use the restroom, instead of going to the restroom area she walked straight to the program's director who seemed to understand what she was going through, the director told her there was one celestial bus that was yet to leave earth and her mother was waiting for her, Tanaka understood nodding before heading out.

 Tanaka reached a place that had a smaller bridge, the bus was empty she had expected there to be passengers but it seemed like the driver (Jung) was waiting for her only. Tanaka boarded the bus and was brought to a place that looked a few years old, it was empty, at the end of the room stood a woman in her early forties, Tanaka run towards the woman hugging her, she cried in her embrace, a guy wearing old brown garments drove a sword through the woman's lower back, the sword penetrating through Tanaka who was shocked unable to move, the woman died in Tanaka's embrace while Kanapoi came and took Tanaka leaving the woman down with blood flowing across the floor.

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Back at the psychologist's office, Tanaka was sweating, her breathing becoming faint while tears streamed down her cheeks, the psychologist tried to wake her up but she was too deep into the memory world, Jung who was panicking called Zuri while Park Bo-gum knelt holding Tanaka's hand.

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Zuri was a few hours away while Tanaka was blacking out every single two minutes her brain had taken a lot of memories at once, she needed to regain back the energy through blood transfusion, Jungkook, on the other hand, was having a concert in a few minutes, he could not miss the concert for the world, he was so excited, he did not know what was happening back in Seoul.

Tanaka was rushed to the ICU, her body becoming pell, the doctor who treated Jungkook understood the situation, he told Jung to contact Jungkook as Park Bo-gum's blood was not a match, Park Bo-gum felt helpless as he wanted to help her, he paced up and down, he tried calling Jungkook but it went straight to voice mail, He wished he had the ability to bring Jungkook to her, Jung heard his thoughts and it occurred to him that he could teleport to places if he wanted to, though staying on earth had made him weak, he was not sure he still had it in him, he tried focusing on the concert arena with every teleport attempt he will go to a different place and come back to the hospital while Tanaka was still zoning out, he tried a few times before it became a success.

 BTS concert was in the UK, the boys had lined up backstage ready to perform, Jung walked to the boys while wearing the stuff outfit, he tapped on Jungkook's shoulder, Jungkook was startled but relaxed knowing it was Jung, he walked to the side with Jung

           'We need your blood it's urgent' Jung said to him just then the manager walked to them, Jungkook was confused but he soon understood, he was conflicted, he wanted to give her his blood as she helped him before, on the other hand, his hyungs were waiting for him to go perform with them while Armies were waiting for their angels to come out,

         'It's time' the floor manager said

          'She needs you' Jung said worried,

           'Jungkook clear your head, go on stage forget what's happening they can handle the situation' he said, back in Seoul Tanaka woke up Park Bo-gum by her side, she asked him what was happening and he explained, Tanaka could feel her body shutting down but, she knew Jungkook needed to focus on his performance even if it meant her dying in the process, with the little energy left, Tanaka froze time, using her thoughts ability, she asked Jung to teleport her in, Jung did though he was sceptical, Tanaka stood in front of Jungkook her face pale but she managed to smile

           'It's a false alarm, nothing to worry  I am allright, go perform and make sure to give me a secret shoutout I will be watching' Tanaka said smiling, Jungkook's worry subsided for a moment, she asked Jungkook to lean forward a bit giving him a forehead kiss

         'Go armies are waiting, you've got this' Jungkook smiled at Tanaka before hugging her, Tanaka's face had a painful look, she held him tightly before breaking the hug, she smiled at him again then asked Jung to teleport her back. 

Tanaka fell to the ground this time completely going unconscious. Back at the concert, Jungkook joined the others smiling, the stuff who Jung had taken his outfit walked away from Jungkook leaving the manager confused. The nurses placed Tanaka on the bed, her breathing faint, Jung tried to teleport again but found Tanaka had blocked his abilities to do so, he cursed under his breath while Park Bo-gum was now restless

             'We need to induce her into a coma if she's is to survive this' the doctor said

                'If it saves her do it' Park Bo-gum said

                 'That is not your decision to make and Zuri will be here in no time' said Jung

             'She is literally seven hours away ' Park Bo-gum said, the doctor instructed the two to get out of the ICU, he induced her into a coma, Park Bo-gum felt like time had stopped, he wanted to bear the pain with Tanaka but she had shut him out, he hoped nothing bad would happen to her, he wished he had the power to bring Jungkook in, maybe he had, who knows but at the time his mind was clogged with the worst-case scenario incidences.

BTS finished performing with the last song being mikrokosmos, the entire arena lit with army lights while the projectors created a universal atmosphere for the Armies, Jungkook raised his hand looked at the bracelet then did 'I love you' gesture in the air before starting to sing, he was smiling brightly, he knew Tanaka was watching and this could be termed as one of his proud moments recently, repeating the words 'You got me

Nan neoreul bomyeo kkumeul kkweo
I got you
Chireuk gatdeon bamdeul sok

Seoroga bon seoroye bit

Gateun mareul hago isseotteon geoya urin' loudly he couldn't be more proud of his BTS family and the recent person he made a friend in even though their story began way before he became who he is today.

Time was moving slowly, the doctor was worried for Tanaka even though he was an expert as he schooled for this but he never schooled for supernatural cases, Jung paced up and down waiting for Zuri while Park Bo-gum was tired from crying his eyes puffy and red. Zuri arrived at the hospital, Jung quickly rushed her into the ICU, she laid her hands on Tanaka who was now swamped in her memory world, for her not to slip further away, she played Tanaka's favourite music in her head to help her stay in touch with reality. 

Back in the UK Jungkook wanted to surprise Tanaka when he came back so he never contacted her for the two days he was there, after their performance.

The whole two days Tanaka was unconscious, Park Bo-gum never left the hospital, Jung advice him to at least eat or change but he was scared that she would die if he left, he kept turns with Zuri watching her, Zuri used her magic to keep the music playing while giving her little energy to fight.

Jungkook arrived after two days, he was tied but he needed to see Tanaka first, hearing she was in the hospital he nearly broke down, he believed her when she said she was okay but he could have sensed she was not, with the connection they had.

Tanaka recovered after being given Jungkook's blood, Zuri and Jung smiled when she opened her eyes, they decided to give them time alone 

            'You know I thought you were watching me and now I find you slept the entire time' Jungkook joked

             'Pabo I am watching now and this is the one memory they will never erase plus the entire universe saw' Tanaka said to him

              'Where do you get the energy to be strong now even after everything you've been through?' Jungkook asked

           'You are strong that's why I am strong ' Tanaka replied 'I wish I was there, I missed hearing Jimin's angelic voice' Tanaka said, Jungkook pretended to be hurt, he held his heart Tanaka smiled 'You know your voice is ethereal and it's the one thing that kept me in those two days of horror and darkness so don't be jealous ' Tanaka said smiling, Park Bo-gum stood outside the door, Jungkook decided to give them time to talk

          'You know those 2 days must have been hell for him, don't be hard on him ' he said before giving her a forehead kiss and walking out, Park Bo-gum walked in and stood not knowing what to do, Tanaka patted on the bed next to her signalling him to sit even though there was a chair

        'I am sorry Tanaka' Park Bo-gum said, Tanaka looked at him before speaking

        'I should be the one to apologize, I didn't even let you tell me your side of the story' Tanaka said

         'Still, I was at fault too' Park Bo-gum said

'How are you though? did you miss me?' Tanaka asked jokingly, Park Bo-gum looked at her his eyes glistening with tears adding to the puffiness, she hugged him immediately

         'I am sorry for scaring you, it won't happen again' Tanaka said

        'next time we will go in together ' she added before letting go of him 'You know I hoped you would hold my hand when I walked the memory lane but I guess I was too stubborn to ask and those days I was mad at you I wished you would talk to me but I guess we are both stubborn' she said looking down, Park Bo-gum held her head and smiled

      'So what you are saying is I should continue listening to your thoughts?' he questioned while smiling

    'Definitely not I don't want you to see how messed up my fantasies of you are' Tanaka said chuckling, Park Bo-gum laughed too.

 

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