I keep waiting for her reply.

Every notification makes me nervous. 

Keep looking at my phone when suddenly I feel tap on my shoulder. I look back and saw Chaeyoung looking at me with concern.

"Is everything alright?" She whispered. Don't want to disturb others focus on the movie playing.

I nodded. And lock my phone. Trying to enjoy the movie but I failed. 

"I wanna use the restroom" . Carefully stand up and leave the living room.

I locked the door, put my phone beside the sink. 

Staring at my own reflection. I keep getting restless. 

I pray that's she's gonna be okay. I know it's basically my fault that put her in a misery.

But what makes me feels a lot more guilty is because she still treat me the same. Still like I'm her precious girl.

I will be lying if I said I don't enjoy the attention she give. But I try my best to avoid myself from feeling  that way.

Being with her really make me happy and sad at the same time.

Happy: she makes me feels Alive. Love. Happy. Perfect.

Sad: she always makes me feels I don't deserve her. I lack in a lot of aspects. I rarely go out with her when she asked. I rarely showing my love.

FLASHBACK

 There's one day after Fancy fansign events, while laying on her bed, I read one letter from her fan.

"Jeongyeon unnie. You deserve the world. You make me believe that angel does exist. I love the way you care for others. It's really genuine. Not even a moment I feels it's just an acting.

Jeongyeon unnie, out of other 8 members. I really adore the way Sana show her love to you. And the way your eyes sparkled. I wish you two are together."

I folded the letter back and put it on her bedside table.

Jeongsa. 230cm couple. Jeongsa is life.

I open up YouTube and saw a lot of video pairing Jeongyeon unnie and Sana. I do notice the way Jeongyeon unnie eyes sparkled. 

While I busy scrolling. Jeongyeon unnie take my phone and make me jump a little.

"What are you watching?" She asked while looking at my phone.  "Jeongsa video? seriously?" She raised one of her eyebrows.

"Give it back" I stretched out my hand to take my phone back. She just raise it higher and make it difficult for me to reached for it.

I puff my cheeks and just sit at the end of the bed. Sulking. Don't want to face her.

I feels her arm slowly snake around my waist. Hugging me from the back.

"What are you doing. Momo will come in anytime." I try to lose her tight hug. I love this. But I don't want getting busted.

"Don't worry. Momo still at Dubchaeng's room." She kiss my cheeks. I'm melting.

"Did you get jealous about this Jeongsa thing?

I shaking my head slowly. Hand reach for her hand and kiss it. 

"Nope. But I can't deny I'm a lil bit worried. Don't you see your face. You seems enjoying it so much"

She just laughing and keep kissing my cheeks.

"Mina chan. Aieru" she whispered in my ear. And the next seconds, I feels her lips on mine. 

I feels hot. She kiss me slowly but passionately. I let her tounge rooms ar