Some say it ain't over 'til it's over

But I guess it's really over now

There's something I gotta say before I let you go

-x- 

Day 3

Overlooking the city night lights from the window of my hotel room while drinking iced cold beer, and thinking about my life recently. And of course her 

In three days she's going to walk the aisle with someone else. 

In three days she's going to be somebody's wife

In three days she's going to build a home with someone that isn't me. 

It's been so long, I should've moved on by now 

And yet here I am. Drinking away the pain 

If only she didn't gave me that stupid invitation I won't be like this. 

I wouldn't give a damn. 

And yet here I am. ing love. destiny. 

I gulped the remaining beer and my intrusive thoughts wants me to throw the bottle on the wall just to release my pain, anger, and frustrations but I held it in. I don't want to disturb other guests here. 

Where am I? Three blocks away from Tiffany's wedding venue. Idiot right? I don't know why am I doing this. I didn't even tell my friends about the invitation, I don't even know if Tiffany also invited our friends. All I know is that I'm a masochist. 

I want to call her and ask her why she keeps hurting me over and over again but I can't. I wish I could. For the last time. 

I have two more days to decide or to think what should I do 

Should I come and see her get married?

Or should I just forget and move on 

And maybe move to another country 

Far away from her and our memories 

My heart is already broken and crushed into tiny pieces 

I don't think it could be crushed more 

If only things didn't get complicated

It should be me that's going to put a ring on her finger

I guess its too late, I'm dancing this dance alone,

This chapter's done, the story goes on

-x-

Day 2

"Taeyeon where are you?" Sooyoung called me at the wee hours of the morning. 

"I'm on a hotel..why?" 

"What hotel? Why? Are you on a vacation?" Sooyoung asked. 

"Soo why are you calling me at this time? It's still midnight you know?" I groaned, my head aches and I can feel it throbbing from pain.

"Why you didn't tell us that she invited you." I shot my eyes open with what Sooyoung said. 

"I..uh how did you know?" 

"She told us of course." 

"Soo i'll call you again okay? I wanna sleep." I was about to end the call when sooyoung spoke again 

"Taeyeon don't do anything that you will regret forever. " I sat up and thought about what Sooyoung said.

"Wha- you think I'll barge on the wedding????"  

"Of course not although that idea passed my mind at one point but what I'm trying to say is, if you come and see her get married would you regret coming there and not do anything to change your story with her?" 

"I don't know Soo, I think this is already the last time. It's over." 

"You have given up a lot of times on your relationship, you're not going to do anything now?" 

I chuckled feeling suspicious of Sooyoung.

"Sooyoung I know you like the back of my hand.  What are you trying to say?" 

"I say why not try again for the last time?" 

"I have to be totally drunk to listen to you." 

-x- 

Day 1

I tried to dial Tiffany's number but I backed out even before it rings.

What should I say? That I still love her and don't get married? 

What if she truly loves that person and I'm just an idiot who can't move on? 

Or maybe 

I'll just tell her that I love her one last time...

Tomorrow is her wedding day 

It's a garden wedding 

I bet she's the one who organized and planned everything

Even designed her own wedding dress

I remember how much she love to get married one day and that time it was with me...

"Babe are you going to wear a dress suit or a dress?" Tiffany randomly asked me while we were cuddling on my bed. 

"Where? " 

"On our wedding." She smiled so beautifully at me like she's so excited at the idea of getting married with me. 

I chuckled and kiss her forehead before answering

"Ahhh dress suit I think? Anything love. I would wear anything just so I can marry you." 

"Ehh you're so cheesy Taeyeon. "

"But can we do honeymoon first?"  She snickered and playfully hit my arms 

"Byuntaeyeon!"  

I sighed from the memory, I got up and drank some water from the fridge. My throat already hurts from drinking too much alcohol last night, I can't even think straight right now. Sooyoung's words kept ringing on my ears. 

I don't know on to what extent my friend's stupidity to think that way but the only thing i'm sure of, is I'm not going to do something so embarrassing just because I'm brokenhearted and destroy my ex's wedding. 

Or maybe I am stupid also? 

I don't want to see her on her wedding dress 

Walking the aisle with someone else 

But if you believe that you belong with him,

Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you,

Remember, I will always be here for you,

Even if it kills me to see you, in that

wedding dress