Dear Seungri
Description
This is not a fanfic. Just an open letter to the man who showed me how to be a better person
Foreword
Dear Seungri,
When I was in 7th grade a friend of mine sent me a compilation of k-pop MVs. I watched the whole thing but only one boy caught my attention - he had bright eyes, kind and childlike, angel voice and moves I've never seen before. There were GD&TOP, SNSD, 2ne1 MVs in the compilation but only the boy with the playful smile stole my heart.
This happened 9 years ago. And so many things changed ever since.
You taught me to get better with every single day, to try harder, to never ever stop trying no matter what. In high school I got bullied A LOT. I was failing classes, had no friends, my parents were so disappointed. But you inspired me to be the best version of myself. I studied hard until I got to the top of my class, even the top of my school.
Your language skills made me give my best when it came to learning French, English, Russian and Korean. I went to national language competitions led by the thought of wanting to be "just like Seungri". I even got my English certificate extra early, 9th grade, being the youngest one at the exam.
You inspired me to be self-disciplined and lose weight, get in shape, change my look from being a weird nerd wearing glasses to being "one of those girls" who strut down the street in their high heels. I feel comfortable in my skin THANKS TO YOU and no one else. Today I'm confident because of Seungri and no one else.
I grew up antisocial and quiet because of all the bullying i went through in high school. Yet watching your interviews, being all talkative and bubbly, made me confident enough to be considered "loud" today. And I love it. I don't care that some find me annoying at times - I worked hard not to be the girl in the back of the room.
When I got admitted into university, with the highest (maximum) grade that year, Seungri's business inspired me to be a boss b*tch. I'm the girl who has her sh*th together, who works hard, who does many things. You're a dancer, singer, composer, dj, actor, businessman, EVERYTHING. That's why I picked up acting, drawing, graphic design, writing (not only fanfics but scientific work), translating. I want to do more. I want to take all the world is giving me.
My dearest Seungri, you're truly a part of my small family. I'm no longer a teenager, I don't call you "oppa" and I never had, mainly because when I look at you I see a brother... even better, I see myself. When I had no one else - I had you. That's why now you have me. In my worst days you made me smile. You saved me. You didn't just save me from becoming a person who's not doing anything with their life. You SAVED ME by cheering me up when I was suicidal in 8th grade and I was seriously about to end my life because I just couldn't see things getting better.
I'm 22 now but you're still my idol. I'm not into k-pop anymore but Lee Seungri will ALWAYS be the person I look up to. I love you with all my heart in the purest way possible.
They don't know you. Maybe I don't know you either but when I look into your eyes I see kindness. People love bringing down legends. It's because they are weak and want to feel strong by tearing apart the strongest ones. You're strong. You have always been strong. Lee Seungri, YOU'RE THAT B*TCH and you shouldn't let the small people get to do. You truly are the great Seungri. Always and forever. Being "that b*tch" is beautiful - you do what you wanna do and you do it well. I watched you grow up from a silly boy into a powerful man.
On this day I cried like I haven't cried since I was in high school. I don't want to miss you. I need you in my life just like everyone else. Your smile gets me going, it makes me want to improve myself.
You're a good man, Seungri. I know you might not be seeing it right now but there are so many people proud of you. We're not buying the disgusting propaganda and you're still shining as bright as ever in our eyes. Please, don't take away our light because of the ones who are blind for it.
Sometimes I call you son because I feel like an overprotective mom when it comes to my cutest boy who's all grown up now. And now like a loving mother, a young sister, I want to tell you to keep your head up. Hold it high up, don't let your crown fall off.
My biggest dream ever is to see you live. I hope it comes true one day, I hope you don't leave us...
Don't forget the people who love you. Please. Don't forget about us and don't stop thinking about us because we won't. You'll always be in our thoughts and prayers. I've been loving you for almost 10 years and I'll love you for 1000 more no matter what.
Stay strong.
We love you.
Baby, good luck to you.
G.M.
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