Jungkook, I love you.

I love you so much that it hurts.

I love you so much that I'll give everything just to see you smile.

And it's scary.

What if I can't live without you anymore? I gotta risk and do what I needed to do. 

Even if that's breaking us apart.

But I wanted you to know,

That You are the peace I crave in this chaotic world. 

You are the one I want to see when I wake up every morning or the last person I want to see before I sleep at night. 

You are the only person I want to meet at the altar before, we say 'I do.'

Damn, Jeon. I even wanna marry you.

You. You are also the person I want my child to call, "Papa".

Jeon Jungkook, I love you.

Every bits of you.

But it hurts.

I'm sorry

ー Lalisa M.

2022 

( October, Fall )

The night when Jungkook and I talked, it didn't really go well. I was so confused that I asked him if he love her and Jungkook didn't even hesitated when he said, "yes".

It got me so confused but my foolishness get the best of me, because I told him that I still love him.

That if ever fate give us another chance, would he try over again? 

He didn't answer me. Not that, I expected it but he refused to answer me. He avoided the topic and said that we should go home. 

I didn't argue and let him drove me to my apartment. Before I got out to his car, I asked him something I should've not asked. 

"Will I be seeing you again?"

I know, that's the stupidest form of stupidity. Jungkook was silent for a while, pondering what to say to me and he said the safest answer. 

"That depends."

That night. I failed on avoiding him.