Thanks for inviting me to your wedding... i dont know what to say, i try to be happy for u, but deep down in my heart, i feel sad... im sorry, i feel sad coz, im not the one that can cheer u or make u happy in the future. Sorry for being a bit selfish.

u ask me to be ur bridesmaid, i dont know how i can face it, i mean how should i show myself in front of u, with u having ur partner beside of u, im worry about how my face will be shown up, but instead of rejecting ur request, i accept it, it might be the last things that i will do for u...may be i used to try my all for u, so i cant reject anything from u.

On ur wedding day, i always beside u, holding ur hand so, u will not nervous, i try to smile in front of u, but deep inside im crying, for me.. after all this done, u have someone special in ur life and eventually u will forget everything about me.

i know u happy, i want u to happy, but im sorry i cant be happy for u. After u officially become his bride, u left me there, all alone, i know it will happened, but its fine to me, because im already prepared for it.. u go with him for photoshoot, and im waiting for u to comeback to meet me before im really gone from ur life... u get back so late, it seems like u already forget about me, when u get home, it seems like u not really care about me, its ok, at least i can see u for the last time... and then thats how i left u with tears in my eyes... it hurts me so much, because im used to be the most important person in ur life, and now im just nothing to u... sometimes i do feeling like u are using me, but i dont know y that i like it, maybe by letting u using me, i feel like im important to u, but right now i do feel like u are insulting me.

Sorry for loving u, i hope one day my love for u will be gone forever, so that i can move on with my life.. sometimesi do feel like to commit suicide, but i still can manage to control my emotion and still can think that its not the way for me to forget u.. sorry to say, but sometimes in my heart i dont feel like i want u to happy with ur spouse, coz it might the only way u will think about me, but at the same time also i dont want someone else hurt u coz i love u so much n cant stand to see u being hurt

Sincerely,

Kwon yuri