I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

Her words continuously repeat in my head, causing my heart to race and my cheeks to flush.

She missed me?
Was there a hidden meaning in her words?

The frustration of not being able to make sense of the situation only caused me to feel anger. I scoff,

"You miss me?" I ask in disbelief causing her eyebrows to furrow in confusion. I grab her hands softly and remove them off my face. After dropping her hands, I begin to back away not wanting to be near her. I furiously turn around and walk away from her. I hear her groan and chase after me,

"Lisa wait!" I abruptly stop and quickly turn to face her, rage visible on my face. She quickly stops and takes a step back nervously.

"You miss me? Really? Did you just realize that after ignoring me for 7 ing days?" I angrily ask, no longer in control of my frustration. Her eyes widen, surprised of my outburst.

"Lisa-" I cut her off,

"Why?" I suddenly ask. She stares at me, pain evident her eyes. I look away, feeling my heart shatter at the sight of her sad state. She slowly wipes away her tears and asks,

"What?" I turn my gaze towards her,

"7 days Jennie, why did you ignore me for a whole week? What did I do?" I ask her, desperation in my voice, ignoring the tears that have started to cascade down my cheeks. She looks down, causing me to continue,

"Cause Jennie, I didn't do to you! Yeah I'm gay! so what if I didn't tell you?" I angrily wipe away my tears. She silently listens to me, regret visible on her face.

"Is that why you're so pissed at me? Were you so d..disgusted by the fact that I rather be with a w..woman than a man that you couldn't stand to be around me?" I internally scold myself at the sound of my voice. I sounded vulnerable, and that was something I wanted to avoid, especially in front of Jennie. She stares at me in horror,

"What? Of course not!" she replies quickly.

"Then why?!" I angrily ask.

" I..I was just hurt that you didn't trust me enough to tell me the truth." She replies. I stare at her not convinced that that was the only reason. She looks away nervously and tucks in a strand of her hair behind her ears. I grit my teeth and ask,

"Really? That's the only reason? You could've just told me that instead of shutting me out!" I was hurt. She continues to avoid my eyes, shifting uncomfortably. We stand there for a few seconds, not uttering a single word. Not being able to conceal my pain anymore I finally decided to let my shattered heart take control of my voice.

"Why are you always hurting me Jennie?" I weakly ask her. I was mentally and physically tired of this pain. This is my breaking point, I can't do this anymore. I'm done. She quickly looks at my face, shocked and confused,

"W..What do you mean always?" she asks. I didn't respond right away. I take a step closer to her, causing her to widen her eyes slightly at our close proximity. I lift up my hand slowly and place it on her cheek. She tenses but immediately softens at my touch. I gently wipe away her tears. My breath hitches when she places her hand over mine and leans into my touch. I lean foreword and press my forehead against hers. I see her eyes flicker to my lips and to my eyes causing my heart pound loudly against my chest. I slowly shut my eyes tight and softly say,

"That can't be it,"

"What?" she asks. Without opening my eyes I continue,

"That can't be the only reason you have been ignoring me Nini," I regretfully lean my head back and gaze into her cat eyes that were filled with tears. She continues to stare at me confused, but as soon as realization hits her, she immediately looks down. I softly sigh and slowly lift her head up, trying to meet her gaze,

"Be honest with me, is that really the only reason," I softly ask. I begin to lean in slightly, just enough for her to feel my breath against her lips. I hear her breath hitch at my sudden action and feel her place her hands on my hips, gripping my shirt slightly. I place my other hand on her cheek,

"Tell me," I slowly graze my lips over hers, feeling the softness of her plump lips. She closes her eyes and shivers slightly. I hear her whimper, as if she needed more. I softly kiss the corner of her lips and pull away,

"Jennie please," she grips my shirt tighter. I frown slightly, seeing a few tears fall from her eyes. I begin to feel my heart shatter for the millionth time today as she whispers,

"I..I can't." I sadly smile and nod. I lean foreword and softly place my lips on her forehead letting a few tears fall from my eyes. I hear her choke back a sob as I slowly back away, dropping my hands to my side. I look away from her, not being able to handle the look of fear in her eyes. She was afraid to lose me. Hell, so was I, but I need time and space away from her. Avoiding her eyes and feeling my heart break, I softly grab her hands and pull them off my shirt. I hear her softly cry,

"Goodbye Jennie," I say to her. I turn around and immediately walk away from her, blocking out her cries for me to come back.

I'm done.

I grab my phone and instantly text Chaeyoung,

'Meet me at the bleachers.'

I slowly walk towards the bleachers not bo