Thank you and sorry for the things I'll make.

Thank you for giving me advice that would really make sense.
Sorry for not following those.

Thank you for being with me always in tough times.
Sorry for leaving you often times.

Thank you for preparing my necessities.
Sorry for not using it because of foolishness.

Thank you for guiding me through the years.
Sorry for misleading myself in dark paths.

Thank you for making me realize the value of life.
Sorry for imagining disturbing thoughts for myself.

Thank you for your love and compassion.
Sorry for doubting it many times.

Thank you for fighting our side.
Sorry for fighting alone inside my mind.

Thank you for not giving up on us.
Sorry for giving up on myself.

Everything around me is in a mess.
My head is a mess.
I am a mess.
My whole life is slowly turning into a mess.
I know in myself that I can still fight these heavy feelings but the voices inside my mind says not now, not in my entire life.
I was definitely fighting and trying my utmost best to fight.
But I guess this life wasn't for me.
If ever in the next life, I really want to be successful. For you, for us.

Thank you and I'm sorry.

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I just really want to express these feelings.