Dear Luhan,

I’ve made a mess of things, I know. I don’t know if you’ll ever forgive me. I told you I would hurt you. I told you that I’m not worth it. But you know what?

Choosing Key over you was something I’ve been regretting. I haven’t been eating, sleeping, not even studying, properly. I miss you so much that it hurts.

Key was the safer option. He didn’t make my heart beat as fast as you did. He didn’t make tears roll down my cheeks from the beauty of his words. I chose him because I was scared. Scared of this feeling you give me, a feel I’ve never felt.

I’ve told Key. I told him I couldn’t do it. I let go of him. Even if you never take me back, I’m not going back to him. I’d rather be alone than without you.

I’ll wait forever.

There are so many things I would say, but I’m still afraid of spilling my heart out to you. Especially since I don’t know how you feel anymore. So I’ll leave you with this.

If I think about my future, all I can see is the image of us. Happily married, living a beautiful life with a couple of kids.

Life isn’t a movie, but with you, it would be even better than one.

I love you Luhan.
Yoona