try again.

minkyung

after that call, my whole world shattered. I’ve received a wakeup call, in the worst way possible. everything felt empty. I felt useless. I felt selfish. I never tried to understand her part, and god I hate myself for it. But it is too late. As much as I would like to call her again, and ask for another chance, I think it will be better if we just parted ways. I don’t care if my heart won’t be whole again. If it meant that she will finally be happy, I don’t mind breaking my heart a few more times.

After 2 years, I haven’t been able to move on. However, I changed for the better, in hopes that she will come back. I stopped going out to parties every weekends. I focused on my studies and my friends. Time after time, I began to become happy again. Still, there is a part of me missing, and I know only Yaebin can fix it. Not to sound to stalker-ish, but I do view her ig stories every time she updates, just so I could see if she was doing fine. Oh good lord, I miss her so bad. But this is what I deserve for being selfish.

I decide to get out of my bed, and study at a nearby coffee shop. Our finals is coming, and I need my coffee to focus and understand my notes on each subject. I order my usual drink – iced Americano, and seat my usual place, the same table I first sat with her. As I play my lofi