Chaerin.... where are you?

It's already been a year...

and empty, lifeless year without you.

I regret it... I regret breaking your heart, I regret taking you for granted.

I regret everything.

I still wish I hadn't seen your beautiful face crying because of me.

It took me a year to realize how much you meant to me.

I'm such a gay bastard... just like you said I was.

Why couldn't I realize that you were the only one I loved?

Why did I choose Gayoon over you?

Why-

"Dujuniieeeeee!"

C-c-chaerin?

My head turned to the direction where my name was called from.

But to my disappointment. It wasn't you.

"Dujun! Do you want to go to the club with me again tonight? We can enjoy ourselves.... get a little drunk... and have some fun.... how does that sound?"

I've just had enough with this girl.

She is nothing like you.

"Gayoon! I'm tired now.. leave me alone. Go to the club by yourself and some other dude."

I went to my room and slammed the door shut, and locked it.

"Dujun! Dujun! Urrg... Fine you bastard! I'll go some random guy is that what you want?"

Please... just SHUT.UP.

I heard her frustraited sigh, and soon after, the slam of the apartment door.

I remember that night you left.

You never came back to get your things.

Back then I was relieved. I didn't want to see your face. I just wanted to be with Gayoon.

"Dujunie! Finally that is gone right? Now I can finally live with you here!" Gayoon cheerfully said.

"Of course babe!" I gave her a slight smile,

but in my heart, I felt a tug. 

But I ignored it.

Even then, if I realized what I felt inside was regret, I could've held on to you... told you not to go... to have you in my arms again.

But I didn't.

That's what I hate.

Everyday I find myself comparing her over you. How she is nothing like how you were.

She isn't sweet like you were, she isn't caring like you were.....

and most importantly....

she doesn't have the love for me in her eyes like you did.

Why couldn't I see it back then? Your innocense, your beauty, your....

.... love.

"Dujuuuuunnn~ Wake up! Stop being such a sleepy head!" 

You always woke me up in the morning to go to work.

Gayoon never does. She usually sleeps until the afternoon.

"Dinner is ready! I made your favorite! Go take a shower and I'll set up the table ok?" 

You gave your famous eye smile.

Just thinking about your smiles makes me smile as well.

Gayoon never cooks, not ever.

She always orders take out, spending every cent that I make.

You never did that.

"Hey Chaerin! Look it's-"

I stopped when I saw you looking at the windows of a jewelry shop.

You were looking at wedding rings.

"Do you like those jagiya? Should I buy them?" I asked.

"No! Haha it's ok Dujun. When we get married we can buy it together. We already have our egagement rings anyways. Don't spend your money on me! umm... let's go!"

We walked away from the store. 

Chaerin, I promise I'll buy you those rings.

I never did keep that promise.

I never managed to let you have your wedding either.

I walked  to my drawers and pulled out our engagement rings from one of the shlves.

Yes, I still keep it.

A slight tear falls down my face from the memory of seeing you cry that night you left.

When you threw the ring on the floor.

Chaerin.... I'm so sorry....

Please... will you ever forgive me?

I wipe my tears away. And put on my jacket.

I should get my mind off things for a while.

I walked out of my apartment and got into my car.

I drove to a random place, to wherever my heart was telling me to go.

When I finally stopped, I couldn't believe where my heart had taken me too.

The jewelry the store. The one we went to.

Thinking it was fate telling me to keep my promise, I headed to the jewelry store to see if the rings were still there.

When I walked in, the only people there were this young couple, and me.

The couple looked so sweet together, almost like how we used to be.

I walked up to the counter and started to browse the rings, when  I heard the couple laughing.

"Hahaha Yoseob you're so cheesy! Haha s-s-stop it! Hahaha"

The girls' voice sounds so familiar.

"What cheesy? You take that back right now young lady!"

"Hahah NO!" she retorted. I could hear her laugh.

Wait.. that melodious laugh... no way...

it's not-

"Jung Chaerin I told you to take it back! Or I will punish you tonight!"

"Yoseob! Shh! Don't say that out loud!"

Chaerin?

"Hmm?? Whatdya mean? I didn't say anything bad.... were you thinking naughty things???"

I turned around.

"N-n-no...." your cheeks flushed, and turned away becaus eof embarrassment, when our eyes met.

"Chaerin..."

"Yoon Dujun."