January 15 ||

Mr. Lee Soo Man called me and was told to go to his office this morning. He said that we need to talk about my training this month. When I arrived at his office, we discussed all of the things that involves in my 6 months training in this company. One of the things that he told me that I even didn't control my tears was, I need to break up with Heechul no matter what because of my image after I debut. 

"Yeobo, let's go out tonight, are you free?" I said while crying but not enough to notice by Heechul

"Arrasso! I'm free tonight. I'll pick you up at 7. Arrasso?" 

"Arrasso. I'll be waiting for you so don't come late!" 

"Yah, Jagiya, are you crying? What's the matter?"

"Bwo? Ani.. anio. Then, let's meet later. I'll be waiting for you." I said and ended the call

"Yeobo!" I greeted him and hugged him as I get in to his car.

"Kajaa!" Heechul said happily and started to drive

"Where are we going?"

"Lotte World."

"But.. You must wear something so that no one will recognize you."

"Anio. No need. I rented the whole Lotte world so we can be alone and have a fun time."

"Bwo?! You shouldn't do that."

"Anio, it's okay."

We played in the snow happily and we even skate. After that, we stopped at a bench and drink some hot chocolate.

"Hm.. Heechul ah~ I.. have something to tell..you." 

"Oh. What is it jagiya?" 

"I.. really.. love you.. no matter what will happen. Please don't forget that.. Arraso?" I said and realize that tears is falling down in my face.

"Arrasso, arrasso.. But, why are you crying? Eh? Is there something that's been bothering you these days? Tell me." Heechul said while wiping my tears

"We should broke up now.. Mianhe.." I said and run but Heechul held my hand and hugged me.

"Kajima.. Don't go for me.. Why are you saying those things? It's not funny." Heechul said while crying

"Mianhe.. I really just need to do this.. Saranghae.." I said and before I left, I kissed Heechul in the lips while both of us are crying.

"CHUN HEE YAH!" Heechul shouted while crying. I ran and cried. I feel horrible.