They said I can't take it off yet. How come? After many years together then he just disappeared. I've been trying to keep myself busy to forget about it, but nil.

Today I decided overtime because my work is not done yet. There's only me alone in this workroom. Sometimes I stretch my body, because sitting in front of the computer for a long time makes my shoulder hurt. Or sometimes a little walk around the workspace.

It's almost midnight when I glance at the clock on my desk. I remember, twelve o'clock is exactly one year already when he left me.

The more it gets cold, the office also feels more quiet. I looked out the window, the city was still awake, crowded vehicles passing down there.

'Cold', I wipe my arms many times to keep my body warm. Already a few minutes ago I turned off the cooler in this workroom but it still feels cold.

Suddenly I heard someone opened the door just as I was about to return to my desk. Because not all the lights in this room are on, I can’t see clearly his face.

The man walked up to me. My eyes were wide open as his face became clearer. I don’t believe what I see now.

"Jungkook?" The question hung over the corner of my lips. Jungkook looked at me with a sad smile.

I couldn’t hold my body to hug him as he was standing still in front of me. My tears flowed, spilled along with pent-up longing for a year.

I looked at his face, nothing changed, just a little pale, maybe because it was cold outside.

***

Two cups of hot tea I'm preparing right now. For me and for Jungkook who is now standing by the window, staring at the still bustling city below.

I keep the two hot tea cups on my desk. Jungkook came up to me while pulling one of my co-workers' chairs. Then he sat down and looked at me. Her eyes beckon me to sit too. Then I sat in my work chair.

There wasn’t a word spoken from me or him since we met. The tea I had prepared was also not drunk. Just looking at each other's eyes.

Staring at him reminded me when he left me. And I burst into tears again.

I put my arms on the desk, and hid my face from him. I don’t want Jungkook to see me cry like this. Then his hand was my head softly.

Flashback

"Jungkook-ssi, where are we going?" I say, chuckling at what I say.

"Don’t talk like that, it's very formal." Jungkook's eyes still fixed on the winding tarmac road.

I don’t know where he's going to take me. Yesterday night he just told me that today he will take me to go somewhere through the message he sent. He said, I just have to prepare a change of clothes as an additional item that I have to carry.

I remember the last time he took me up the mountain. I struggled to get to the top, and cursed Jungkook for his plan. It was too abrupt and I had no preparation at all. He only gave me a few minutes to warm up before I started climbing when we arrived at our destination.

And now, I don’t know, this time I just surrendered. This trip is quite time consuming.

I propped my head against the car window. My eyes were squinting as the reflection of light ahead of me shone up my face. My eyes blur, then slowly begin to clear.

A vast puddle of deep blue water attracted my attention.

"The sea?" The puddle was clearly visible. And it is indeed the sea. I turned to Jungkook and looked back at the ocean.

"Beach?! Oppa, we're going to the beach?!" I almost shouted. Jungkook just smiled. I almost hugged him before Jungkook stopped me.

"Don’t hug me! I'm driving. You want to get there, don’t you?"

"Arasseo, arasseo .."

Jungkook laughed at my act as I put both palms on my lap, and knocked my index finger. I can’t hide this pleasure. Can’t wait to get there.

***

"Daebak!!" I say amazed and run as we arrive.

This beach is really beautiful, and also quiet. Only the roar of the waves sounded like music in my ears.

"How do you know this place? Look, it's like a wallpaper on my notebook!"

Jungkook chuckled at what I said. I saw him walking up to me with both hands that he put in his pants pocket. Yes, it looks cool.

I still can’t believe what I saw. And I still can’t believe I'm on here. Like being in a fairy tale.

"Did you bring what I asked last night?"

I just tilted my head, trying to digest what Jungkook asked.

" I mean clothes," he explained.

“Hm, I even bring three pairs just in case, hahaha."

"Geurae? Then do what you want," He swung his right hand as if to throw me away.

"Of course I’ll do it," I took the flat shoes that I wear and immediately ran up to the water. To be excited until I was afraid to touch that salt water with both my feet.

We played around the clock. Running here and there, chasing each other like a child, and ending lying next to each other, with eyes closed and breath shouting from exhaustion, as well as a body already drenched and sticky.

The sky reveals orange color on all sides. Sunset. Yes, we’re waiting for the sunset. This beach becomes more beautiful at dusk.

Jungkook awakens his body. Many sand is attached to his hair also his back. I followed him sat down. But then he stand up and run to his car. He wanted take something.

I looked back then stood up as Jungkook's footsteps made the beach sand give rise to rustling. There are two bottle of water in his hand. He held up one of them that was still sealed to me from afar with a smile. And I grabbed it when he was right in front of me.

"It's , if only we could spend the night here," I grumbled as I finished drinking and looked over the beach.

"If only tomorrow I have no meeting," said Jungkook wrapping his left hand on my shoulder. I laughed at him.

Yes, if Jungkook tomorrow doesn’t have to attend a meeting in his office, maybe we've put up a tent here. Ah .. it's a shame.

"Gereonde.. Why is this place so quiet? You rent it?" I asked

"Hahaha, museun soriya? I don’t have money to rent this big beach." (What are you talking about?)

We laughed together. Then stop. Long silent.

"Suji-ah," Jungkook called quietly.

"Hmm."

"This is the place."

"Hm?" My eyebrows lifted

"Wallpaper on your notebook. This is the place."

"Mwo?? Neo jigeum jangnanhae?" (What? Are you kidding now?)

"Aniyo, jinjjayeyo." (No, this is real)

"Maldo andwe." (Impossible)

I looked around again. That’s right. This is the place.

"You also told me that if someone had proposed to you in a place like this you would have accepted it."

"Ah.. t-that.. hahaha," I laughed awkwardly. Jungkook's words made my cheeks feel hot in shame.

“I was just kidding back then, hehe,” I said, while scratching my head that it doesn't itch.

"I can’t making small talk. So just go on."

Jungkook turned my body to face straight in front of him. Both hands still hang on my shoulders. And his eyes look at me sharply.

Mwo? Jigeum mwohae? (What? Now what?)

"We've been close friends since childhood. You know I like you because I've said so many times. And I also know you like me even though you never say it to me,”

The words made my eyes widen. I’m not angry. Just everything what he has said, it’s true.

"I've thought about it over and over and now I'm sure."

Jungkook reached into his pants pocket. Pulled out a small black velvet box. Then he knelt down in front of me.

Jamkkanman! (Wait!)

"Kyeorhonhae jullae?" (Will you marry me?)

Jungkook opened the little box. He showed me a ring that was perched neatly in it. Not an expensive ring with a dazzling diamond like fairy tales. Just a pretty simple silver ring.

I can only shut my mouth in surprise. Staring at the ring and Jungkook alternately. Now I can’t feel anything. It's too sudden. Just like when Jungkook took me up the mountain that time. But this time I'm happy. Too happy. Until I want to scream, but I can't.

I can see Jungkook's anxious face waiting for my reply.

"Nae!" (Yes!)

I answered almost shouting. Jungkook's face changed happily. He stood up, took the ring from his box and pinned it on my finger. Then he hugged me tight. And the tears was already wetting my cheek.

***

I stretched my hands forward. I played my fingers. I looked at the ring that Jungkook had just pinned on my finger.

I rested my head on his shoulders, and looked at the increasingly beautiful sunset. I never stop smiling. This feeling, I had never felt before. I glanced at Jungkook who was also looking forward. His hands he kept behind, supporting his body as if leaning.

The big orange round began to move like touching the sea water far across. Drowning himself slowly.

"Saranghae," Jungkook said suddenly. Makes my eyebrows raised. (I love you)

"Mwoya~" (What the heck)

Still with a smile on my face, I straightened my body. Now I'm not leaning back to him.

"You never said that word to me." I just bowed my head.

" This time can I hear it from you?"

“Saranghae, Suji-ah." Jungkook's remarks made me look at him.

"Saranghae, Lee Suji." Jungkook's eyes looked at me closely.

"Nado saranghae." (I love you too)

Finally the word came out from my lips. I could feel his breath poking in my face.

He kissed my lips. Soft. My eyes reflex closed.

I could feel a smile on his lips when I receive and started enjoying his kiss. I think I want time to stop. I don’t want this to end.

***

We're on the way home, when it was dark. The streets were silent, hardly any people because the clocks showed almost midnight.

Today was the happiest day of my life. I’m humming all the way home, pouring this happy. One of Jungkook's hand controlled the steering of the car and the others holding my left hand.

Justin Bieber's song with the title 'Nothing Like Us' from the playlist Jungkook made to accompany our journey home. Sometimes we look at each other and laugh together because I make strange notes as we sing together.

BAMM!!

Suddenly from the opposite direction, came a truck and hit our car very loud.

I felt our car spin so many times that it finally fell backwards. My ears ringing hard. Heart still beating tight when I opened my eyes. We are still in the same position because the seat belt holds our body during the shock. Everything looks upside down. I saw Jungkook covered in blood and was unconscious. The sound of ringing in my ear suddenly stopped.

"Oppa! Oppa!", I summoned him as hard as I could while crying.

I can’t remember how long had we been in the upside position until finally two ambulance cars came and seen some people around our car helping out.

***

My right leg was wrapped in a cast when I woke up after surgery.

The first thought I was thinking is about was Jungkook's condition.

The doctor was still trying to save Jungkook from the bleeding in his brain. But his life wasn’t helped after six hours himself in the operating room. I cried unbearably in my mother's arms when I heard the news.

That's right, if this doesn’t happen, me and Jungkook will be the happiest couple. But in fact, I can’t burst my anger at him who has left me.

End of flashback

It didn’t feel anymore Jungkook’s hand my head. I raised my head and looked around. The door of my workroom is open, but there’s no one in this room besides myself.

I saw white smoke still a little steaming on the surface of two cups of tea that I made earlier. Maybe it's warm now. And the sound of ‘Nothing Like Us’ song is streaming slowly from my work computer.

The memory recalled again. The longing is coming again.

The Sunset I saw, one year ago, the last sunset I saw with you.

I glance at the clock at my desk, past midnight. I took a deep breath, then closed my eyes. I pray for him, for Jungkook.

Then I sipped the warm tea and looked at another cup of tea, then smiled.

"Goodbye, Jungkook."

***