"I don't understand" Leeteuk said softly. He knew his friend would need time to adapt but he felt it was good for him to speak about the matter with someone else. 

"And I don't hope for you to do it. It's... complicated, trying to summarize it all, my brother couldn't have children himself... there was a problem with him and he asked me to donate for him" Heechul was just fine. He had prepared for this conversation long enough to keep his mood steady. 

"So... biologically speaking, the children are yours, and when it comes to ehm..." Leeteuk twisted his eyes trying to remember the word he was searching for 

"I loved my brother. I always did. He was the light of my life and my only friend... when he came to me after knowing the results of that test, I just couldn't refuse. He was so depressed... I thought he would just end his life because of that" Heechul made a pause to give time so Leeteuk could catch up 

"Ok..." Leeteuk nodded 

"They both came to ask me. My sister in law came and talked with me in a way nobody else did before. When my brother asked me... I asked him 'why me?' ... I just didn't understand it. I wasn't the healthiest person living on earth and wasn't the kindest to be honest. But she... she only smiled and said 'because it would be a pleasure to raise our kids to be like you' . I cried. I thought that my brother was asking me for my since he and I looked alike but there was a lot more involved. They loved me... and I loved them" Heechul smiled sweetly. For him, that experience changed his life. 

"They wanted the kids to be like you..." Leeteuk felt like crying from emotion. He was so touched. 

"I donated not because I felt obligated but because I wanted. Same goes about birthdays and so. I went because I wanted" Heechul smiled again

"You love them too" Leeteuk shared his smile 

"More than I ever thought I would. When I was young, I didn't want to marry or have my own children so I always thought that I would be that cool uncle that plays with his brother's kids and spoils them. When my brother asked me for my 'seed', I changed my life style... I always thought that dying when young wasn't that bad but... when I understood those kids would be 'mine' too... I wanted to live as long as possible. I wanted to see them grow up. They changed me even before they were born" Heechul giggled softly 

"I wondered why the kids looked like you. I used to stare at the pictures and compare" Leeteuk laughed 

"They turned out a lot like me. I never thought they would be little copies of me running around" Heechul laughed too 

"You are amazing" Leeteuk finally said 

"Not all the time. I still blame myself for not being there when they needed me the most. When I got notified about my brother's death, I just wanted to die too. Then, a lawyer called me and told me about the kids's custody and... even before thinking it... before changing my mind... I said I would do it" Heechul remembered those awful hours he spent riding that plane. 

"I'm glad you did" 

"The first two weeks, I think I was just 'living' on automatic mode. I was so shocked that I think one part of me just wanted to wake up and see that everything was just a bad dream. By the end of the third week, I found myself staring at baby powder for about one hour when I finally broke down and started to cry. I think it was that day I realized he wasn't coming back. I felt lonely. I cried a lot but..." Heechul made a cute expression 

"But...?" 

"I wasn't alone. When I started crying, the kids went to me and started comforting me. Sungmin even tried to clean my tears with a wet wipe" Heechul smiled remembering that sad and yet, happy moment. 

"I was so touched. I just... days before I wished they weren't real and there I realized I wasn't alone and they were probably my only hope. I cried so much they ended crying with me too" Heechul chuckled 

"I think you guys are a true family" Leeteuk hugged his friend 

"I'm so thankful they live. I'm so grateful everytime they smile" Heechul sobbed. He was so touched when he listened to the kids calling him 'daddy'. 

Leeteuk just hugged him for around five minutes. Heechul finally wiped his tears and laughed again. 

"There was a time when Ryeowook cried for a day straight without pause. I felt I was going to die, that we all were going to die. Back at that time, I was still recovering from my lost and I kept avoiding the kids as long as possible. Perhaps, I thought that if I didn't see them, they wouldn't remind me of my brother. Ryeowook cried so much... I ended going to the crib and asked him 'why?!' . I thought he might cry but instead he just laughed. Minutes later I found myself carrying him and singing a lullaby" Heechul laughed while Leeteuk seemed to be unable to catch his breath. 

"He hasn't changed that much then" Leeteuk managed to speak even without air 

"Kyuhyun... I still can't believe that he rolled his eyes when I failed putting his diaper on... and that brat, Kangin! He is exactly as troublesome I used to be when I was a teenager!. Siwon is so polite and so well mannered that sometimes I believe he is not from this family... until he wets the bed and then I remember he is indeed, my son. The triplets are so different... and somehow, each of them resemble me! " Heechul's eyes sparkled when he talked about his boys. Leeteuk was sure that even if Heechul seemed confused about his own role, there was no doubt he loved the kids. 

"... and Yesung! Man, he is so smart! He makes proud every second! I just can't stop thinking how much I enjoy watching them grow up! I could just sit the whole day just staring at them!" 

Leeteuk was about to say something when they heard a cry coming from the living room. 

"Heechul to the rescue!" Heechul shouted before running to the place where Ryeowook cried non stop 

"I don't know what happened! He was just fine!" Donghee felt guilty since he was the one watching the kids

"Wookie cry!" Donghae pointed at the crying baby 

Kyuhyun seemed irritated since his twin brother kept crying. Eunhyuk tried offering the boy several toys but he got ignored. 

"Here, here" Heechul held the boy who stopped crying almost automatically. Donghee widened his eyes. 

"He is such a spoiled brat!" Donghee exclaimed 

"He is a cute innocent angel so don't go around calling him 'brat' " Heechul stick out his tongue 

"All this fuss just because you weren't here..." Donghee laughed 

"What can I say? He loves me" Heechul smiled to the baby that just his thump with his long eyelids still wet from the tears. 

"Can I switch at least one of my son? My boys only know how to drive me crazy. I miss the old times when they were babies" Donghee teased 

"C'mon! I think Kibummie is cute enough for being your son! And Hangeng... he is just so cool!" Heechul smiled 

"Kibum...? Hangeng...?" Leeteuk tilted his head 

"My sons. Here, look at this cuties" Donghee showed him a photo of the two boys. 

"Kibummie is around Siwon's age right? " Heechul asked 

"A little older, still younger than Kangin though. Hangeng is around Yesung's age" 

"You got two cool boys, Shindong" Heechul looked at the picture while smiling 

"It would be nice if you went to visit us. They would like to see their uncle" 

"Ha ha ha. Maybe you should be the one coming... have you ever tried traveling with eight kids?" 

"Nope" 

"Neither do I, but it must be hard" Heechul laughed 

"I bet my boys can't remember you. It's been a while" 

"No big deal, they will remember me after they come to play with them" Heechul stared at the triplets that just found a new way to hit each other with a balloon 

Leeteuk kept staring at the picture. He had never seen them before so he thought Donghee would be right when he said 'it's been a while'. Heechul barely spoke about his family except his sons, of course. 

"I know what you are thinking but I swear those aren't mine" Heechul whispered in a playful way

"Idiot" Leeteuk smiled before hitting Heechul with the picture 

"Hangeng is adopted" Heechul continued 

"Hey!" Donghee complained 

"Everybody knows it!" 

"But he doesn't! Don't go around telling him he is adopted!" Donghee worried 

"Why not?" Heechul provoked 

"Then it's ok if I tell Yesung and Kangin they are yours?" 

"" Heechul frowned annoyed. He didn't want that. Not yet. 

"The 'F' world!" Eunhyuk pointed out 

"No, no. I said 'Duck'" Heechul tried 

"I think I should get going. My wife will get mad if I don't make it on time for lunch" Donghee stretched 

"Oh~ too bad" Heechul pouted 

"Anyway, it was a pleasure to see you are doing ok. Keep going! You are doing a 'ducking' good job with them!" 

"Just wait, Shindong! Your kids are going to love me more than you!" Heechul shouted 

"I thought your brother's name was Donghee" 

"We call him Shindong for fun" Heechul explained 

"Bye bye, be sure to invite me to your wedding!" Shindong waved from the entrance 

"W-wedding? Are you marrying?" Leeteuk blushed 

Heechul was red from anger. He just ran and chased Shindong until he was far away and he couldn't follow his pace. 

"T-then?" Leeteuk asked nervously 

"Teuk, I'm not marrying! He just insinuated we were a couple!" Heechul stomped his feet 

"..." Leeteuk blushed deeply 

"The 'S' word!" Eunhyuk clapped excited 

"He said 'sheep' " Heechul once again, did his best to preserve his Boys innocence 

"I wonder what animal will come out when you realize it's already time to pick the kids from school" Leeteuk chuckled 

"The whole farm is going to come out" Heechul shut his eyes trying to calm 

"Had an acciwent!" Donghae shouted 

"Why isn't the floor wet?" Leeteuk worried 

"What kind of 'accident'?" Heechul blinked thrice in less that a second 

"I pooped" Donghae bit his fingers 

"I'm out! I need to pick the kids from school!" Heechul excused himself quickly 

"Duck" Leeteuk sighed as he took the boy with him to the bathroom.