Reality was sometimes a real . I learnt that from experience. I couldn't be myself in front of the cameras, people were always ready to judge and criticise, ready to point their finger against you.

I knew that. I wasn't free to even post photos with my friends because they would start to call me names.

I don't even remember when things started being like this, maybe it has always been like this since my debut.

With time I learnt to not care. I knew what people said was not true, I knew who I was and most importantly my friends, people around me knew who I was.

Jiyong knew, too.

He, too like me knew how harsh reality could be. He never left my side, we were always together in every bad or good situation.

But, there were times when I just couldn't take it anymore. All the hate and the pain I endured for all these years would sometimes resurface from where I had hid them.

And it was even more painful than before.

That was when Jiyong decided to take a journey, just the two of us.

Our friends only knew we would leave for a period of time, no one knew where we would go or when we would be back.

It was just us, without the reality to interfere, at least for a short period of time.

Those journey really did great to both of us. After returning we would always better and ready to face all the pain and sadness we left behind.

We both lived for those journeys, our escape from reality.