My friends and I were having our usual smokes during lunch on the rooftop. But I don't smoke. I always watch them and wonder how would their lungs look like when they get older. 

I was chewing the last of my chicken in my usual corner when the door opened. No one comes up here usually during lunch because of us. I wonder who is it. 

"O-oh. Sorry for disturbing," she said, and closed the door quickly. I scoffed. 

It was her. Kim Somin. 

I so badly wanted to go outside and talk to her but I can't. My body won't react. 

Was it because of my reputation? That I had to keep up to my name of Kim "colder than ice" Yugyeom? 

I wanted so much for this desire in me to keep my reputation to be gone. I don't care if my friends ridicule me afterwards, I wanted to be myself without anyone's judgment.