[SEOKMIN]

he is a fool for not understanding any better
he's suppose to be happy for them for being together, but he can't when one of em' is hurting
he's suppose to be happy
he never knew how it would feel to be left out, but just watching his hyung made him feel,
he was suppose to be the one being able to cheer his hyung up, but after receiving a sad smile and a rub on his head
as a reply made him realize he can't literally make him happy,
after what they have done,
........
for what has been an hour or so, he slowly got up to where everyone has been wanting to go,
to check on jisoo,
he lowly announced his leaving,
he retreats to the hall leading towars his room,
as he hestianlty touches the door,  he pressing his ears to hear what is going on from the inside,
nothing but quietness
he pushes himself away from the door and leans to the wall,
deciding if he should go in or not,
...  go in ...
as he was about to touch the door knob, someone from the inside opens the door

dino

dino comes out, upon seeing him, he notices the change in the latter face,
not knowing what to say, he just stands there,
taking in their maknaes appearance, guilt suddenly makes its way
but of course dino acts first as he suddenly shooves him away, making him hit the wall,
a gesture seokmin came to a term to fully understand what it meant
stay away from jisoo hyung
.............
soekmin hears footstep from the living room making its way towards them,
he looks up to dino who shoved him to the wall,
but only to see him walking back in to the room he came out of,
hearing a click from the inside indicated that dino locked the door,
making it known that he was not allowed even when he literally shares the same room

as Jihoon appears along with seungcheol and vernon,
damn ... he can only think to himself
seokmin looks back to the door as he hears another click and the opening,
only this time revealing wonwoo,

seokmin doesn't know wether to be jealous or not, but seeing wonwoo taking sides
made seokmin regret is words that day,
he wish he had not say anything
but nothing can be fixed anymore,
he see's wonwoo glaring at the three, but soften it when he looks at seokmin
he throw a set of keys to seokmin as he stands up,

seokmin doesn't do anything, knowing he is going to spend another night in mingyu's room with jihoon and hoshi,

again

he doesn't know if he should complain or not,
if he should tell them to get out of his room and tell jisoo to man up,
seungcheol and jeonghan are not the only man living,

but he can not do that when he is in the same position as jisoo,
he does not realize a par of eyes staring at him
intensely from afar within the hallway,

he is to be busy looking at the keys wonwoo threw to him,
he looks up to jihoon who can do nothing but pat his shoulders as he knows what is going on,

he says nothing but smiles in response,
a smile that does not reach his eyes, but no one say anything,
wonwoo goes back into the room, fully aware that seungcheol is here,
seokmin goes straight to to mingyu's room, leaving jihoon and seungcheol and vernon in the hallway,
...................

he knows that mingyu and wonwoo knows about his little secret
that is why he know why wonwoo gave him the key to his room,
because he was there
seokmin can only laugh to himself,

"karma is really a " he told himself that

he arrives to the room, knowing that no one is inside he takes the chance to enter,
he doesn't know why they keep their door lock, it does not make sense,
but he does not question it,
he is in no possiton to,
so he silently goes in, locking himself in once he enters,
going straight to mingyu's bed,
as he let his memories returns of that day

...........................

Dino has every right to be mad at them, he warned us and specifcly told us not to do it,
but seokmin knew why they didn't listen,
they were to excited....
seokmin remembered the first time dino punched him,
no one saw it coming, not even seungcheol or jeonghan,
not even him,
dino went after vernon and seungkwan after only to retreat to his room,
where he shares with jisoo and seungkwan,
not a later to soon mingyu arrived and pushed everyone away,
he recalled mingyu yelling at dino to open,
after mingyu came in wonwoo, who only gave us a nod and went after mingyu and dino,

it didn't make sense at first until, wonwoo came out from the room later that day only to reveal jisoo,
who is hugging his knees and crying

crying...
seokmin never saw jisoo cry until now,
heck he didn't even see him come in or arrived.

he remembered dino whispering to him and how mingyu sat there and hug him,
..
he can only feel sorry for himself,
he felt guilty after confronting jisoo, and telling him off,
only to get punched again, only this time was from mingyu,
he was suppose to make his friends happy,
he was suppose to be that undertanding friend, who is there for eveyone when they needed a shoulder to cry on,

but instead, he gets punched in the face for not being able to understand his friends pain,
the torture of watching two people you love,
love each other everyday, as he can do nothing but just watch silently,
Seokmin never knew how that felt, till he felt it himself
....................

he remembered once apologizing to jisoo,
he forgave him, but it did not satisfy him,
he wanted jisoo to know how sorry he is but he can't
he knows what he must do,
he's a fool
he really is .....

seokmin is fool for not understaning any better