"Tae..........i can't breathe Tae" 
I could feel his warm chest upon me.His heart beating fast against my palm. 
"Goddammit Tae you are heavy! get off!" , I cried gasping for air.
"Aaah sorry" , his heavy voice rang against my ear.

He sat up beside me rubbing his ankle.
"Does it hurt?" , i asked
"Does my twisted ankle hurt!?", his sarcastic tone irritates me every time, "well off course it doesn't."
"ugghhh" 
I stood up, a slight sting ran down my left arm.
"can you get up?"
"yeah" 
he held out his hand, i pulled him up and let him lean against my shoulder.
"Gosh you really are heavy"
"Shut up Yuki , I'm hurt. You should be more considerate"
"And whose fault is that exactly? Idiot."
"Well at least i landed on my own personal soft cushion" 
"tch.. I'm not your cushion!"
" Haha. But you are mine" , he laughed while pulling my cheeks.
" Yeah right."
We walked towards the infirmary, Tae leaning I me, limping all the way.

                                               ~•~•~

"OWW OWW OWW" 
"Oh god Tae you are not a kid!"
"But it hurts man!"
"tch"
Tae went on screaming like a five year old as the school nurse bandaged his sprained foot.
"It's just a mild sprain, no need to worry. Now Yuki San you stay here for a moment will you. I have to run to the teacher's room real quick."
"Hai sensei."

As sensei left the room Tae gave out a loud sigh, "Laugh all you want"
"Why?"
"Because i was behaving like a child, you must find it amusing. Laugh away"
"pffft. Tae , you are such a child. Don't worry. It doesn't matter"
"Really? Yuki you're the best"
"I know that. Now let's go. I don't wanna miss another period"

In an attempt to get up, Tae grabbed my arm. The sharp sting ran down again, this time it hurt, a lot. Involuntarily I removed my arm from his grasp.
"What happened?"
"Nothing.I think i hurt my hand when you fell on me."
"What! show me!"
Tae gently rolled up my sleeves. I noticed a slight blue tinge on my skin. A slight bruise.
"Aah that's why it hurt."
"I'm sorry Yuki."
"What? why are you apologising? It's alright." i said giving out a light laugh.
"No. you got hurt because of me. I'm so sorry"
"Dude seriously........"
He cupped my face with his hands. "Yuki...."

I never noticed, Taehyung has such nice hands, warm and big and comforting. 
I felt a weird tingling sensation in my stomach.
I felt uneasy.
I freed myself from Taehyung's hands. 
"Really, Tae it's alright. It'll heal in a day. Don't be so hyped up dude."  
I laughed, desperately trying to change this weird atmosphere.
"Alright let's go" Tae broke into the awkward silence.

                                                   ~•~•~
 

 "Hey, Taehyung?"
"Hmm?"
"Why don't you try this out!"
As we walked passed the notice board, something caught my attention.
"Big. Hit. Entertainment......", he read out, "The hell! you want me to participate in some ty singing competition? Are you for real!" , Tae laughed, an underlying sarcastic tone was prominent, at least to me.
"Tch. Dude, you are such a wonderful singer.You can win, I'm sure. Also if you win , you'll get to be a trainee."
"You think i sing well?"
"Mhhmm"
"Do you believe i can do it?"
"Yes off course."
"That's all i need to know. I'm happy with that."
"Ewww, what are you a shoujo MC? that's so cheesy."
"Hahahaha."
He started to walk.
"Tae."
"Let's go Yukicchi, or we'll be late."
"Ugghhh , don't call me that!"

                                                  ~•~•~

"Umm.... Yuki senpai........."
An underclassman came to me one day.
"C-can I talk to you?"
"Yeah sure"
"Alone?" 
He looked at Tae, who was busy talking about previous night's game with the other boys.
"Oh, okay. Let's go"
"You're a sophomore right?"
"Ye-yes" 
The guy was extremely shy.
So cute.

"So tell me."
"Umm...Senpai, I a-actually wanted to give you this."
He handed out a Letter.
With a heart on top?
The hell?
Is this a love letter?
Why would he give that to me?
He likes me?
"errr, could you give this to Ku-Kuroo senpai?"
His face flushed. He handed me the letter and ran away.

"Pfffffft" 
I looked around, Tae was there leaning against the wall.
"Shut up Tae" I frowned.
The first time someone gave me a letter and it wasn't even for me.Talk about bad luck.
"Hey I didn't say anything"
"Why are you here anyway?"
"I saw you leaving. So I thought something amusing might happen."
He saw me? 
"And i was right!", he continued.
"Tch. Get Lost"
"Oh don't pout" he chuckled, "You'll meet someone.....oneday"
"Heh"
"Maybe", he burst out laughing.
Involuntarily i punched him.
"Owwwww!!That hurt!"
"Then stop saying stupid things"

He put his arm around my shoulder , "Hey, don't worry. Even if you can't get anyone, You'll have me". He winked.
"Eww, who'd ever want you?"
I pushed him away and went back to class.

                                                  ~•~•~

My life took an unexpected turn when he came along.Like a perfect Shoujo Manga.He even looked like a Shoujo character.
Tall.
Broad shoulders.
Big Hands.
Black Hair with short bangs covering his forehead.
Glasses.
GLASSES!

I had a thing for megane guys. My manga knowledge taught me that meganes are mostly calm and composed and Kind.Loves to read.

"Hey!"
Taehyung's voice startled me.
"What do you want?"
"What are you looking at?"
My attention got back to the megane guy at the cafe counter.
"My crush" , I blurted out.
"Eh?"
Realising what I've done, my face went red.
"N-nothing"

"Crush eh?" he gave me a creepy look.
Here comes the taunting.
"Where?"
"Hey, I said it's nothing"

The megane guy, whose name i was yet to know, worked at the nearby cafe. I saw him the time I went there with Kuroo.
It felt so weird.I got flustered just by looking at him.
Crush?
I guess so.
Love?
Maybe.

Taehyung noticed me looking at him and being the bastard he is called out to him.
He came forward.
*Ba-dump*
"Hello, I'm Jimin,  I'll be serving you today"
*Ba-dump*
Jimin, such a nice name.
"What would you like to order?"
"I-uh-I-ummmmm" , I stuttered like an idiot.
Jimin chuckled.
*BA-DUMP*
. So embarrassing.
"We'll have two coffee, one black and one milk, sugar on the side",Tae interrupted.
"Very well" , Jimin smiled.
*ba-dump*
His smile's so adorable! 

                                                 ~•~•~

I became a regular customer at the cafe. Whenever i went out with my friends, o suggested this cafe and being super affordable, everyone always agreed. (Lucky)
Everyone except for Tae. He always has a different opinion. Though he'd end up going with us.
 
                                                 ~•~•~

" Yuki? ",Tae asked sipping his coffee.
"hmmm?"
"Why do you come to the same cafe all the time?"
I stopped doing my homework and put down my pen.
"What? Isn't it obvious?"
I looked at Jimim, busy working at the tables.
"What's there to like about him?"
"You won't ....."

"Hello" , Jimin came along, smiling like an angel."Would you like anything else?"
"No.", Tae answered.
Dammit Tae
*Ba-dump*
"I-ummmm, A glass of water please."
"But you already have one." 
Tch. Tae.
"I-I need another one."
"Very well", Jimin smiled and went away. A few moments later he came back with the water.
In an attempt to take the glass, I spilled my coffee on my Jeans.

WHAT THE HELL.

"Oh, miss that needs to be cleaned" , Jimin looked at me, "Follow me."
*Ba-dump*
I followed him to the Wash basins, He gave me tissues.
As i was cleaning he asked,
"I see you here every now and then."
"ummmm yeah, I like this place. The food is nice. And so is the service."
"Oh, good to hear about the service."
"Hehe."
"Umm...Miss..."
"Yuki"
"Huh?"
"My name, It's Yuki."
"That's a pretty name."
"Yeah, it was the day of the first snow when I was born"
"Wow  that's so cool!" he continued, "So you are in highschool?"
Is he trying to keep the conversation going?
"Yup, Senior year. What about you Jimin san?
"Call me Jimin. I'm a first year college student.Majoring in Performance arts"
"Oh my god! that's awesome."
He chuckled.Ghaaaa he's so cute.Like a little mochi. I wanna hug him.

"What's taking you so long?",Tae came along.
Talk about Bad timing.
He looked at Jimin. A weird look.
"Yuki let's go."
He got hold of my hand and dragged me away.Outside the cafe.
"The bill........"
"I've paid for both of us."

Tae kept dragging me without uttering a single word.
My hand began to hurt.
"Tae"
no reply.
"Tae!"
no reply.
"KIM TAEHYUNG!"
"WHAT?"
"What do you mean 'what'? What are you doing?"
"I DUNNO!"
"You're acting weird Tae. I'm going home."

                                                   ~•~•~

*Ping*
T: Hey.
Y: Tae.
Y: What happened?
Y: What was all that about?
T: Nothing.
Y: Tae. Tell me.
T: I'm sorry.
Y: No need to apologize.
Y: Tell me what happened?
T:
Y:
T:
Y: Tae?
T: Hmm?
Y: Tell me. please.
T: 
T: Tomorrow
T: Lunch break
T: Rooftop
T: Be there.
Y: Okay.

                                                 ~•~•~

Next day, Tae seemed distant. He didn't talk to me. He just wished me good morning.
"*sigh*~ what's gotten into this boy!"

*Rrrrrrring*

It was finally lunch break.
Tae got up from his seat and went out.

Assuming that he went to the rooftop, i quickly put my things away and went there.
I opened the door.
Empty.
"Tae?" 
no reply.
"Ah maybe he's late. I'll wait."
.
.
.
.
*grrrrr*
"Aaahhh! I'm hungry. Where's Tae!!"
I got up.
Climbing down the stairs i saw Tae. Surrounded by girls.
Huh? When did he become so popular? 
I never knew.

"Hey Taehyung-kun, are you busy right now?" one of them asked.
"Not really" , Tae's deep voice struck me.

Not really?
What is he talking about?
Weren't we supposed to meet?
Did he forget about that?

I felt so pissed off at Tae , that I left without saying a word. Making sure Tae didn't see me.

                                               ~•~•~

"Yuki."
"What is it Tae?"
"I'm sorry I got caught up. Sensei called me."
" *softly* Off course he did."
"Huh?"
"Nothing. I couldn't go either. I had work to do. So we're even."
I smiled, without looking him into the eye. 
I wonder what kind of face he made.

"Umm...Wanna go out and grab something to eat?"
"Ah, Tae I'm sorry, I have plans with Kuroo Chan."
"Oh. Alright. Tomorrow then."
"Yeah, maybe"

                                                 ~•~•~

Things have become so awkward with Tae and I still didn't understand the reason. Was it something I did? Was it because of Jimin? But we were just talking.

"Hi Yuki Chan. You're all alone today."
Jimin came along. His angelic smile always brightens up my mood.
"Ah yes."
"Your boyfriend. Where is he ?"
"Boyfriend? Tae? No No No! He's not my boyfriend!" I almost shouted, "He's my *slowly* Friend, Best Friend."
"Oh. Sorry"
"It's alright" , I could feel my cheeks becoming hot.
"It's a shame though. You guys looked good together."
"Heeeh!" 
"Yup. Anyway what would you like? The regular?"
"Yes please"

"Yuuuki~~~"
"Ah Kuroo, you're late."
"Sorry , club"
"Alright"
"So tell me. wait lemme get something first"
"hmmm"
"Jimin Senpai!"

Heh?

"Kuroo, welcome. Orange juice without ice, I suppose?"

They are calling themselves on first name basis?
They know each other?
How?
Why?

"You know me."

He knows her? How?
I looked up at Jimin.
Had his cheeks always been this red? Is he blushing?

I felt a slight tightness in my chest.

"You guys know each other?"
"Jimin senpai? Yes. We were in the same middle school."
"Oh"
"You guys seem...... close."
"I guess so. Senpai was always popular, back in middle school as well. I was one of the few girls who didn't follow him around.Also we were in the same club. So we became friends."
"Oh."

*Ba-dump*

"Kuroo chan, you seem happy"
"Hmm? Yeah. We were really good friends back then. I met him again after 4 yrs."
"Huh? You didn't keep contact?"
"Yeah I did. But, you know before entering highschool i lost my phn and had to change my number. And i lost his contact ID as well."
"Sad."
"Yeah. But see i met him after so many years. He's still the same."
Her face flushed.
*Ba-dump*
"Kuroo?" I paused, "You like him right?"
*ba-dump* 
"Wha-? Wha-?? N-no"
Her expression said other wise.She was red ear to ear.
"Pfft. Kuroo chan. You are blushing. Tell me."

*ba-dump*

"I guess a-a little."
*ba-dump*
"A little?" i smirked, trying hard not to show my sad expression.
"N-no. A lot. I've always liked him.But I never got to say it. Or i could have ruined our friendship. He liked me only because i didn't throw myself on him like the others."
"I beg to differ."
"How do you know?"

 I looked behind her. Her eyes followed me. Jimin was standing there. His cheeks were as red as an apple. He was cluelessly looking at Kuroo. 
Kuroo Flustered.
"Why didn't you tell me??" she whispered.
I smirked.
Sipping the last bit of coffee, i got up. 
I walked passed Jimin. 
*Ba-dump*
I retraced my path a little.
I put my hand on Jimin's shoulder. He was so warm, it hurt.
"go!" I whispered while giving Jimin a push.

As Jimin moved forward. I walked straight out of the cafe, without looking back. My chest hurt, but i somehow I felt relieved.

I moved forward.

                                                   ~•~•~

I was standing on the Foot bridge. I loved that place. My world stood still as I could feel time passing by.
"So i guess", I thought to myself, "Love's not meant for me."
Suddenly I felt like laughing.
"Dammit! I should be crying!"
My chest hurt. I could feel my body going light.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"  
I could feel my pent up frustration blow away with the wind.

"Ah, that felt good."

I feel so alone.

Where's Tae when I need him.

I laughed at my situation.

"Pathetic."

"Yuki?"

That voice.
That deep voice.
My knees went weak.
My insides went numb.

"Yuki!"

I couldn't look at him.

"Where have you been! Goddammit!"

I tried hard not to face him.

"I've been looking everywhere for you."

stop talking.

" Why aren't you picking up your phone?"

Please.

"Namikaze said you went home from the cafe but you weren't there!"

please.

"YUKI!" He caught my arm and pulled me.

Dammit he's in front of me.

"Yuki, what happened? Look at me"

I can't.

He cupped my face.He really does have big hands. 

And without realising I started to cry.

Tae didn't say a single word. He put his arms around me. He's so warm. It's comforting. I felt safe and secure. I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Shhh." , he finally spoke, "Why are you crying? It's just a crush right? It's not like you fell in love with him."

I tightened my around his waist.

"You know, if you squeeze me like that, I might die."

"pffft. Shut up."

He put his hand over my head. 

"I told you, it's alright. Stop crying already. My shirts getting wet." he chuckled.

He held me like that for a while. my head gently.
I could hear his heart beating fast. 
Why was it beating so fast?
eventually i stopped crying.
.
.
.
.

"Tae......"

"Hmmm?"

"You can let me go now."

"Oh yeah. Sorry." He let me go. He had such a confused look on hus face, he actually looked cute.

I laughed.

"Thanks Tae", I looked him into the eye , "Thank you for being there."

He looked so surprised.

Suddenly he came forward. He cupped my face yet again and pressed his lips onto mine. 

"mmmmh!"

He didn't move.He kept pressing his lips.

He had such soft lips. 

"mmmh!"

Our lips parted. 
He took a breath.
I could even smell the mint he keeps on eating.

Then he kissed me again. 
His grip got stonger as he pressed his mouth onto mine.

My knees went weak and I almost fell down.

Finally Tae let me go and left a faint taste of mint lingering behind.

I couldn't utter a single word , i just Cluelessly looked at him.

"Sorry" , he spoke, "But you looked way to cute."

cute?

"Don't show that kind of expression to anyone else."

He gently pulled me up. I still felt weak.
He held my hand as we walked down the road.
He didn't say anything else.
The walk seemed long and awkwardly quiet.
We reached my house.
He let go of my hand.

As i went in, he turned to go away.

"Umm Yuki?"
"Yeah?"
"You remember that Competition thing? You told me to participate in?"
"Bighit? yeah."
"Well i got selected for the final round. That's why Sensei called me that day."
"WHAT? When did you even participate? Why didn't you tell me?"
.................
"Anyway when's the final?"
"It's a week from now. But no one's allowed to visit."
"Oh."
"Yeah. So.......... I'll take my leave."
"Huh? Yeah."
"Yuki?"
"Yes?"
"Good night"
"good night Tae. Be careful."
"Yup."

                                               ~•~•~

I finally laid on my bed.
It was an awfully long day.
What the hell just happened?
Why did Tae........?

*Ba-dump*

Tae?

*Ba-dump*

I put my fingers on my lower lip.
A kiss?

My chest hurt.

Why did he do that?
Was it just to comfort me?

' Don't ever show that expression to anyone '

Tae's voice rang in my head.
Such a lovely voice.
*ba-dump*

Why did he say that though?

For some reason i did not hate it.
Was it because it was Tae?
But why didn't it feel weird?

I spent the night rolling on my bed. occasionally touching my lips.

Why Tae?

                                                ~•~•~

*Bang Bang Bang*
My alarm started to blast my ears out. (Yes my alarm tone is Big Bang's BangBangBang.)

"Ugghhhhh"
Fighting my urge to go back to sleep i looked at the clock.

"SHOOT!"

I was late. In an attempt to get out of bed, i fell down.
*THUD*
.
.
.
.
.
.

"It's just a sprain", mum said, "It'll get better in a day or two."

Great. Two days, I'm stuck inside my house.

                                                  ~•~•~

"Yukj Chan? what happened to your leg? 
"Aah, Kuroo. Nothing , just a mild sprain."
"You should take care of yourself."
"Hai."

I limped into the class. Tae was sitting in his chair reading a book.
'Tae also has reading glasses.' I thought to myself. 'And he kinda looks cute wearing them.'
*Ba-dump*
What the hell?
I knew all along about his reading glasses, so why was I feeling this way?

Weird.

As i walked in, Tae looked up. Our eyes met.
"H-hey Tae."
"Yo."
He went back to reading.

Yo?
Just a plain 'yo'? 
After what happened!
Did he forget about 'that' or something?!

I sat down in my seat.
Tae put his book down and turned towards me.

"So...?"
" 'So' what?"
"Your leg. What happened?"
"Oh. I fell down from my bed" I put my hand behind my head,kinda embarrassed.
"Pfffft." Tae burst out laughing, "You're so clumsy."
"Get lost."

He paused.Looked at me. And we both started to laugh.
Just like before. Everything felt so normal.

After school ended I went to see Tae.
"Hey, can we talk for a moment, over coffee or something?"
"Umm...Yuki sorry I'm kinda busy today. You know with the audition and all."
"Oh yeah it's perfectly fine. Later"
"Hmm."

3 days. 
3 days passed and I still didn't sort out that mess.

For the next Two days Tae didn't come to school.
I supposed he was busy with the auditions so I didn't bother him by calling.
I just left a message wishing"All the best" and he replied with a "Thanks".

                                                  ~•~•~

"Yuuki"
"hmmm"
"YUKI!"
"Yeah? What?"
"What's wrong with you? Are you even listening?"
"Sorry.I was lost in thoughts."

She put her hand on mine.
"Hey, what's the matter? You know you can tell me right?"
"Yes."

Kuroo shifted her attention towards Jimin now...
She looked cheerfully towards him. He smiled back.
Angelic as ever.
Now thay they've officially started dating, they looked happier.

"You know....."
"What?"
"Nothing......"
"Is it Taehyung?"
"Wha-? H-How'd you know?"
Kuroo laughed, "You know Yuki, I've know you for a while now. I know what'ss bothering you. Now you tell me ?"
"Well.............."
I told Kuroo what happened that day , leaving behind the fact that i was crying over her Boyfriend.
"Hmmm......So much happened and i got to know about it now."
"Uhh... Sorry."
"It's alright. Now tell me Do you like him?"
"Huh? What? He's my best friend. So......"
"Do you hate him?"
"NO!"
"Do you feel happy whenever he's around you?"
"Kinda.Yes"
"Okay. Now what happened the other days, Did it feel disgusting? Or did it creep you out?
"I wouldn't say it like that. It was, not bad. I mean he's a good kisser and........"
Suddenly I realised what i was saying and i flustered.
Kuroo laughed.
"You're so cute."

"Hey guys", Jimin came smiling, "Anything else?"
"Hey Jimin", I said, "Can i get another pineapple juice?"
"Right away." 
He looked at Kuroo and gave a cute little smile and went away, leaving Kuroo blushing like an idiot.

Love is so cute.

"How'd you know that you love him?
"Huh? well.......you know......." Kuroo turned red, "He makes me happy. I mean whenever I'm with him, i feel good.And warm and secure........ Oh god i sound so cheesy." Kuroo burst out laughing.

"It's fine" , i replied....

'Warm and Secure huh?'

I remembered all the hugs Tae and I shared. Sure its felt warm and cozy. His arms are big. It's comfortable.
I remembered all the time i got scared, he'd hug me till I calmed down.

I remembered the time we went to the scary house, he held my hand all the way just because i was scared.

I remembered whenever i got sick, Tae would come over just after school with my favourite chocolate and promised to treat me if i got well quickly (which he never did , btw).

I remembered whenever I got insane ideas to go out on short trips for rock hunts, he'd always accompany me.
'I can't leave you alone', his voice rang.

His voice. I love his voice.I always have.
Whenever he's singing, i get goosebumps.
His deep ,  sensual voice could make anyone fall for him.

Anyone? 
Including me?

*ba-dump*

I looked at Kuroo. 
Does she feel the same way?
Does her heart hurt when she's thinking about Jimin ,  just the way it hurts when I think about Tae?

*ba-dump*
.
.
.
Is this what love is?
.
.
.
Am I really in love with him?
.
.
.
Taehyung's face flashed in front of me.
His eyes.
His nose with that cute mole.
His lips.
His hands.
His neck.
.
.
.
.
.
I buried my head inside my hands..

                                       ~Maybe I was~

                                                 ~•~•~

Kuroo gave me a lot of advice and I decided to confess to Tae.

'Day after tomorrow' , I thought to myself, ' I'll confess to him.'

Next day at school Taehyung came in late. He skipped the first two periods too.... 
He never does that.

He looked tired.
He was sleepy.

During lunch I went up to the terrace to eat. I wanted to be alone for a while, and maybe prepare what to say to Tae.

I settled down on the floor with the juice box in my hand.
I heard the door open.

So much for being alone.Tch.

"Hey", Tae popped out of nowhere
"H-Hey", seeing Tae made my heart beat fast.
I could feel blood rushing to my cheeks...It became hot.

He sat down beside me , "GhaAaa I'm so tired."
"What happened?"
"I wanna sleep", He suddenly put his head on my lap.

*badump*
*badump*
*badump*

My heart was going haywire.

Soon he fell asleep.

He had such a beautiful face. 
I cupped his face using one hand, "Pretty".

His face looked so calm. He slept on my lap like a baby.
I Caressed his soft orange-brown hair.

"I love you", I whispered and then i flustered.

We stayed like that till the bell rang.

After school i went to see Tae.
"Ummm Tae?"
"Hey. ssup?"
"Are you like free? Tomorrow evening?"
"I guess so.Why?"
"I need to talk."
"If it's important , we can talk no-"
"No! Tomorrow."
"Okay weirdo." He pocked my forehead and went away.

'Tomorrow'

                                                 ~•~•~

I couldn't sleep properly.
Damn the things they write in shoujo mangas, those things I thought were girly and weird , actually happen.

Next morning i got up and got ready for school.
I even applied a slight eye makeup and straightened my hair a bit. 

The things we do when in love.
If it were the old me, i would certainly have dissed myself.

I entered class Tae was sitting in his usual place.
I sat down in my seat.

As class was going on, Tae sent a piece of paper over.

'Are you sick?'
'No. Why?'
'Are you sure?'
'Yes'
'Then what the hell is wrong? The makeup and ? You're being a weirdo lately.'
'Get lost'

We looked at each other and laughed, which led the teacher to scold us.

Tae passed another paper.

'You look cute though.'

*Ba-dump*

My heart started beating fast.
I flustered and looked away towards the Black board.

As the day proceeded I grew impatient. I wanted to tell him soon.
I wanted to see the face he'd make , I wanted to hear his voice , i wanted to know how he feels about me.

 
During the last period, our homeroom teacher called for Tae.
I wonder what he did again. lol.

                                                    ~•~•~

After school I waited for him in class.

"Yuki! Gambatte", Kuroo whispered and went away giving a smile.

"Yuki"
"Oh Tae."
"Yeah, let's go?"
"Alright."

I picked up my bag and followed him.
We went to the park. We were walking side by side.

"So. Ummm........", Tae suddenly said.
His voice was deep, sounded serious.
"Yes?"
"I need to tell you something."

*Ba-dump*

"What?"
"Well.....you know teacher called me today?"
"During Biology class? Yes."
"Yeah. So he told me that....."
"What Tae?"
"Well, I WON!! I GOT SELECTED TO BE A TRAINEE AT BIGHIT!!!"

He jumped and hugged me tight.

My heart froze. 
I was so happy for him, but i knew winning this would mean he'd go away.
My chest hurt.
I could feel my body going numb.

Tae looked so happy, it hurt.
Was i this selfish?

Before i knew it my tears started to fall.

"Why are you crying?"

I put my hands around him and hugged him.

"I'm so happy for you Tae." I lied.

"Silly girl", he said laughing.

He put his hand on my head.
I held him tightly.

We remained like that for a while.

"So, Seoul huh?"

"I'm gonna miss you so much Tae."

"Me too." 
He pulled apart from the hug and kissed my forehead.
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.
.
We were sitting on the park bench.
My chest still hurt.
But i had to put up a happy face in front of him.

"So. When do you leave?"
"In Four days."
"So soon?"
"Yeah, need to fill up some formalities. Dad's gonna send my stuff later."
"Oh."

"Say, Yuki, you wanted to tell me something right? What was it?"
"Oh nothing important."
"You sure?"
"Yup." I looked up to his face and smiled.

It was all quiet for a while.
Neither of us uttered a word.
We just sat there side by side.
Tae held onto my hand all along.
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"So", I finally broke the silence, "It's getting late. I should head home."
"Aah yes , I'll drop you home."
"No need. It's a very special day, Go to your parents. They need you now."
"Are you sure?"
"Absolutely. And moreover i need to get accustomed to you not being here."
Damn, what am I saying.
Tae looked at me and gave a smile.
My heart sunk.
"Bye."
I turned around and started to walk.
I went away without looking back.

That night I cried myself to sleep.
When I woke up, my pillow was still wet.

The next few days , remained in my room.
Tae didn't call either.
Maybe he's busy with packing and all.

                                                   ~•~•~

It was finally time for Tae to leave.

I wasn't ready to say goodbye to him. I never could be.

At the airport I saw Tae saying goodbye to his family.
He saw me and ran towards me.
He hugged me tightly and whispered into my ears, "I'm gonna miss you the most. love you Yuki."

"Love you too." 

I really wanted to tell 'this' to him the other day, and now it that I really did, it felt so empty and sad.

He kissed me on the cheek , "Bye."

"Bye Tae."

He turned around and went inside the Airport.

                                               ~•~•~

It's been Four years since Tae left.

We used to text each other quite often in the beginning.

He'd text me saying how tiring the day was or what he learned , How great Seoul was or how awesome the food was.

As days passed the number of messages exchanged, reduced.
We'd talk once a week.
Training was hard. 
Tae grew tired more often.
We couldn't talk as much.

He trained at Bighit for Two years and debuted with a group named BTS.
They got quite famous as well.

He'd text me before any big concerts.

But as time passed, his messages stopped coming.
It was just forwarded new year's messages and birthday wishes now.
Being an idol is hard i guess.

BTS  got super famous in a very short time.
I see girls swooning over the 7 guys everyday.

It's fun to watch tbh.

I laugh to myself.
I am the best friend of Kim Taehyung of BTS.
No.
I'm the best friend of Tae.

I'm a fangirl of Kim Taehyung.
No.
I love Tae.

Like every other fangirl I buy all of their Albums and merchs.
I regularly check out their videos and vote for them.

But I've never attended any one of their concerts let alone a fansign.

It's for the best I suppose. :3