Farewell
Forbidden LoveI'm sorry Taeyeon. I really am.
It's so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.
It's not a mental complaint, it's a physical thing. It's hard to open your mouth and make words come out.
I wanted to talk to you.
To hug you,
And cry on your shoulder.
I couldn't and blame me for keeping all it to myself. Call me selfish, even shout after me.
It's so hard Taeyeon. I'm hurt enough and believe me, it's not bearable. I don't want you to get hurt too.
I'm sorry Taeyeon. I ruined your life. I couldn't fight for you, for us.
There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.
The only thing I have is you. You are my everything.
But how would I continue breathing if I'm the reason of your wounds?
If I knew that yesterday would be the last day that I could see the sunset in your arms, then I would never let go.
I guess you could say this is my goodbye;
I can't continue anymore.
I'm sorry.
You would understand if you were in my position,
But you're not,
So you won't.
Live a full and happy life;
Forget me;
Move on.
This is the here and now.
I may be gone, but you're not.
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