I sometimes feel flattered when I find out some girls find, me attractive. It means I’m good looking, which is generally a good thing.

The only problem is I’m a girl too.

I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not the girl-ist female out there. I know my hair is cut and styled similar to a man’s. I know I dress up in clothes a boy would wear. Hell, I even know I sometimes act like a guy. If it weren’t for the fact that I actually had s and um, well you know, one might think I was a real boy.

To be honest, it’s pretty cool.

Not many entertainment companies would allow for such a girl to exist in a female pop group, which is why I’m grateful for SM Entertainment to let me stay true to myself. To be able to let me dress and act (almost) anyway I want, is really the greatest thing.

…but I do have moments where I wish I was girly.

Especially when it comes to him.

Really, it was inevitable considering everyone called Jonghyun, him, and me the “SM’s Dino Siblings.”

He was my mentor that I had a little crush on, no big deal. I mean, it shouldn’t be too bad to have one on someone you respect as a person, right?

Oh how wrong that was. Slowly I found myself always staring at him, always longing to be by his side no matter what, it was a strange feeling.

And out of nowhere we became closer, prompting my feelings for him to grow.

The thing is, I know he only sees me as a sister (or brother if you want to make fun of my appearance ha) so it’s pretty much a lost cause.

Sometimes I want show him that I’m still a girl.

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A/N: herp derp. a new story that’s not Kyuyoung, awhat?

Yeah. So a new story with my second favorite couples (following the obvious Kyuyoung), Haeber and Henber. I absolutely adore Amber from f(x). she’s someone to really idolize. She’s not your typical k-pop idol which is nice.

But yeah this story. Um, I hope you guys like it. I was wildly disappointed on the fact there weren’t any stories of these two (none that I could find anyway). Only brother/sister ones :I